Diary of Dan Frank

I was flipping through the facebook today and decided to look at the profile of one of my old theater buddies from high school. I noticed that he had a weblog and clicked on it just to see what was new with him. I did not like what I found out, and it has me confused.

I met Christian in his sophomore year of high school. I was a senior and we were both cast as chorus members in Eagan High School's production of Fiddler On The Roof. The Chorus members were all split up into little families for one scene...I played on of the "papas" and Christian played my son. That is how we met and how we became friends.

Christian is one of those really cool guys that you can joke around about with anything, and so I quickly developed a slight crush on him. I could not have asked for a better person to hang out with during the play.

I feel a little stupid now, we did not stay in touch as we said we would and life has changed both of us. I am sitting here worried about what I am going to be doing after college, while Christian's family might be worried if he will live through college.

From reading Christian's bog I found out that in the last year he found a lump on his leg, and is now receiving radiation treatments. He says that all seems to be going well, so maybe its not a serious as I am thinking it might be.

I am not sure what, if anything, I should do at this point. Do I contact Christian and tell him that I read about his cancer on his blog and that I am sorry to hear about it? I certainly don't want him to think that I pity him and that I am treating him differently...that’s the last thing he needs.

I almost think the best thing for me to do is nothing...there is a reason we didn't stay in touch. Besides what would I be able to do for him that his parents, doctors, and friends don't already do? Do I even have a right to be sad or worried about this? Christian has not been in my life for about 5 years.

It just doesn’t seem right to me that he has to deal with this. He is a healthy man who is only 20 years old...He still has so much of life to experience; it’s not fair.

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Tuesday I went into Bonfire at 8:00 to get a drink with some people who were celebrating Ian's 21st birthday. Ian is one of the newer servers at Bonfire; he is totally cute and way too nice.

Anyway he was a little bit later than he thought so one beer turned to two, and a shot. At that point I was seriously struggling with whether I should just skip school the next day and go out with everyone....

After tall beer number three was finished we decided to go to the Wild Union off Grand Avenue in St. Paul. By this time Ian was pretty loaded. We get there and I order some more beers and ran into people I have not seen in awhile. It was great time.

Then it was time to hit the dance floor. So I go out and I start dancing with some of the girls from work and we are having a blast. The song is over and I went back to order another beer. As I am sitting there drinking the beer one of the guys we were with, Adam, (who is dating our bar manager) is talking to this chick who wants him, Josh (old bar manager) and myself to dance with them...

A bit later we heard "Save a horse ride a cowboy" and so I went out onto the dance floor with these two straight boys...low and behold the girls from earlier find us...and who do they start dancing up on????? ME!!!!!!!!

This is not that big of a deal, me being gay and all, it really didn't matter...The funny part about it is that these girls really had no freaking clue that I was gay!!! And the kicker here is that it happened again in the same night...with a different girl!

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So last weekend something pretty interesting happened...I hung out with my friend "A...” whom I have not seen for a really long time. I had been talking on the phone with her again, but am still pretty upset about an incident that happened a little over a year ago.

Anyway it was her birthday on Saturday; she is now 23. So she had called to invite me out, and I thought it would be fun to meet up with her for one drink. I had plans to hang out with Jenn before that and I asked her if it would just be ok if we went for like one drink. I actually had two, but Jenn and I were both tired so we left after that.

While talking on the phone with "A...” she had said something about having gained a lot of weight. The last time I had hung out with her she was saying the same thing, but I didn't think she had actually gained any weight...this time she was not lying. "A..." claims that she gained 40lbs, but I would say it looks more like 20, but regardless when Jenn and I showed up at the bar we almost did not recognize her.

Sunday morning I woke up and Dad and Nancee wanted to go out to breakfast/lunch so we ended up going over to Bonfire for some brunch...I had a bloody mary as well...oh yeah and a Mimosa...yummy! Anyway it was pretty odd sitting in a restaurant, where I know everyone, with my father and his girlfriend. After we left I went back cause some of the girls wanted me to join them for more Mimosas...I mean come on they are only 99 cents!!! After that it was off to Grandma's so I could drop off my computer which is on the fritz...AGAIN!!! DAMN VIRUS!!!

This weekend I am going to hang out with Katie and Tony on Saturday and I am going to get wasted!!!!! I hope. I see there is a bit of a theme to this entry...alcohol...hmmm

"Alcohol, my permanent accessory
Alcohol, a party-time necessity
Alchool, alternative to feeling like yourself
O Alcohol, I still drink to your health

I love you more than I did the week before
I discovered alcohol

Forget the caffe latte,
screw the raspberry iced tea
A Malibu and Coke for you, a G&T for me
Alcohol, Your songs resolve like
my life never will
When someone else is picking up the bill"

-Barenaked Ladies

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Today on light rail something happened that has not happened in a really long time.

