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July 31, 2004

What drunk people do

So yeah I am a bity bit drunk right now.....

I am sitting by myself in my apt after going out on my first bar tour, and It was super fun... I had like 6 and a half beers in like 8 hrs, which is not much so I do not know why I am buzzing a bit right now.. perhaps I should count the beers I have had

1 beer at Dan's bar
1 beer at some place in Cannon Falls
1 beer at some place in Randolph
1 beer at a some place in Northfield
1 more beer at some place in Northfield
1 more beer at yet another place in Northfield
1 beer at Old chicago in Eagan.

So I guess that 7, why am i buzzing right now... I guess I am a light wieght or something... And this entry is kind of stupid because I have no point to make.

Next week on Wednesday is my last final for summer classes so If there was anyone out there who might want to hang out, chances are you have my phone number, unless your some one I don't talk to that often. In that case I changed my cell number and you will have to find some other way of getting ahold of me.

I gotta go do some thing that drunk people do, so later

July 30, 2004

Out Of My League

Last night I went to the Saloon with my friends Tom and Dave. It has been a couple weeks since I have been out and about two years since I have been to the Saloon on Thursday.

Not much has changed over there except they now have go go dancers on certain nights and they recently installed this big plastic cage looking thing that apparently is a shower for their "Wet Fridays.” Not only do I find this pretty nasty, but also I am wondering, WHO THE FUCK COMES UP WITH THIER PROMOTIONS? If you are going to have a shower for your little go go dancers and your going to put wet in front of a certain day, wouldn't you want to say maybe WET WEDNESDAYS? Actually I think they may be 18+ on Wednesdays so that is their thinking behind it, however if the bouncers were actually doing their job there would be no one in there under 18. I believe that is the age where you can legally look at explicit materials so why couldn't they go see a male stripper?

I realize that the Saloon is pretty much a meat market and almost everyone there is just looking for someone to take home and then kick out the next morning, but there were a few good looking guys there. I was about ready to give up on the dating scene in MN, but at least I now know there is some hope, no matter how small it may be.

There was one guy I saw who was pretty cute but he kind of lingered in areas where I could see him, yet he could remain inconspicuous. So he would kind of hide behind a corner and then peak out every now and then. There was also a guy there that I had in one of my classes last spring. I always wondered if he was gay or not. I saw this boy I used to fool around with back in the day, and then I saw the boy I wrote about in the entry Willy Wonka.

I hate that I am so afraid to go and talk to people, it certainly makes it easier to meet people when you’re willing to talk to them. I think my thoughts on this guy are that he is simply out of my league. ARRRGGG I’m frustrated!

July 29, 2004

To Hook or Not To Hook

So summer session ends next week!!! My final day will be on Wednesday, and I can't wait!!! When school is done I will be able to work a bit more and make back some of the money I wasted on my education. :-)

I will also be able to go out with my friends a little more frequently, and hopefully be able to get more sleep.

It was a good idea for me to take classes this summer, and it will be a great idea for me to take them next summer. However it makes me sick to think about how much money I made last summer working three jobs, and how little I have made this summer. Hopefully next summer I will be able to work a bit more because I am really gonna need the cash.

Maybe I should turn to the hookin. You know its perfect for while you’re a student because you work when you need the money. It can be pretty easy work, your getting a work out while your working, and hey there is nothing saying that while your customer is doing their thing you can't flip over dig in your school bag take out a book and start studying.

July 27, 2004

Male PMS

ARRRGGH. I am really frustrated right now. Don't ask me why, I do not know. I am in one of those moods where almost every little thing pisses me off. Maybe I am have some male PMS.

I don't want to go to my summer class today, but there is a paper due and then I have a meeting afterwards. I need to write a journal assignment, actually make that two. One of the assignments is late but my teacher said he would accept it anyway.

I wish I had money so I could go out and get my self completly trashed...yeah that would be nice.

