Slipping and Tired
Every once in a while, when you're tired and overworked, you seem to lose your grip. Today, I hit that point. Sometimes, it doesn't seem to matter how much you try, something always goes wrong. I recently moved into my new studio apartment which I am absolutely in love with. I have also worked every day for a while. Even though my job may seem frivolous or simple to most, those who have actually attempted being a receptionist for a realty understand the frustrations and exhaustion that comes with it. Anyways, I lost my grip somewhere between 7:00 and 10:30 this morning. I woke up at 7, has a glass of water and then sat back down on my bed preparing to get up and work today. The only problem was, I lay back down and fell asleep. I do not remember falling asleep, but I do remember waking up at 10:30 in a panic. I was supposed to be at work by 9. This is where you have lost your grip. I got no sleep, so my exhaustion takes over my brain and thought process and doesn't allow for rational "I have to work soon" processes. I think my boss is seriously peeved with me. On occasion this happens and I'm late for my life and whatever I had planned. It is silly times like these where you could get fired, that you start to reconsider the way you live and better ways to ensure stability. It is also times like these where everyone around you seems to be so perfect and have everything in line. I don't know if this is just the way I am, or if I need to change somehow and create some new habits. Perhaps some self-reflection? Doubt it, probably nap-deprived.