Poems

there is one thing
i need to tell you
before i die
fucking grow up
stop throwing power
over my head
thinking it will
scare me away
now kiss me quick
'fore i change my mind
i've been waiting
all this time for you
to figure it out
and here i am
getting nothing
out of you
what did i expect
did i truly believe
that you could change
and now i'm hoping
you don't read this
my thoughts written
clearly on paper
nowhere to go
no means to deny
i'm caught in this
corner i've created
the only thing is
i want desperately
to be here with you

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walk out of my apartment
hiding my belly bump
at the end of the hallway
lies my destination
just thought i'd tell you
what the results were
i'm about two months
oh by the way its yours
you hide the shock
walk up behind me
your arms around me
hugging me in reverse
i forgot how good that feels
time to figure it out
whats the next step
surrounded by my family
feeling oh so small
walk into the clinic
there are so many women
bustling, confusing
there is a black woman
telling me it ain't so bad
turn around to see
my mother at the counter
checking me into hell
wake up thinking
how scary would this be
if it weren't just a dream

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