a heart with a twist of lemon

my life would make a pretty good tv show. sometimes i think i am on tv. like people are watching me right now. there are so many things that seem to go well for me, there are also so many things that go sour. and all those things happen in a way that seem too extreme to be real. they're the type of things that make you stop and ask, "is this really happening to me?" but maybe that's just life.

movies like the truman show, stranger than fiction or even the matrix just further my suspicions of being watched. and the fact i'm watching those kind of movies would just make great irony for my show. there wouldn't need to be any advertisements because i work in an ad agency and stare at that sort of thing all day. even these blog entries would make a great recap to any given episode.

sometimes i start to think about this so much, that i purposely try to be boring, so maybe my show will get canceled. i'll just sit around doing nothing, it's kind of relaxing. or i can just start writing gibberish that has no point to the story. like this. or this. or maybe even this. blah. blah. blah.