July 26, 2004

Loans

I just did more of my financial aid shit and it looks like I am gonna go for the 11,500 dollars instead of doing 17,000. i don't want to take out a loan in my parents name so... The 11,500 will be great though. I am broke right now so at least I know that what money I do have will go to my car payments. I just hope when I get a "real job" I will be able to pay them off quickly.

I think with some of the money I get from the loan I will buy myself a dell notebook because my mom will be stealing back her notebook with which I am currently using.

Thats all folks

July 22, 2004

Relationships

Last night Will came over to pick up his wallet, which I am a bit nervous over. It was neat that I had it because it meant Will had to call me and had to hang out with me if he ever wanted it back. Well now it is back in his possession and we had made plans for Sunday night. I am a little nervous that he will try and back out now.

When Will came over he had Fallan in his car. I guess they have been spending some time together. Perhaps they are a couple now? This really makes me feel weird. Will is the only person I know who dates about as often as I do. Pretty much never, and now he is dating someone. It makes me feel like I need to be dating someone. Maybe I am secretly jealous of my friends because they all seem to be happier now than they were, or than I am.

Here is the weird part though. I really don't mind being single. I have faith that there is someone out there for me and if that person is taking their time getting to me, there must be a good reason. While I do not mind being single I look around me and all of my gay friends are dating someone now. I am the only single one.

They all keep saying to my other friends, or me "We need to find Dan a nice guy." When I hear them say that I cringe. I am like why do I need to find someone nice or anyone at all? Yet at the same time, some where in the back of my mind I find myself thinking, "Yeah that would be nice"

I believe that since my relationship with Tony ended I have been extremely picky. At first it was as if I was comparing people to Tony. But now it just seems like no one really impresses me enough, and if they do I don't think I stand a chance. Are my standards to high? Should I lower them? If I do that though I will feel like I am settling, why should I settle for what’s in front of me, when there could be some one or some thing better waiting around the corner?

July 21, 2004

Willy Wonka

There is this boy that I like, and I am sure that I have mentioned him here before. It’s been awhile since I have really been interested in anyone, so I am not really sure how I should be dealing with this.

This also makes me feel like I am back in High School cause I never see this boy anywhere. I have met him once and got his phone number that day because we were both going to be at a concert the next day.

I have never forgot the day I met him. It was at a friend’s birthday party last September. He seemed really shy cause it seemed that this friend was the only one he knew. Anyway I told this girl at the party that I thought he was cute and she forced me to talk to him, basically about the concert the next day. I had like six extra tickets so I wanted to get ride of them. Anyway we talked about the concert and then went our own ways for a bit. Later on I believe he was about to leave and I noticed something behind his ear. It looked like gum so I asked him in my drunken stupor.

"Do you know you have gum behind your ear?" He said that he knew it was gum, he could tell by the look I gave him that I thought it was weird. So he went on to explain.

"Have you ever seen the movie Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory?"

"Yes," I said.

"Well you know that character who chewed gum all the time? She had that once piece that she had been chewing for like seven years and she would stick it behind her ear when she was done."

Now most people would have called this guy a freak and walked away, cause even I will admit that it was quite weird, some might say gross. But for some reason I thought it was the cutest thing I had ever heard.

I am sure that by now, from reading my journal, you know I am way into dorky guys. My definition of dorky can be many things. Dorky can be a smart dorky, like a "nerd" or personality dorky. The things you do define personality dorky. If you tell lame jokes, are crazy in odd ways, or put gum behind your ear because you once saw it in a movie. You are personality dorky. The personality dorky guy is so my favorite.

Anyway like I said the problem is I have only meet him one time, and he probably forgot me. Another problem is that he probably would not want to even hang out with me as friends. Maybe I am being to hard on myself but after being single for over a year I have to think that perhaps there is something wrong with me.