I was sitting in one of the chairs in the middle of the train going sideways. When the train pulled into the 46th Ave station a guy came on the train and sat directly across from me.

As soon as he sat down I ended up looking right into his eyes. I could tell immediately that he was gay, but what I was not expecting was to find him so attractive. Lately I have not seen many gay guys that I have thought, “Wow…he is attractive” Of course since I was attracted to this guy, I could barley take my eyes off of him and I would steal little glances every now and then.

I am not sure why it happened, but I started throwing an 18-wheeler (semi)…I was not even thinking about sex!! Anyway thank god for the slightly overweight woman who was on board. She was wearing a shirt with huge armholes so I could see all the way up her sleeve to her off white bra. That, giving me something to laugh at, got rid of my growing problem.

Alas I did not have the nerve to talk to him, and got off the train. I guess I am still a looser when it comes to the guys. I seriously do not know why it is so hard for me to walk up to a guy and start talking. It could be low self esteem, however I don’t think I am ugly…It could be that I am shy, which is probably correct, however at the same time I think I am pretty outgoing.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:21 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Yesterday in my acting class I got up in front of the group to act out a scene with one of the other students. We were demonstrating how analyzing a scene could help bring different elements to it.

The first time through we simply read the scene.

The second time we established what was literally happening in the scene (I was asking for $40) and then we established the essential action, which is less clear. (I was asking a friend for a favor) It was my job to come up with an "as if" I chose it was as if I was asking for a favor at work. It was funny how drastically it changed the way the scene went. I have to say I was surprised at the performance I gave.

The third time we did the scene I was again asking for $40, but this time I was supposed to be a really slimy character. This time I knew the other person liked me and I had to con the $40 out of her. This was a lot harder for me because I am not that type of person, so I could not rely on my own experiences to help me act out the scene. Somehow I was able to channel one of those slimy characters that you see on TV...I used a cross between Lex Luther and on of those sluts you see on all the Soaps who use their sexuality in order to get what they want...I guess it worked really well.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:08 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Early this morning I received the following comment on my blog.

"I really Enjoyed checking out your site!

Scott Fish"

I am not sure what to make of this. I guess it's cool that his guy wants to link my blog to this site. I am sure that it would also increase the traffic to my site, however I am failing to see the connection between my blog and satalite radio.

Should I link with this guy, bringing many people into my crazy world? or should I not link to him? If I do will the content of my blog suffer?

Posted by Daniel Frank at 10:13 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I have nothing good or important to say today so I am going to share a few more funny video clips wit-chall...enjoy

1. Cute Kid Playing
2. Romantic Winter Date
3. CNN Boo Boo
4. This Guys Freaking CRAZY
5. Not really too funny but slighty entertaining
6. Finally a little Celebrity Jeopardy

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I'm telling you; that Tom Cruise is one crazy motha-fucka.

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Saturday I went to Jason's birthday party. I didn't expect to stay there as long as I did, but I am glad that I did because I had a lot of fun. Jason's new apartment is really great, however I thought his boyfriend could have been a little more talkative...

Around the time I was thinking about leaving another one of Jason's gay friends arrived. The whole night Jason was referring to him as the stripper, so I was not expecting him to be as good looking as I thought he was. Too bad he wants to become or already is a stripper. And also too bad the only thing he said to me was "Hi" and "Oh your leaving?"

On Sunday I went into Bonfire to steal the internet and possible find some research articles for my senior paper. I didn't really get what I was looking for in regards to school work, but I did run across this commercial.

The plan for Sunday was that my sister was going to get home in the mid afternoon and then I would meet her and my Dad at my Grandma's house after I was finished doing my research. Well as I was researching my Dad called and told me that my Sister would not be home until 5:00 and asked if I could wait for her. I agreed, but she wasn't home until shortly after 6:00! What would be the point in going out to Grandma's now? It takes 45 minuets to get there and everyone will have already left.

When we were finally ready to go I went to the gas station to fill up bringing my ipod with me. I love to listen to my ipod on shuffle because then you never know what song will be next. I was getting along pretty well in my shuffle; I was at like song 640 out our 1265! But when I pulled into the gas station my sister grabed my ipod, which I asked to her to turn off, but she wanted to look through the songs!!!!! Well there went my shuffle play, meaning I would have to start all over again today at school....THANKS A LOT.

So we finally get to my grandma's house and sure enough, everyone was gone. We went inside and everyone got to talking. My grandpa asked me If I was interested in working in hospitals as well. I told him that I had thought about becoming an American Sign Language Interpreter for a hospital and asked my sister how much she thought they would pay me. "DAN....NOTHING!!" Then she went into how they already had 2 nurses who new ASL and were certified interpreters...Well why didn't she just tell me that in the first place instead of getting all bitchy at me?

