yargh
Though I've never taken a drawing class up until now, I always have disliked my style of drawing and drawing in general. Does anyone else feel this way, as if you're far too much a perfectionist to allow yourself to just draw? In the end, do you ever look at your paper and think, "What the hell, this effing sucks." Everytime it's my sketches on the line for comments, I hold my breath. I'd really like to just hide myself under my jacket hood. I feel so exposed when people see my drawings, it's like I'm naked under a microscope. I see everyone else's work and I think these drawings are tenfold more amazing than mine. Does anyone else experience these sensations?
I've struggled with this embarrasment my whole life. I do not like drawing. Learning to do so in a technical manner is frustrating, yet I want to conquer all the bulls#% holding me back and just do it, because I know it's a valuable skill I will want to have as a designer. This whole week I've had a difficult time in class simply because I feel so much fear and preconcieved notions of dislike way before my pencil even touches the paper. It's like I am being paralyzed by myself and it's really hindering me.
Anyway...
I truly enjoyed seeing everyone's self portraits and gesture drawings. They were marvelous and I Ioved the realism in a lot of the self portraits. How does one decide on proper shading and what are some techniques you guys use to achieve certain effects?
As a side note,I'm terrified to start this first drawing assignment. Eighteen different styles? Yikes. I'm awful at this. My cynicism is a roadblock. Oh, and can anyone clarify for me an organic form? Can we drawfrom organic shapes in our rooms or do we need to stick with food? All week I've been trying to decide the best fruit suited for this project.
Maybe I'll go outside and grab a stick.
Naseem.