July 19, 2004

The Manipulator

William called me back he is ok. Apparently he miss understood when his sister said we were going to dance. He thought she said that we were leaving. I wonder why he would have thought that? He knows that I would not have left him to get a ride home with some guy we only just met. Oh well.

Lets see, I am runnning short on money. Being 21 has its draw backs.

Tomorrow night Will and Dallas are coming over to my place for an Absolutley Fabulous Night. Will got some new ones on DVD and Dallas has an AB FAB movie, so I think I will have them bring those over and we can laugh our asses off and get drunk. I would like to have it at Wills place because I have never been inside it, but it just seems more convienent to have it at my place because I have the extra room.

I love my new phone, it is pretty cool. I wish I would have been able to take my old number to verizon, but I guess Qwest has some wierd thing with thier wireless and I was not able to take my number. I would have been able to if I would have waited a week, but my Dad said he would not have the money for a new phone in a week because of the house payments.

My mom is upset about the new number because she originally suggested to wait a week but we went ahead and did it anyways, because she did add that it was my choice whatever I decided. She talked to me today and said "I wanted you to wait a week, I don't like you having a different number."

My mom is really good at guilt trips and it pisses me off. She likes to make it seem like I have options and that I can run my own life, but she manipulates me so much. I think I may call her THE MANIPULATOR. She knows I will do whatever she tells me yet she gives me the fucking option anyway. When I chose the one she didn't want me to, then she really lays it on. Here is some advice. Instead of laying a fucking guilt trip on me TELL ME WHAT TO FUCKING DO!!! I HATE IT WHEN YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIK SHIT FOR MAKING MY OWN DECISION.

July 18, 2004

Loose Lips

Warning...Warning... You are about to read, perhaps the longest blog entry ever! Enjoy!!

Yeah, I'm 21 now and I have not updated this in awhile... Not because I am 21 and out drinking all the time, I just don't have anything interesting to say.

But this weekend we celebrated Will's 21st birthday.

We started the weekend by going to Dave's beautiful townhouse in St Paul. Dave had super good food and drink to be had by all, and a good time was had by all. Dave is such a good host. Jenny and I went together cause she had been there before on New Years Eve. The last time we were there her mother dropped us off and then picked us up, so this time I called my dad and he was nice enough to agree to drop us off and then pick us up.

Then on Saturday I went out with my Grandma, Sister, Father, and most of the Williams (close close family friends) to celebrate my birthday because they were out of town. My Aunt Mary and her family were also supposed to come and that is a long drawn out story...Which I will now tell you.

I was told that we were going to go out to eat maybe one or two weeks before the day actually came, and that I was to choose the place and make reservations if they need be. I had a hard time picking because I was trying to pick someplace that everyone would want to go to and be able to afford. Finally I said to myself, "Self, you only turn 21 once in a life time, you might as well go where you want to go” I ended up narrowing it down to two places that I have never been to. Maggiano's in Edina or the St. Paul Grill. One of the two is clearly more expensive then the other. Now, maybe its because I don't feel worthy of dinner at a fancy place, or its just me being money conscious, but my gut told me to go with Maggiano's. However, like I said I only turn 21 once, and it was close to my Grandpa's birthday and he used to love to go to the Grill with my mother. So the decision was made to go to the St. Paul Grill.

My Aunt told me to make the reservations at whatever places early so that Grandma could come along. She specifically said anywhere from 5:00 to 6:00 so I made them for 5:30. Now I have many different Ideas as to why she did not come, but the fact remains, she backed out early on Saturday.

Theory Number One: She wanted my cousin Greg to be able to come and she also felt the need to make sure Grandma ate early. Greg would have been there a half-hour to an hour late. I see the thinking behind this, but while it would have been nice to have Greg there for my birthday dinner, it was not a necessity.

