Blog #2 Eroticism and Desire

I am having a really fun time with the recent readings because of my own personal interest in understanding sex and sexuality. I draw a lot of parallels between this weeks readings and a book I am currently reading titled "The Ethical Slut". After reading Audre Lorde and Jeanette Winterson I quickly started working on writings of my own, as if they had unlocked some door to information I did not realize I possessed. I feel empowered to re-understand eroticism, and desire and what is natural. I remember when I was a about seven or so going into the bathroom while my stepfather was bathing to ask him questions. I was simply fascinated by him as he reclined in the tub reading books, while his penis would float in the water. He did not seem to care that he was exposed and never made me feel uncomfortable about coming to talk with him about whatever it was I had to say. My mother was the same way, floating down the stairs still glistening naked from a shower and performing some routine task like answering the phone. I did not desire my stepfather or my mother in an unhealthy way, I desired information. I wanted to know where their confidence in their bodies stemmed from. When I was 13, I saw a 3 year old girl sit on her father lap wearing only a t-shirt. He immediately slapped her multiple times and told her to get some underwear on. He scolded her by saying she should not be climbing on him with no underwear on. Moments like these are so pivotal in developing our understanding of desire and eroticism.