I didn't get much studies done today, only IR notes and little bit of homework. I am now so frustrated with everything. Thinking about everything, I am just feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. I need to breathe. I think I should go to bed may be, get up fresh, work out and start the Sunday. Get more work done. I extra hour and a whole new month starting in less than 3 hours.
Interesting topic, have found so far few papers. Hopefully by the end of the semester when its due, I will be talking Recommender Systems in Information System. Dreaming dreaming dreaming.....I just gotta do a lot of work and I will be. However, Collaborative Filtering sounds interesting too, I am not familiar with it though. I sure do need to spend time reading technical papers.
Something just came to my mind and I am smiling, hehe......
I know some of you might think, everyone's life is like this but with my experience, I can tell, its not the same. Those who work hard, never get things straight, makes you work harder to get what you want. I am one of those, so far I have been there many many times ugh....Frustrating at times, annoying as it is and sad of course.
Anyways, just was thinking about something so felt like typing these lines in my blog entry.
Feeling really weird today for some reason. I just had lunch and now feels like I am getting an anxiety attack for no reason. Just want to get done with work and be home. Hoping for some fun but, going to happen or not, god knows......
May be Down by Jay Sean will help me feel good. :)
May be some workout but thats about it. Some fun would be good but...
After celebrating the Sunti nakha:, staying up late nights, finishing assignments, studying for mid-term, getting sick, I am too tired to do anything. I can't motivate myself to work on assignments but just wait for Friday to come.
I want to just spend Friday night doing nothing but relax. I know what I want to do whether it will work or not, god knows..But, will wish for that....
I have had cough and cold the past few days. On top of that when I woke up this morning, I had a terrible headache, thought drinking two Tylenol would help. Unfortunately, this time it didn't work that way. I got ready, went to work, headache was getting worse. Every time I coughed, it seemed to get worse and worse.
Finally after being at work for 6 hours, I decided to head home. I thought not staring at two 19 inch monitors would reduce the pain but I was wrong. While I was home, it hurt so much that two drops of tears fell off. I couldn't even stand or walk, the pain would go up constantly. It felt like worms were moving on my head.
Even with the headache, I decided to do some laundry. While my clothes were getting washed, I did some Yoga and fell asleep for like 10-15 minutes on the floor. When I opened my eyes, my headache had gone down, felt better. Now, I am using the computer again, feels like headache is coming back. May be I should just go to bed. From tomorrow work on assignment and paper after work. And also start work out schedule from tomorrow.
I can't wait to start working out and burn those calories. Even though I have not been eating too much. However, I had some Junk Food today. I had Special K Cereal for breakfast as usual, then had a banana in the lunch time. Around 2.30-3pm, I had two Fish Fillet with hot sauce instead of fat tartar sauce with cheese. I also had some French fries after long time. It felt great to eat some junk food after a long time. Now I feel hungry and may be I should eat a snack and call it a dinner before going to bed.
And as usual waiting...........
After a stressful, tiring week and weekend, watched movies and finally feels a bit relaxed. I wish something else also worked out too but hopefully it will and I am looking forward to it.
The Women, Comedy/Chick Flick
Wanted, Action Thriller/Crime/Thriller ( It had some amazing action sequences, loved it)
The Mad Money, Comedy
The Proposal, Comedy/ Drama/Romance
Out of all these, the #1, #2 and #4 were the best. Oh boy, I had fun watching Chick Flick, Comedy and Action altogether. Awesome awesome awesome, I couldn't be happier.
The Proposal "It takes two to make things go right, It takes two to make it out of sight", amazing movie...
I had so much to do, but still I decided to fly to TX. I was overwhelmed thinking how much I have to do when I get back. At the back of my mind, I kept thinking that but it would have been nicer, if I wasn't thinking about that when I was in TX celebrating Sunti.
All of us had fun, the drinks, the food, the ceremonies etc etc.....After coming back though, I had so much to finish. Every day stayed awake past midnight, and the week was busy at work too. Every day, I reached office at 7.30 am, boy it wasn't fun...But now its all over. I hope I will get good grade in my mid-term, even though I know it didn't go well as I thought it would. Good luck to me because I know I studied hard for my exam.
Was in Milacs updating the spreadsheet with the New Feature list, I started feeling weird. It was getting hot too. That's when I told myself, now I can't have another sip of this coffee, because I am already feeling like am having anxiety attack with it. haha.....
Confused now :), will I be able to finish this entry? Where do I start and where do I end not sure....Well, I guess start with my assignments. Thinking about all these assignment dues, was overwhelmed last night. Finally one assignment is almost done, there are 3 more to go. I am scared because there is so much to finish and time is running out and I don't know how to do may be hehe....That's the worst part I think.
Okay that's it for now, I better logout from here before I keep typing nonsense. Btw had an interesting conversation with my brother today. It was fun, the next interesting part is going to be tomorrow.
Couple of weeks back while talking to a friend of mine, I came across this song and since then I like this song. I just wanted to listen to this song today and ended up listening so many times today. I want to sing this song and I will soon.
" It can't be this, it can't be that, its gotta be love, yo maya nai ho "
Music is fun to listen to, makes me feel like I want to play my baby 'Acoustic Electric Guitar' again. There are other few songs, which makes me feel like this but this is one of them.
This is whats going on with me. I have known my friend for a long time but for some reason, everything happens i.e bad, I get blamed for.
I don't even know where to start.
○ Forget to bring something to school/work. "You made me hurry." or "You disturbed me".
○ Don't put me pressure and tell do this and don't do that
○ I didn't hear back from this and that place so and so, because of you
○ I should never listen to you, because this is what happens when I listen to your BS....
For some reason, everything ss my fault. I respect my friend for all the help, but sometimes it feels sad. Because I always worry that whats the next blame I am going to get.
Get stuck in traffic, its my fault because I told let's go. I am just so ready to get out of it. I will blame myself for what I did wrong but don't want to be blamed every time for something I didn't know.
Other times, though my friend is good. But......