Theory Number Two: She was tired

Theory Number Three: She just didn't want to go to the St Paul grill. This theory is so complex that it has sub theories. Why wouldn't she want to come to the Grill?
1. She was pressed for money. She was just coming off vacation, so this is acceptable.
2. She didn't want to go there because it reminds her of her father, and she still has not gotten over grieving for him. This is also acceptable, however it has been two years since he died. Grandpa would want you to move on and be happy. If you can't realize this and move on yourself, perhaps you need to talk to someone who can help you with that.
3. She didn't want to go to the St. Paul Grill, because she didn't want to go there. It was not her choice of restaurant. This theory is totally unacceptable. Not only did I ask if they had any ideas that I could choose from, partially to keep it in a nice price range, but it was also MY BIRTHDAY. For her birthday we can go where she would like to go.

Theory Number Four: This is the one I like the most. My Aunt is a planner. That’s just what she does. She will call everybody and come up with a place and time to meet, and a whole schedule for the day. Perhaps she was confused, just like she said on the phone, because she was not the one planning the evening.

Whichever theory is true, I am a little disappointed because I have not seen my Aunt Mary in a long time. It would have been nice to see her for my birthday I miss her.

Ok now has started. We are sitting around, and everything is quite elegant inside this restaurant. We order appetizers and they are wonderful. Then after we order our food my dad decides he is bored. At this point I really wish I had remembered his past behavior at every nice restaurant we have been in. My dad likes to launch spoons into his water glass. He carefully lines up the spoons so that al he has to do is to quickly press down on the one sending his other spoon flying through the air to hopefully land in his glass. Of course other tables would hear the noise and look over at us; some gave us dirty looks. I was so embarrassed. You know now that I think of it my sister and dad were not really even going to be invited because they had already celebrated with me, and I would just rather not have had my dad there. He is way too cheap. The only reason they were invited was because my Grandma spilled the beans. Loose Lips Grandma...Loose Lips.

Anyway dinner is over and I go home to get ready for Will's birthday. Will calls me a bit later and says we are going to the Underground. I have never been there before but will said it was next to Bolt and the Eagle, (the leather bars...umm...) So I go pick him up not even knowing I was going to be the sober cab in the first place, cause no one asked me. Ok whatever I can just take it easy and not drink too much. So we are sitting there and the crowd is just so different then what I am used to. Will meets this guy Fallan or something like that, and they ran off leaving me downstairs in a leather bar where I knew no one. Then his friends that I have never meet before left... and where is Will? I dunno so I go off looking for him. I finally find him, and we then decide to go to the Saloon cause his sister is there. So we head over there and Fallan meets us while we are on our way inside.

Blah blah blah we sit there for awhile, Will talks to Fallan, I sit and look cute and talk to Will's sister. They are about to close and Will's sister says let’s go dance. So we go dance, well Will and Fallan sit somewhere else and talk. I decide I am done dancing and that I want to go home, so I go out looking for Will. By this time most of the bar is closed so it should not have been too hard to find him.

Where is Will, I can't find him anywhere, I walk around the whole bar and don't see him. I grab Jenny (his sister) and we walk around the whole bar looking but do not find him. They close and we wait outside for 15 minuets and we can't find him. We called his cell phone and he never answered it. I hated to do it, but I finally left and went home assuming that his guy that no one really knew drove Will home. This guy Fallan seemed nice, but we don't know him, and he was drunk.

If Will wanted Fallan to drive him home I wish he would have said so before, so I would not have looked around for him. If Will wanted to leave he could have come found me and said, "hey lets leave".

When you are drunk at a bar and you have a friend there as your sober cab, you don't leave with some guy you just met without telling them... I called Will when I got home and he still did not answer so I left a message that he was to call me as soon as he woke up so that I would know he was ok. I still have not heard from him, and I am really worried, and I am really pissed.

July 15, 2004

An odd dream

I had a weird dream that I wanted to share. I had this dream last night

It takes place in my apartment, only it looks a bit different and it is in California right off of a busy beach.

