a heart with a twist of lemon

no funny off the wall stuff here, so if ya are looking for fun happy, don't read this. it will just be straight out.

my mom's dad is dying. he only has a few days left. he can't keep food or liquids down anymore. he has been sick for a couple years now. stomach cancer. i never really knew him that well, that is why it is weird for me to call him grandpa. i can probably count the number of times i have been around him on my two hands. this is because he got into a lot of trouble and hung out with the wrong crowds, i will not go into too much detail. that is family stuff.

i was all excited about the weekend today, because i have no friday class. i was ready to hang out with lots o kids, and go see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind for free at coffman. but i got a phone call from my daddy-o today, saying that my mom was going up to duluth tomorrow morning with her brother, and my dad said he is going up tomorrow after work. he asked if i wanted to go with. the thing is i hardly know him. i was looking forward to a fun weekend. i do not really want to see someone die. i feel selfish. i will go. and even though i have not had much time spent with him, i know he is a good guy deep down. i should see him one last time here on earth.

if you are the praying type, pray for my mom and close family as they go through this difficult time. also pray for my mom's dad, that he goes through little pain in his last days here. i have only been to one funeral in my life, i don't even remember who for. i was young. i have not experienced death much at all. except for my other grandparent's dog brandy. the first dog i ever knew. cried my eyes out. i might get all emotional about this too, so now that i think about it i could prolly use some prayer. just talking to my roommate just now almost brought me to tears.

yeah i could keep typing, but i think i will stop. just wanted you all to know that my life is not all fun and games like i make it out to be sometimes.