December 15, 2005
In a rut
Everyone has times where they think there is no way out of any situation. I seem to have been in a lot of these lately, with the lawnservice and financial problems, school problems, depression problems, it just seems that the list is never ending. In my case lately, concerning the depression and GAD i always thought that i was the only one feeling this way. What helped me was to talk be open and communicate to people. use your friends and family, swallow hard and get out of bed and force yourself to read and stay busy. I also found that if i take a half hour a day to just sit back and develope your own form of meditation. This really helps to clear the mind and detach from the stressors of everyday life. I personally put some jack johnson on or some beach music and close my eyes and think of the good warm things in my life for roughly a half hour. i'm not totally out of the clear yet but I think by setting goals and sticking with ideas it helps to control some feelings and helps get out of rut like situations.
Posted by at December 15, 2005 1:52 PM
You have great taste in music, from Johnny Cash to Jack Johnson! I agree with you that we all face some tremendous pressures and that we all fall into ruts. I like that Goleman and Fish! have helped you to understand that you have control over your attitude and your emotions and its almost futile to try to control others.
Please take advantage of the U's counseling services, if you haven't already. As you mentioned, it always helps to talk to others and learn your not the only one struggling for balance. We all are struggling for balance at various times and to various degrees. Just when you think you have it together, you'll get a curve ball and need to regroup.
Someone responded to one of your posts and mentioned that you've lost your sense of inner peace. I'm not an expert in ANY sense, but I think it's still there, but it's just fallen to the botton of your proverbial "in-box" as you struggle to balance your lawnservices, school, financial, and mental health issues. I hope you'll use the break to relax, talk to others, find your inner peace, and start having fun with all the opportunities that life offers. Take care of yourself.
Love it! there are actually the occasional two paragraph blog posts on my blog however I'm just too darn wordy otherwise.