I am sitting at my keyboard singing a Charlotte Martin song, when I notice one of my keys breaks. So I continue to play and another one breaks. I find this odd so I stop and look out the window.

I see many people outside tanning and a whole bunch of surfers surfing. As I look farther out towards the ocean I see a huge tidal wave coming right towards the beach. I start to panic and scream what should I do what should I do? I suddenly have the idea that I need to get out of my building or I will surely drown.

At this point I look out my window again and notice that the water level outside has gone up to my windowsill. I find this weird after thinking about the dream because I was on the third flow, and when I looked out further I could still the beach and the wave coming closer.

As the wave is coming closer the specs in the water that I thought were swimmers and surfers bob up over the wave and disappear. At this point the wave is getting really close so I decide I better find a high place in my apartment and hold on tight. I crawl up inside a closet shelf and just in time too.

When the wave hits the building I could feel the building come up off its foundation and twirl around, only to be placed back on the foundation exactly as it was before.

Its over now so I decide to look out the window and the ocean is gone, all I see is a desert. At this point I remember that my ex Tony and our friend Katie had recently moved into an apartment on the first floor, so I thought I should check on them.

When I get down into their apartment (101) I see that they are cleaning and remember that my apartment was perfectly clean, while their apartment had been flooded and there was stuff everywhere. I also notice that they are in Halloween Costumes and I ask them about it, and they don't say anything. For some reason I came to the conclusion that they just woke up and had slept throughout the entire event.

So I start telling them about it and we go outside to look at the missing ocean. At this time we all notice that there is a newly formed fault that runs right between our building and the one next to us and out towards what used to be the sea.

I decide I want to go outside and look at the rest of the damage, and there are people and rescue crews everywhere. I noticed that a building that was not on the ocean like mine had been torn to shreds and they were looking for survivors. At this point I turn around to go home and notice a small rainbow directly over the path I need to take.

While I looked at the rainbow I remember feeling happy and so I tried to touch it, but every time I got near it jumped away from me...

Then I woke up
Anyone know anything about dreams?

July 13, 2004

The Reversed Golden Birthday

Well boys and girls, I am now 21 years old.

Last night was a blast; we started out at the new Bonfire in Savage, which is really huge. I was only going to have one or two drinks there, but of course my plan was foiled. I started out with a Sex on the Beach, then I had a Waptui, then the manager gave me a blowjob. After this one of the servers bought me a sex with an alligator and told me I was supposed to drink this massive drink as if it were a shot. After that another server bought me a purple hooter. Way too much to drink. My friends tried to buy my drinks and food there but the other manager...Super hot Tyler had beaten them to it. My entire meal was comped.

Then it was off to chilis for chips and margarita's. My dad bought me one presidente margarita, my aunt then bought me another, and my ex Tony ordered me a stoplight, which chili's paid for. He wasn't too happy. I was only going to have one drink at chilis

Then we went to my Bonfire, where one of my friends was able to buy me my first shot. We had a red headed slut. Then I had a between the sheets.

Then we proceeded to Doolittle’s for 2 for 1s. There I had a "Woo HOO" three wise men, and I think two beers.

I don't remember the ride home or anything that happened after that. I woke up in my mother’s bed laying on my cell phone and glasses. I got up and went to the bathroom and proceeded to puke. After that I went back to bed and woke up at 1:00 and had some water, which I puked up. Finally I was able to keep water down so I tried to eat something...Every thing is fine now, but man was I drunk last night.

I was told that when Katie Moreno and Tony took me home I practically stripped in front of them and proceeded to walk out into the hall with my pants around my ankles.

Man what a night...I think I will wait awhile till I drink again.

July 11, 2004

Delinquency of a Minor

Yesterday Was Andy Knutson's wedding. It was very nice, good food and really good cake. All the things a wedding should be...including the free tap beer, which contributed to the delinquency of a minor. What can I say, I was thirsty. And it can only be considered the a minor offence for 11 more hours.

