October 4, 2005
What does it mean to be alive?
Sometimes I just want to say, ďWho cares!?Ē Why do I have to put a reason to it? Iím here. Once I tack a reason to it, Iím forever trying to live up to it. I prefer to think that there is no purpose to life. At least there is no ONE purpose to life. There are many reasons for life. Do I need any of those reasons to continue living? No. Iím already here, alive. Itís like being stranded on a deserted island. A person can question why the ship wrecked, or why they were on the ship in the first place, but it doesnít help in finding fresh water and food. Sometimes life is a matter of survival. Many people are in survival mode.
When I go to work I see many people who are there, not because they love the work, but because they need the job to get the money to live their lives the way they want. I do it sometimes too. I go in and out of survival mode. Sometimes work is just a paycheck. There is no purpose or meaning to it. Then I think of the great relationships and friendships I have with some of my coworkers. I love people really and think that this could be the reason I am here. I think of my other activities outside of work and think, ďThis is the reason I am working; For them.Ē And all of the things I am doing may or may not be the reason I am alive. But life goes on doesnít it? I am really happy to be alive, even if my boss is being a jerk or Iím not into doing my work some days.
I think just being alive is enough of a reason to be happy and to go on living. Then at least I can wake up every morning thankful and happy for another day. I can make choices about what I want to do based on what I see going on. Iím going to refrain from hanging a purpose around my neck and just live the best way I know how. I already know I am alive so now what? Well, letís see... So many choices, so little time ;-)
Posted by carl1236 at October 4, 2005 11:47 PM | Attitude