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December 15, 2006

story

one of these days,
i'm going to tell my story
and you won't be able to escape any more.

you will forever be in print.

your sins and transgressions
forever recorded.

that is what i want.
i want you in ink.

stored on my shelf with the binding sparkling in the sun
next to aristotle and hooks because that is where you fit
in my life.

and maybe you do not understand
but my life is characterized
and plotted
by books
and authors.

you may not understand your place
in my life
but you cannot deny that you
were, are, and always will be
a part of my life
whether you want to be or not.

the effect you have had on me is greater than even
i like to admit
but i will continue to put it on paper, in ink.

and you will suffer at my hands and my pen.

i feel that is what your sentence requires.
you deserve your own book, a biography.

but it is my creation and
you will have no say.

but everything i say is the truth.
for your biography is my memoir.

so brace yourself for what i will produce
because not only do i have power
over my life
but i have considerable power
over yours as well.

no, you have no choice.

i am goddess divine
of my story.

December 12, 2006

a woman

there is a woman who cares
what i have to say
there is a woman who loves
me for who i am
there is a woman who says
what she wants
there is a woman who does
what she feels
there is a woman who creates
art through life
there is a woman who sees
life in art
there is a woman who sings
for those oppressed
there is a woman who acts
to save all women
there is a woman who cannot
know how i love her

December 11, 2006

secret

in secret, i am womyn
feminist
atheist
gorgeous
seductive
lesbian
lover
passionate
emotional
strong
spontaneous
goddess
bitch
cunt
artist
creator

but like i said, womyn in secret. come see the real in me...its about time i got out.

mistake

why am i never enough?
not norwegian enough
pretty enough
smart enough
god-fearing enough
independent enough
naive enough
experienced enough
short enough
true enough
WOMAN ENOUGH

STOP

take me as i am or leave me to my broken misery. you have taken all that i hold onto and now i lay here, trying desperately to get back on my feet reaching for you because you are still the only person who makes me feel like i can fly.
please come back.
i swear i didn't mean it.
no, i won't ever do it again.
i know,
just being a stupid woman
i love you
please don't leave me again
i don't think i would ever be able to rise again after you.

my colossal mistake.

mother

she is my mother
and my lover
she is my friend
and my cover
she means everything to me
and i love her
more than she knows

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