Somehow my camera is loaded with pictures and I certainly do not remember taking all 27 pictures myself. Perhaps it was a bad idea to leave my camera sitting at a table all by itself.

I slept at my fathers house, wait no I take that back. I tried to sleep at my father's house but I just could not get comfortable, so I left at about 5:30 this morning. On my way home I heard something pretty interesting on the radio. According to a new scientific discovery there could be a link between pregnant mothers who smoke and those offspring becoming obese later in life. The radio said this correlation was proven in studies involving rats. The first thing that came to my mind was this gigantically pregnant rat reclining on a sofa trying to hold onto a ciggy while watching her "stories"

Tonight my sister, cousin, and Heidi Knutson (sister of the groom) will be taking to me to some random location at around 12:00am to commence drinking.

July 09, 2004

Ridiculously Good Looking

It’s the day before Andy's wedding. It’s kind of weird to think that the first of my friends is getting married tomorrow. I guess it makes me feel a bit older than I really am.

I did manage to get all my shopping done for this wedding. I dunno why but I had the feeling that I should just look ridiculously good for this wedding. So I will.

This is a busy weekend.
Tomorrow is the wedding
Sunday I need to conduct an interview and I am debating on whether or not to write the analysis this day as well, or I can wait till Monday.
Monday is my birthday. I have to write the analysis paper.

On top of all this I have to read to long chapters of a textbook...fun

July 06, 2004

A Nation in Mourning

Last night Jenny and I went to see Fahrenheit 9/11. I am sure you have all read a lot about this movie or have seen it yourselves; so I am going to try and keep this brief.

A lot of the stuff we were presented with, I was already aware of. However, a lot of good points were brought up.

After seeing this movie I feel extreme anger. I know what I saw was Michael Moore’s side of the story, but some of this actually happened. For instance, Bush sitting in the elementary schoolroom during a time when his country, our country, needed their leader. Even when he heard the second plane hit, Bush just sat there looking confused. There was another area that upset me that involved a mother who lost her son in when a helicopter crashed. She went to Washington and broke down in front of the White House.

This film will for certain raise a lot of important questions. And there will be conflicting view points as to what actually happened. One thing I am sure we can all agree on, however, is that while it has been almost three years since 9/11; we are still a nation in mourning

Patriotic Opera

Welcome to the 40th entry on T.D.O.D.F; T.S.O.A.N.S.C.M

Lets talk about 4th of July!!!

Josh came over to my little cocktail party and he and I drank many Margaritas’. I do believe I had about two more then he did. Jenny, Leah, And Alicia also came over, but they left after the fireworks.

During the fireworks we had a somewhat obstructed view, but we could still them, which was cool. We also sang patriotic songs in an opera type voice, which was fun. We will be releasing a CD in the beginning of 2005. We shall call it Patriotic Opera. I think we include a dance remix of "I'm proud to be an American." Simply because that song needs to be "Gayed Up"

Like I said I was drinking all night. Throughout the night I maintained a comfortable level of buzz. I forgot to make food for my guests. You can't have a cocktail party and not put out appetizers. So I made those around 12:00 and Josh and I chowed down.

July 04, 2004

My Dissention

Tonight, well in 9 minuets actually, I am having some people over to watch the fireworks. My balcony in my apartment faces north so we will get a nice front row seat for the Eagan fireworks. We may be able to see Bloomington and Minneapolis as well. It should be a good show.

I am making some appetizers and we are gonna watch AB Fab to start the night out. I can't believe my guests have never seen AB Fab before! We will also be drinking Margaritas all night long. I hope I don't run out of margarita fixings. Hmmm.

Let’s see what I have on the countdowns.
1. One more night left of "watching" my father’s house. Really I go over there for a couple hours, chill with the dog, and then leave for a couple hours.
2. 6 more shopping days to buy a pair of pants and a belt and some shoes for Andy Knutson's wedding.
3. 8 more days till my 21st birthday
4. One month and two days till summer session is over.
5. Two months until I make my dissention into the fiery pits of hell. Or move into my father's house, whichever wording you prefer.