She also got all mad about the fact that I told my other grandmother that she was in town. "Dan nobody was supposed to know that I was in town because I am technically not in town. I didn't want to feel obligated to visit with everyone while I was here!"

NUMBER 1: STOP BEING A BITCH. THESE PEOPLE ARE YOUR FAMILY!!! YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL OBLIGATED TO VISIT WITH THEM....ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS FUCKING CALL THEM!!

NUMBER 2: YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT SO HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW NOT TO TELL ANYONE YOU ARE IN TOWN!!!!

This little visit my sister has made to the cities seriously has me reconcidering moving in with her for any amount of time. I love my sister and hate that I feel the need to bitch her out on my blog. And if this is how I feel after one day of putting up with her shit, I am worried about our relationship if we were to move in with eachother.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:16 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

My sister came home yesterday so she could go to a friends wedding in Grand Forks. She was home for all but three hours when I found out she was going to be going out with her friends to uptown...(Hey Katie and Tony went uptown last night, I wonder if they saw me sister?)

Anyway while she was home we watched a little bit of Mary Poppins, god I had forgotten how much I loved that movie!! You know they just don't make em the same anymore.

On Saturday (tomorrow) I am going to my friend Jason's 20th birthday party/apartment warming. Jason and I have not talked in a long while, but I randomly ran into him on the second day of school. I am not too sure how long I will stay there, maybe just for an hour or something. Although I don't have any other plans for Saturday night so who knows.

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Last night I went to the Tristan Prettyman/John Butler Trio concert at the Fine Line with Katie and Jenny. We only went to see Tristan so we left after her set but the people in the Fine Line that night were kind of getting on my nerves.

What makes you think that after you leave your spot on the concert floor and tell the people around you that you are leaving to go somewhere else to watch the show that you should be allowed back into your old spot after you change your mind and decided to come back to watch the rest of the show? What makes you so god damn special? You left your spot, said goodbye to the people around you, thus forfeiting your spot on the floor.

Also the John Butler Trio must play some pretty funky music because there were a few people there who looked like hippies...Yes this includes white guys with dreadlocks, which is prompting this entry.

Here are a few rules for anyone who is thinking about dreadlocks or currently has them. The are the 4 Common Courtesies of Dreadlocks:

Rule #4: If you decided to get dreadlocks please maintain them. If you don't your hair will look like a poorly assembled birds nest.

Rule #3: If you are going out in public to a place where there will be many people, like a concert, please place ALL of your hair into a bandana. I don't like being the person to stand behind you worried that because your dreads are pointing away from your head that, that means they are going to poke me in the eye.

Rule #2: Again, if you are going out to a public place where you will be standing ass to crotch with other people, PLEASE do something to your hair so that I don't pass out because you haven't been able to wash your hair in a month. Try febreeze or some kind of fragrant body spray. That way you don't loose the dreads and you don't stink up the whole building.

Rule #1: This rule is perhaps the most important rule that applies to the wearing of dreadlocks. It is absolutely crucial to pulling off this "fashion" statement. Rule #1 of Common Courtesies of Dreadlocks is...BE BLACK!!! What is with all of this white, hippie, pot smokers thinking that they look so freaking cool with their dreadlocks? Maybe the appeal for them is that they could probably successfully hide a joint in their hair by carefully slipping it inside one of the locks... You don't look cool or trendy or whatever...YOU JUST LOOK DIRTY!!

Posted by Daniel Frank at 08:50 AM | Permalink | Comments (36)

Today I am feeling really down, so if you do not like to hear/read me complaining about stupid shit then don't read this.

I am currently trying to get information about employment with The California School for the Deaf in Fremont, CA. And I have come to realization that it probably will not happen.

They keep sending me stuff in the mail about different forms that I would have to fill out to gain employment with them. The position I would really like is that of Student Aid. I am not exactly sure what that entails but I am assuming it has to do with helping the students’ study or something.

Anyway to get the student aid position I need to go through a credential examination with the State of California. This is not a big deal, but I am sure that I will not pass it, after all I did not go to school for Education. There are other positions that I could take at the school that would not involve me taking this credential exam, but I would have to take a Civil Service exam, and no one at the school has told me what that is; so I am assuming I would fail that as well.

Needless to say I guess I will not be getting the job that I really wanted out there. There is still the PR track that I could go down. However, I am not so sure that PR is something that I want to do or something that I would be/am good at. So that makes my chances of getting a job in PR zero.

I guess I feel like a complete looser right now because it seems like the only thing I am qualified for is waiting tables in a restaurant. It's so nice to know that I have spent a lot of freaking money on gaining a college education that I wont even need in my future employment.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:43 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

Sitting at school bored out of my mind...don't have much to say, so I'll make it short.

