Alone this time
Today was my very first day alone! It was incredible and I really do not think any day will be able to top this one. I was beyond nervous as I walked into the building for the third time this month, because I knew that today was going to be my first day that I really got to interact with the children and get a good feel for what PSP was all about. The children moved from room to room and up and down the hallway all in unbelievable happiness. But their smiles broke my heart as I ran my eyes up and down their disease stricken bodies; bruises, hairless heads, and ragged clothes did not seem of any concern to them. Waiting for some direction for staff, Wendy turned the corner and informed me I would be playing with a little boy in room 316 down the hall and he was waiting for me. Having known room 316 was the one-on-one daycare room I nodded quickly and begin my trek down the hall, attempting to brush off her negative attitude at the same time. Just before the room I found myself having to take a second to gain the courage to turn the corner with a bright face and bubbly attitude.
Daniel was sitting up on the floor with his face buried in his hands, clearly upset about something. He looked to be about four or five years old, but very small for his age. Knocking lightly on the door to let him know I was there, I announced in a quiet, but cheerful voice that my name was Shannon and I was here to see if he wanted to play. Slowly lowering his hands down he turned his tear filled eyes towards mine. For a split second neither of us moved while his expression went from sadness, to confusion, and finally recognizing the signature blue t-shirts every volunteer is required to wear. After a few awkward attempts on my part to make him laugh, we both finally loosened up. The rest of my shift was spent running around the room, playing games, reading a book, and just talking with this little boy.
Daniel is an incredible little boy. He is so aware of the reasons for why he is at PSP and aware of his families situation but it nothing but happy and carefree. I never realized until today how much I could learn from such a young boy. I thought I was so aware of my surroundings, my hardships, and the hardships of people around me and have always felt I handle them well. But I was so wrong. There will always be something that surprises me in life, I just never thought such a surprise could come from such a young boy. I am so excited to go back next month and see Daniel again!