Life, Liberty, and Happiness?

Today is the fourth of July! The day us American's celebrate declaring our independence from the British. It seems like we gained a great deal by declaring our independence, don't get me wrong, it was the right decision to make and the United States is a world power today because of that. However have we really declared independence?

I can't help but look at the situation in Iraq and notice that we are independent in most cases, yet still dependent. We all depend on oil from the Middle East in order to get gasoline, so that we can make it into work on time. Without the gasoline we do have the Alaskan oil line, but it still effects our economy. If we are completely dependent, how can one nation that we are at war with effect our economy so drastically.

Yes international affairs are important, but it seems to be we were more independent when we didn't get involved in things over seas. Now no matter what we do, we seem to be dependent on other nations. If we weren’t, why are international relations so important?

I am not saying this is a bad or good thing, in fact I don't know a lot about how everything political works. I probably should not even be writing about this because I don't completely understand what it is I am talking about. That is the great thing about this country though. I can say pretty much whatever I want to because that right is protected by the First Amendment.

Which causes me to think about our other freedoms we have by living in this country. We have the freedom to choose our own religion and practice it freely, we have the right to bear arms (in some states conceal and carry), and many others.

Among all those rights in the Constitution are Civil Rights, which many quickly associate with African American rights, but when you think about it also reach out to women’s rights, and gay rights.

The current President however, George W. Bush, wants to add the first Amendment to our nations constitution that will freely discriminate against anyone, specifically homosexuals. Bush proposed an amendment that would "protect" the sanctity of marriage, by making it strictly defined that a marriage is between one man and one woman.

It is hard to say what our nations first leaders would say about such an amendment; they grew up in a completely different time. Homosexuals were around then but they were not known as such. The sexual binary system that most of us have grown up with did not exist back then. Research has also been done that says as each generation grows up and has children; those children and their children’s children become more excepting of different life styles. Our nation's first leaders were puritans and thus would probably agree with what George Bush is trying to do. Thinking about that makes this holiday a little bit hard to want to celebrate.

In a nation where we are supposedly independent, free, and protected by our rights and individuals its incredibly hard to think that the words this country was formed on stand for mean so much, yet don't apply to all people.

"All men are created equal" - Then why do we not all have the exact same rights? Why can two men not marry just like a man and a woman?

"Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" - But not if you love someone of the same gender.

July 03, 2004

Horrors of a Stretch Mark

Yesterday was both frustrating and fun at the same time. I was supposed to work a double shift at my job, so I went in during the lunch shift and ended up getting only two tables. Before I left I asked my manager whom I had noticed last week did not schedule any food runners this week if he wanted to me food run last night, because we had talked about it ealier in the week. He said that it would be upt to whom ever is managing that night and that they would call me. Well 3:40 rolls around and I originally was supposed to go to work at 4:00 so I figure that they want me to wait tables instead. I go into work and as I do I notice I am not on the floor plan at all. I went the managers and they were all like, "OOHHH we forgot to call you I'm sorry we want you to food run now" I said that it was fine but that they could buy me dinner while I waited to come onto the clock which was in 2 hours. So they did and then 6:00 came around and instead of clocking in they told me to go home. So I made no money yesterday.

I went home and started to do my homework when the phone rang. It was Joshy and he wanted me to go to a party with him. So he came over to pick me up at arpund 10:00 and we headed over to this party. It was so much fun. I did not get to druk, yes I was buzzed but not trashed.

The party was this guy Tony's parents house. Not the same Tony that has been previously mentioned. Anyway he is incredibly entertaining, he was doing this voice of a 48 year old woman named Bunny Rrrrrabitt, she was a show girl working in the Balagio in Las Vegas until one little stretch mark runied her whole career. It really is an incredible story, the trials and triumphs of a little girl with a dream, who grew up and turned into a woman with dreams. Dreams that were runied because of the horrors of a stretch mark.