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Thanks to Katie I can now share with you all two pictures from my runway show. Katie, Tony and Jenny were the only people I invited that actually remembered to bring a camera. I am still waiting on the pictures that the photographer took at the show....

This one is a little blurry, but it kind of gives you an idea as to what I was wearing.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 08:23 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Since I have nothing better to say today I thought I would hit up the online quiz scene. This is what I found.

Cady Heron


Which Mean Girl are you?
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You are the Killers A new Indie band that is
just starting to get well known. They've got
some great song that can make you just want to
sing the lyrics out loud while you're alone in
the car.


What Rock Band Are you?
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Speaking of the Killers...Could the lead singer, Brandon Flowers, BE any hotter?
Too bad he is straight and married...That's just my luck huh?

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:57 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Is it just me or is the University of Minnesota especially crowded this year??? I have never had such a hard time trying to get back to the Metro Dome to catch a ride on the Light Rail. Yesterday I had to wait 20 minuets for a place on a bus!!!

All of my classes have wait lists and having that many people in a small classroom is getting me closterphobic. I have to make sure I sit in the front of the class so that I don't see the sea of people sitting behind me. At least that way I can have the illusion of being in a smaller class.

Also whats with the new look for the U of M email system? Can we say ugly??? Sure the last one wasn't much better, but at least I knew where all the buttons were and I could actually read my emails without being confused. Maybe I just need to get used to the new look of email here at the U, but for now I want the old look back.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:28 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I really wish that I had millions and millions of dollars, because if I did then I could go shopping and buy some hot new clothes. For example I might go out and buy these two things I recently saw online, that I thought look totally hot.

Hot Jacket

Not as hot but equally cute

Now that I look at the pictures I am wondering if I like these items because the guys in the picture are both really attractive...hmmm.....

Posted by Daniel Frank at 09:08 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

So today is the second day of school and I have always felt that I was one of the biggest losers in this institution....

"And so I wake in the morning, and I step outside and I take a deep breath and get real high, and I...Scream to the top of my lungs WHATS GOING ON?"

Sorry I said "in this institution" and it reminded me of that song :-)

Anyways as I was saying I have always felt like the big looser on campus. In the last few days though I have been running into people like mad! I have never run into so many people who want to say hi to me here at the U ever!!! So now I am feeling extra cool....

But, "After all that i've been through...I know i'm cool"....."Cah-Whoooool"

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WARNING!!! THIS ENTRY HAS A GROSS OUT LEVEL OF 6!!!

On Sunday I went out with my friends to the Gay 90's because it is always packed there on holiday weekends. We thought it would be fun, in a way it was, in a way it wasn't.

The plan was for most of us to meet in White Bear Lake at Katie and Tony's apartment. As I was driving out there I was anticipating having to take my car, so it was not a big deal when Katie called me and reluctantly asked if I would be ok taking my car out that night.

When I got to Katie's place we had to wait around for everybody to get ready, which I also anticipated; so it was no big deal. I however did not anticipate needing to drive to Angel's apartment to pick here up. Angel lives about 5 minuets away from Katie and Tony and no matter how many times they give her directions she would never be able to find the place.

So we all pile in my car and drive to the 90's where I dropped Tony, Jenny, and Angel off while Katie and I went to Jen's house to pick her up. We get over there in about 5 minuets and hang around for while before driving back up to the club.

Before we even got to the club Tony is texting us trying to figure out where we are. We parked the car in the parking ramp across the street from the 90's and made our way to the stairwell to get out to street level. As we were going down the stairs I noticed on spot looked a little wet, so I warned everyone that we were approaching an unknown wet substance and that they should try to avoid it. I got to the bottom of the stair well first and opened the door for everyone.

After everyone had passed me I began to move and noticed that it felt like I stepped in a sticky substance. "Oh great," I thought, "Gum." However, as I looked down to the ground to see the gum, I noticed that it was not gum I was standing in, but a huge gross piece of greasy stinking and sticky ass bum shit. I was standing in human fecal matter! Needless to say this put a damper on my evening.

Other things that made the evening a little less than pleasant:
1. The bar was too crowded, good luck getting a cocktail.
2. Guy with shit breath trying to reach down my pants. Apparently he was looking for "equilibrium" and I kept telling him that he was not going to find it in the front or back of my jeans.
3. Trying to keep track of 7 people and keep them all happy. Towards the end of the night I just said fuck it and got trashed.

Posted by Daniel Frank at 08:07 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Welcome to another semester here at the U of M! My last semester here!!!

A few things have happened since I have updated. The first and probably the biggest is that I finally made up my mind to move to California after graduation. I am not sure what part of California, that depends on where I can get a job. I am currently looking at The Bay Area or The OC. I have been in contact with both The California School for the Deaf - Riverside, and The California School for the Deaf - Fremont. I hope to get a job either doing office work or being a Student Aid.

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