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February 18, 2006
That Golden Spot on the Way Down
Friday night, February 17th—we gave Noah the best birthday bash he's had in a decade... and I'm happy too... it's always a joy to be with the people I love...
But somehow, there's always this spiral downwards after a social evening, as I head toward bed... into loneliness... hyper-awareness of the cold, empty space around me...
Tonight, I think I'll go to bed now, while I'm still reveling in the joys of friendship... the memories of a good night, a memorable night... while I still feel like the people around me care... before my pity party really gets rolling... The longer I stay up, the more depressed I will enter sleep, and the more empty I will awake...
Off I go to slumber land... not because I really want to... but for my own good...
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