fuck this shit
I have had just about enough. To be accurate, I have had more than I can handle. This world and the people who inhabit it are so full of shit and ignorance that they couldn't find their ass if they tried. I'll be the first to admit that I don't know everything, regardless of how much I hate that. I am so tired of people thinking they know better than I do about my own fucking future. Stop telling me what to do. I will not change my path just because you think you know more. I can vouch for all of you that you have no clue the depth of my thought processes and why I do the things I do. I'm not as desperate as I seem sometimes. I hate when people tell me what I want, especially in my own bed. I'm smarter than you give me credit for and far more radical than you could imagine. I know you, you're just like every other asshole who seems to be attracted to me. Do not for a second assume that your ego or your justifications are a turn on. I am just waiting for a break so that I can run away and disappear. That is the one thing I have always been good at: disappearing. You won't know until these illusions you've been holding on to dissolve and you are falling faster and faster. Don't assume that I will feel bad for you as you fall. I take no responsibility for your foolishness and naivety. I may be young, as everyone seems so surprised of, but I still seem to be able to trick you into anything I want. I hold the power; I have all the control. I wouldn't be here if I didn't. Sometimes I think that people just want to see me break and that's why they continue to push me further from my path and my carefully thought-out plans. I don't do many things without thinking them through. Do not question me. I wish that I could have 'fuck off' tattooed onto my forehead just to stop people from assuming innocence and approaching. No, I'm not interested in you. No, I have no need of your advice. No, I don't want to go out. Please just back the fuck off. I'm not interested in your 'macho' attitude. In fact, I've never really been attracted to masculine qualities. I prefer softer forms. What makes you think that a dominating demeanor is going to win me over? Is there something about me that suggests submissiveness and willingness to do anything? Why is everyone surprised when I don't put out or when I walk away from something or someone who isn't worthy? I don't need to give you any reasons and I don't have to justify myself. I will not apologize for myself anymore. Just accept the fact that I'm an angry bitch. I have no problems with that. There is nothing wrong with the way I act or speak. Merely because you cannot 'figure me out' doesn't mean that you have to. I appreciate my mystery and enigmatic qualities. There's a reason for them. Even when you think you've got me figured out, its just another illusion to trick you into thinking you've won. Because, you see, I refuse to relinquish power or control in any situation. You are no different. My greatest talent comes in handy most frequently. I can run away better than anyone. You might see me, but I'm not really there. My mind is never entirely focused on you or anything that I do. I am in a constant state of creation and contemplation. So, no, you don't know me and I'm not going to let you in that far. I may not be the most brilliant or the most beautiful, but that does not mean my life is worthless. Just because you feel you have one up on me, doesn't mean I am not valuable. I seem to have quite an interesting dilemma. Either people believe that I am worthless because I am lacking in some way, or people believe that I am of the greatest value and try to keep me like a fucking pet. The only people who see me as an individual are my friends. Why can't more people see others as individuals rather than qualities or characteristics? So what if they're not beautiful? They have a beautiful mind and are intellectually divine. There is nothing worse than judging someone for what they lack rather than for what they have. The point of this entire rant is to wake you all up. Be humanitarian: value the lives of others.