Today when I woke up there was a call from work. I had picked up another food running shift for tonight, just to make some extra cash. The message was from one of my managers telling me not to come in today. At least today they called me, but what the fuck? They called at 10:25 AM!!! I think that may be jumping the gun a little bit. My patience for situations that are occuring at work is being streched to the limits. I just hope to god that it doesn't leave some kind of mark.

As I write this I am in the basement of my fathers home, sitting at my sisters computer desk, typing on her computer. I look around and can't help but notice that they cleaned the place up a bit from the last time I was here. Don't get me wrong it is still a pit and I will not be staying the night here.

July 02, 2004

Curse Of The Untidy Home

In the last week I have been sitting on something and not telling my friends about it because I did not feel the need until it was absolutely important that I do so.

As any good reader of my online journal knows my mother recently moved to Arizona for a new job with Qwest, and I am currently living in the apartment we shared. In September when our lease is up I am supposed to move into my fathers house and stay there until I finish college.

I have made mention many times as to how I am unsure that moving in with my father is the best option for me. Lets face it, my dad and I don't really get along to well. Well its not that we don't get along, we just don't talk much. If you read "Bubonic Plague" you will also discover that my father is not the best housekeeper. Because I was nervous about moving in with him my mother suggested that I enroll in the University of Minnesota's distance learning program and move to Arizona with her. I didn't want to tell my friends this because I didn't want them to worry about something that probably would not happen.

On Thursday I had an appointment with my advisor at school regarding my options with moving to Arizona with my Mom. She told me that it was a bit too late in the game for that. I am so close to being done with school that if I transferred I might have to add another two years onto my college life. And the distance learning would not work out too well because I am in mostly classes that are required for my major.

It looks as if I have no choice but to move in with my father and find a way for his mess to be tolerable. Perhaps I could put my bedroom stuff upstairs in one of the bedrooms, and I could use my old bedroom, the basement, as a living room. That way I have a clean place to go and do my homework or hang with friends.

Can I survive living in that house again, this time without my mother? It seems like someone has placed a curse on me...Just when I thought I was able to escape the clutches of my father's messy home I am dragged back into it...This truly is "The Curse Of The Untidy Home"

The longest I would be living with my father would be until Aug 05 when summer session ends. After that time I estimate that I will have 8 more credits that I will need to graduate, and those I can take anywhere. My only fear is that at that point will I really want to move to Arizona? I honestly don't think I will. I could have a great job here, or one lined up in some other state.

They say that once you turn 21 time moves quickly... I hope that is the case so that this next year zooms by quickly making it seem like only six months.

July 01, 2004

Midnight Margarita

Hello everyone! Well its finally July! This wil be a busy month for me, so much going on. Where to start?

Tomorrow is my Mother's birthday!!! And she is spending it with her friend Lindsey who lives in Tuscon. So she drove down there today.

On Saturday my dad and sister are going out of town for the fourth of July. They are going to south dakota to see some face on the side of a mountain. I told them faces in a mountain??? get real! How dumb would that be, and how would it be done? I tell you they are living in a fantasy world. Anyway I am going to watch my puppy while they are gone. But I have to find a way to do this while spending the least amount of time at my fathers house.

Sunday I have no plans, how sad.. I will probably cook some appetizers, sit out on my balcony, and have a margarita in one hand and a smoke in the other.

Monday i have the day off of school but have a group meeting so i will be heading down there anyway.

Then on Saturday the 10th I have the wedding of a family friend. He is getting married to someone I think I may have met like once. How sad is that?

The next time I have something going on is on my birthday, which is the 12... thats 11 days... yaaaay

My mother moves into her new apartment on the 25 of july it is quite the place, you really should check it out. here it is

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