April 15, 2005
Its all coming to an end
it is funny how things work out and just don't work out. I have been planning and hoping and waiting for this graduation and the BIG party with my family and friends. It has now ended, very abruptly actually. well not much I can do with it now, its over and done with.
sometimes I stop and think why I keep putting myself through this shit.
March 23, 2005
so yesterday i completely lost it in a session. i must have alot of things going on in my head. i get excited to go home then i come down off this high and feel nervous and like shit. i didn't realize how my life is changing everyday and how much it is overwehlming for me. since i am a planner and have to know where i'm going, its stressful to have no attachments and no strings.