I was getting out from work, about the start the car, decided to listen to Radio and I heard, Michael Jackson has died due to Cardiac Arrest. I thought I heard it wrong, some other person. Then I heard it again, Michael Jackson, I just couldn't believe my ears. I told my friend MJ died. He was also like what really?
Now I am at home, watching news, same news is going on. Some channels are telling, he is in Coma but some are saying he is already dead. But its really sad, I was just reading about the come back 2 days back. I have always loved his music and him as a singer.
God bless his soul....
Beginning of May, noticed a burning smell in the car. Most probably next day, noticed that when I put handbrake, the day lights were not turning off. I started thinking okay, something is wrong now. After a day or two, my best friend and myself went for lunch. We noticed check engine light was on. So, our lunch was basically ruined, thinking okay now whats wrong and how much its going to cost. I am just hopefully nothing much.
I set up appointment, went to VW dealer. After the diagnostic test, they said Brake Vacuum and something else was gone, can't remember what it was. With everything cost me $655. After fixing the car, I went home. After I got back, one day during lunch, I had the car parked outside in the lot. I looked out and noticed something odd in the car exterior. At first, I thought I got a hit and run. I went and checked but the part of the car outside was missing.
Now, what do I do. I called VW again, asked for how much this part would cost. The person said, with everything will come out less than $300. Now today, when I was in the Parking lot, my friend said, the day light on the right side is not working anymore. Now one more thing to fix...I have started hating sometimes.
I want to do the tire rotation and wheel alignment, these are wear and tear, I have to get it done anyways. Its been a year I got this car, I love the car. But, sometimes I get frustrated when things go wrong with it. But I love my Passat.
I do not want to talk to anyone about it. I am frustrated, upset, sad and every possible thing I can be but happy. I work hard for everything but this one thing, the more I get disappointment, I do not want to. I keep telling myself, why me always, why me? You work hard, but you never get it...Am I am that stupid, dumb or am I the dumbest person in the world to not be able to do that much.
Its insane now I have started feeling like I must have some sort of .............But I know its not true. I just want to do just go somewhere scream hard as I can with sadness, disappointment and frustration. Oh god, what do I do, how should I overcome this.
One thing, however I feel, I know I am not dumb or stupid. If I was, I will not have been in a position today with almost a Graduate degree. God what do I do. I am sick of it. I can't stand it anymore....on top one after another things breaking....
So, many things has happened in the past couple of weeks, some I want to remember some I do not.Whether I want to or not, those will always remain in my memory. With all the hush hush, I finished my finals and headed home. I reached home, shopped and then all the ceremonies started. And by the time, it was finished, almost time for me to head back.
Met couple of friends, it was nice to see them after one and half years. But the sad part is, I couldn't meet Namrata, Atul chha or Namita or Punu. I couldn't believe I didn't meet Atul who has been a good friend of mine since 97. The day I was leaving, I called him and said "ma jandaichhu aja". Miley dekhi aija na...
I should've met Namrata when I went to Yeley, but I didn't meet. Its been almost 4 years I met her. Hopefully when she comes here in August, I will get to meet her. Its sad sometimes how things work..but again things happen for a reason. Hope to see all my friends and family again in the next couple of months. I am positive things will work out as I have planned.
To be continued......................