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April 27, 2009

orb

i saw with my strain eyes an orb
what is this orb
was it really an orb?
I strained my eyes just to see more
I fought to see the light during the day
who would of thpught it would be so hard
the pigments all looked the same
I dare not think of what it is my strained eyes can see
I walked toward it in wonder and aww
I saw my life through anothers eyes
i still walked towards it in wonder and pain
not realizing this orb is my life
a path that was set without my consent a path i knew all to well something inevitable, something strained
i refused to believe that there was no other way
i saw this orb, what is this orb
this orb is my life path
an inevitab;e path that i could not stop to strain

In class automatic writing

Purple monkeys and bamboo hairs
you saw fiftenn people i saw nothing but flares
3 things wrong, 12 times the fight
never say never because it just might bite.
15ft by 30ft is ameasurment i saw you twice and thought 2 times rice?
honestly open to chnge but very negelctive in every eay
black hair, blue eyes, pale skin, never mind.
simple side dishes and dark tans.
green eyes, dark skin, black hair oh hell!!
what is wrong with people!!
what is wrong with you!!

April 18, 2009

dreams and fantasies

In this fantasy everything goes wrong
i see everythinfrom a 3rd view
i cant help but attempt to change this fantasy
with no success
in this fantsy all my dreams come true
but in this fantsy everything goe wrong
i get everything i want, which is something that doesnt happen
i get a house and a life
a life without chaos and complications
i fight for this life, without knowing that this something i dont want
not on these terms, not with these stakes
i risk so much just to gain so little
a dream is nothing more then a pigment of mu imagination
thats why they are called dreams
dreams allow you to have hope, without dreams no one would have a purpose
dreams and fantasies are what we fight for what i fight for
but with this dream, with this fantasy i get nothing but heartache and despair
so why do people dream when it is a known failure
why do i dream when i know none of it will come true
why dream a dream when you can live a lie

April 4, 2009

me and I

i never thought there would be a day when you would let go
with all of my strength i tried to keep hold
but your hands got cold and frail, i couldnt keep a hold
you say that there was nothing within me but i know that was not for certain
I was with in me, you saw me but you didnt see I
i am the one who tried to hold you hand and keep from the cold
but you onnly saw me, a mask i've worn for years but have been unable to shed it
I brought you warmth and comfort when your house was broken
but me was all you saw.
me was not enough but i had no reason to show you I
i would have been vounerable, that is something that i can not handle
so me is what you were given, me is all i have to give
i cant be put in the open, from fear of being hurt
so me is what you were given but me is not what you wanted
no te preocupes estoy bien ( dont worry im fine)
yo busco alguien mas ( i will look for someone else)
alguien feliz y amable ( someone happy and friendly)
no te preocupes ( dont worry)
yo busco a alguien que no es usted ( i will lokk for someone who is not you)