I must apologize for not posting much so far this break. However, rather than doing the research that interests me so much, I've been attempting to study for a hideous exam on February 2nd. I am working really hard to master the LSAT and so far I've been doing alright, but to be honest, I am absolutely petrified. If anyone can offer some advice on this three and a half hour hell, I would be very grateful!
Moving on to more interesting and perhaps more infuriating topics. I must share with you the experience I had on New Year's Eve. I know that I'm not perfect when it comes to responding to Extreme Christian Conservatives who use personal attacks. There are some people that are uncomfortable with conflict, and unfortunately, I am one of them. To be clear: I rise to the occasion of debating politics, issues, policies, etc. I shrink from conflict in which I am personally attacked. I offer the example of my horrendous New Year's Eve event.
I went to the house of my parents' friends for some cards and some dinner. When I arrived, the talk around the table immediately changed to politics. There was my parents, my sister, my parents' married friends and their two sons there.
My father decided to take the opportunity to state, "don't get her started on Mike Huckabee."
Its true that I think that man is a poor excuse for a human being. I respond: "Yea, I'm moving to Canada if Mike Huckabee or Mitt Romney are elected," forgetting of course that I was in the company of Christian Conservatives and that they may support these lunatics.
Husband looks at me and asks, "Why don't you like Romney?"
Response: "I didn't appreciate his speech on Religion among other things."
"What didn't you like about the speech?"
"I didn't like that, although he seemed to support the statements of the first amendment, he contradicted them with the remainder of his speech. He suggested that the President of the United States should run the country under one God and that, in effect saying, that even though the Constitution guarantees freedom of religion and establishment, that doesn't necessarily mean that you are free from my/our religion. He excludes many valued and merited religions like Buddhism, Hinduism, Wicca, Goddess Worshipers. Many followers of whom are my friends. The fact that the country should be run under one God simply because historic documents mention "creator" does not give him the right to force all Americans to follow his favored monotheistic views." [I paraphrase of course, but this is the general idea.]
Wife, who sits on the other side of me, maliciously (yes, I use that adjective deliberately) that, "God is mentioned in more places in the constitution and was the basis of the founding of the country."
I have never been able to come back effectively when someone speaks so hatefully towards me. I merely responded that I did not wish to argue with her on that point.
Husband, on my other side, wonders aloud as to what exactly Wicca is. Many attempts to explain it around the table are wrong, but in have the essential ideas of the 'religion.' I attempt to explain more fully and as carefully as I can what Wicca is. Husband, goes on, "Parents, you don't need to listen to this, you can close your ears," turns to me and asks seriously, "Can you do magic?"
At this point, I'm stunned for a couple seconds. Not really wanting to answer fully, which would take some time to explain that his views on magic and Wicca were still skewed, I replied to him, "No." I offered the look of shock in response.
I take the hateful tones and probing, unnecessary, attacking questions as...personal attacks. When we all stand up to go and play some cards, Husband tries to reassure me that they like to debate and that he wasn't trying to put me on the spot. I respond, "One of my majors requires of me to think of the 'other' and of marginalized groups that may not receive the attention that normative groups or persons do."
"Oh, what major is that?"
"Women's Studies"
My father: "Yea, we're hoping its just a phase." Followed by sincere laughter from both Husband and my father.
As if I wasn't already feeling hurt and humiliated, I responded privately that it is unacceptable to undermine what I do daily in front of people who already disregard me because they think that I'm subversive. Do not ever disregard me or what I do again.
With barely an apology, I go to the other room to play cards and attempt to forget everything. Throughout the card game, I am repeatedly called a witch because it is now assumed that I am also Wiccan and "don't piss her off, she'll curse you." Getting up and going to the kitchen to get some tea and/or stopping myself from throwing things, Wife follows me.
She asks, "why don't you like to discuss politics?"
"I have no problem discussing politics. In fact, I love debating politics. I do not, however, like to discuss religion."
"Why not?"
"I'm not sure where I stand when it comes to religion and I wouldn't be able to make fair and well-based arguments for one way or another."
"Well, you had better get used to it. No one is going to stop talking about something just because you're uncomfortable." Malicious tone again.
The rest of the evening is not worth mentioning. I ask all of you out there in the blogosphere: what on earth should a person like me say when attacked in this way? I have already decided that I will never grace their presence again, but what concerns me most is what I should have said. I am furious at the way they handled my clarification of what Wicca really is. Just because I know something about a group of people does not make me a part of that group. I may know a lot about the civil rights movement from the '60's. That does not make me an African American. I may know a lot about Communism. That doesn't make me a Communist. Its absolutely infuriating how people can take an argument you make and completely disregard the main point and address only the "weird" thing you mentioned within it. Anyways, sorry for the rant.