"You Can Run Over Me With Your 18-Wheeler"
Today on light rail something happened that has not happened in a really long time.
I was sitting in one of the chairs in the middle of the train going sideways. When the train pulled into the 46th Ave station a guy came on the train and sat directly across from me.
As soon as he sat down I ended up looking right into his eyes. I could tell immediately that he was gay, but what I was not expecting was to find him so attractive. Lately I have not seen many gay guys that I have thought, “Wow…he is attractive” Of course since I was attracted to this guy, I could barley take my eyes off of him and I would steal little glances every now and then.
I am not sure why it happened, but I started throwing an 18-wheeler (semi)…I was not even thinking about sex!! Anyway thank god for the slightly overweight woman who was on board. She was wearing a shirt with huge armholes so I could see all the way up her sleeve to her off white bra. That, giving me something to laugh at, got rid of my growing problem.
Alas I did not have the nerve to talk to him, and got off the train. I guess I am still a looser when it comes to the guys. I seriously do not know why it is so hard for me to walk up to a guy and start talking. It could be low self esteem, however I don’t think I am ugly…It could be that I am shy, which is probably correct, however at the same time I think I am pretty outgoing.
Comments
That was one opportunity lost. You need to work on building self confidence more. It will help you the next time you're trapped in this situation.
Building self confidence couldn't be that difficult. Stay focused on your goal and motivate yourself in achieving or doing it. You may even forget that you are shy if you are so keen to do achieve it.
Posted by: Building Self Confidence | August 7, 2007 03:58 PM