On Pasos bajo el agua
Marco feels that things are going to change between himself and Elsa, and he is between both friends. At the same time, he is afraid that something is happening to the women, and he seems to be aware that he might be out of that circle, too. A new bond between the women, even harder to break than a family or a relashonship is growing.
Elsa confronts him: 72
¿qué es lo que te da tanto miedo de nosotras?
71 Marco,
“Pero lo que yo puedo ver es que todas ustedes están dispuestas incluso a compartir un hombre con tal de evitar una pelea�
-“Juntas tienen una especie de energÃa que no entiendo muy bien, y que no sé de dónde viene. Aunque parezcan que están peleando, en realidad no hay quien pueda dividirlas.
-Estás usando un concepto que no me gusta.
-¿Qué concepto?
-El concepto de división.
-¿Ves cómo reaccionás ante esa posibilidad?
-¿Qué posibilidad?
-La de que se cortara la amistad.
Elsa mira a Marco, lo enfrenta:
-Lo siento por vos, pero esa posibilidad no existe. Mejor acostumbrate a la idea.
That friendship between Sara and Elsa and Cristina is beyond and stronger than anything previous in their lives, because it has been forged in jail, where they have became accostummed only to themselves. Little moments of happiness, lots of consolation, moments of company and survival have molded all those women together, for a long time. That is why they, once out of prison, visit each other, and write to each other. Listening to each other, has also became a substitution for husbands, mothers and sister around them. They mean to each other everything they lacked in prison, so when they are freed, a little unbalance in each of their daily life requires more attention. They need to make spaces for those husbands, sons or daughtters in the outside world, but the smaller possibility of diminishing that friendship is more out of the question than ever. They have not even thought of breaking their friendship. Sara keep saying . “pero te quiero� several times to Elsa and Elsa seems to be open to the idea of Sara and Marco relationship, for Sara to feel “alive�.
Sara says 63: “Soy una especie de rompezabezas que tengo que armar cada dÃa para reconocerme. Para ser la que originalmente soy.â€?
At the end, on page 63 is Elsa who interprets what is really happening to Sara:
“No es desesperación por un hombre. No es eso. Es desesperación por sentirte viva.�
After all, when they were in prison, that was the only reason they could use to repel or to fight the horror of torture and dehumanization. To feel alive and human by overcoming the effects of being imprisoned. So, Elsa understand Sara’s feelings better than anyone and their friendship is above any other concern and as such, competition between them is out of the question, as well.
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