So much of "I've decided" so much of 'what should I do'. 'what do you think? etc' But I am happy for him though.
This has been a journey longer than six months, MAC/Dell. The journey we will never forget in our life for sure. Of course MAC book is what he wanted/needed. But, due to high cost, I didn't want to say go for MAC. Its $2,500, that's a lot, I don't know if I ever want to spend that much on a laptop. I can may be in future, but can and want is completely different on the other hand.
TBD.....will update later
I don't know why I got frustrated. If I had been more active, I wouldn't have to be dependent anyway. Feels worthless and stupid but yet frustrated and angry at myself.
I just need to learn to breathe at this point. Anger can do so much damage to everything. Ugh....I just hate this moment right now...Annoying annoying annoying
While talking over msn and also was listening to the Nepali songs. i came across this song which I had not paid much attention much but that day. I couldn't stop listening after that, I wrote the entire lyrics and sang and recorded. It was fun though. And again Saturday, I was listening and singing the same song. As crazy as it sounds, I love to sing, nothing can stop me from doing that. :)
We went to Duluth and had a great time together. When I think about the details, I just can't stop thinking about him and those moments. It was wonderful. When will I get to see him again, when haha....Everything helped us, weather to the place, direction. Everything worked out way better than I thought it would.
Out of all, Enger Tower, Hawk Ridge, Park Point, UofM, Burrito Union, Park Point was the best and so was the T.H Lot, hehe..I can still feel those....Looking forward to better days and great time together again. When though? :) Anxiously waiting for you.
I have stuff to do for my classes, but I can't gather the motivation to do any work. Is it the fact the its Monday tomorrow and after a month of leave I am going to work or is it.....? I think little bit of both. I think over and over and get no where.
Now the same old schedule will start and have to wait, whole week to wait for a Friday to come. Not that I particularly like Fridays, specially Friday nites, I feel really alone mostly. As long as I am outside, I do not have that problem but when I end up being inside the apt. I just don't like it. Others get excited when Friday comes, not me anymore.The only best part about Friday/nite, is there is no work the next day and no need to get up early and get ready for work.
As bad as it gets, I feel bad about it every minute every hour. Everyday its getting worse, every day the communication is going down. I wish I could do something with it. What do I do? What do I do?
I feel really sad, who has been there with me, in good and bad times, working hard, working for the best, every day so far. Now that I realize, I am losing that friend, I can't express my feelings. I want to sometimes wish, I shouldn't have said okay to go there. Would that have helped this? Either way, I am the one in a most screwed up situation, ugh.....
Whats going on, what gonna happen next? Haha...suspense, getting back to the point, just not ready yet for classes but gotta get myself ready for it. First class is on Thursday, the assignment is already posted and rest of the other stuff.
Well, all this time thinking, have to take it anyway, either way Saturday or Tuesday. Now that I think about it, I want to take Tuesday class instead of Saturday. And now I found that, there are 7 people in the wait list for Tuesday class. And I am telling myself, I am screwed big time I guess.
I just want to make sure Saturday class or Tuesday which ever I ended up taking is the best one. I mean I need to do pretty darn well, gotta keep up with the GPA thing you know hehe......
Good luck to me......TBD