I have to get done as much as I can. I know I can, but when I think about everything, it seems overwhelming.
Some of the tasks I need to accomplish today.
1. Inter-networking Assignment (Today)
2. Advanced Web Development (Today or Tomorrow)
3. Go to Bank and Macy's altogether 1 hour
4. Cub Foods ( 1 hour)
5. Bahani chha (dakkalay bankalagu wo nheypusey chhongu)
6. What else what else
Well the earlier part of the week, it was stressful because 'jimi yoma' ta:n chaya chhongu ni. After two days in a row class, I was tired. This morning had a dentist appointment, thought might sleep while Hygienist is cleaning my teeth, but it was not enough nap haha....And after all, trying to fix issues in scripts, wasn't a productive day or week at all work wise....
I am so tired, can't even think about what to write anymore. I better stop right here, good night to me..
While trying to finish it,something keeps coming to my mind. That email I received which I read over and over. Every time I read, it tells me something, it tells me how wrong I was, how something crossed some line.
However there is not a single word, that says....I guess its not worth writing, something I should keep in the back and front of my mind. You learn something from every single thing happens in life.
I am in the middle of it but moving no where. Got ideas still can't seem to move forward. Got
< 10 minutes, I want to give enough information to make it interesting for the listeners.
Its 11:02 pm, have little bit of time before I fall asleep tonight. A 14 week long semester but so much to learn and 11 weeks left including mid-term and final.
The goal is to get exposed to
- TCP, UDP, HTTP the networking protocols the web runs on.
- Server side : PHP, Python, Ruby, and database access.
- Web Services. Covering XML, XML-RPC, REST, SOAP
- Cloud Computing.
- Architectural patterns : ModelView-Controller (MVC)
- Open-source application frameworks.
I have hope, optimist as usual and looking forward to learn new technologies. I better get back to my work, before its too late and fall asleep. :)
Feeling miserable since then, not sure what to do. Can't get anything done or think straight, the worst feeling one could ever have. I feel like a heavy cloud on top of my head. Ugh....
Over a dozen calls, text messages and voice message, didn't seem to make a difference. I want to say 'Sorry', if only a call was received at the other end or got any response for the text messages. This is not fun, not at all. Sunday is almost over and can't get anything done.
I had to talk to somebody before my head burst out. After talking to JoAnna for little bit, feel better, not completely good as I would like to feel though.
May be I should watch one of my all time favorite movie "The Notebook" which just started on abc. :)
My mind and heart are saying, I want to see you, want to see you tonight, even for an hour or so, would make me feel good. Is it going to happen? I won't be saying anything, will you be asking without me saying though, that definitely would be so great.
Chhan dhau neyni masti wola, "Chhanta soye masti wola, naapa laye masti wola, ji aa kaa way nhey". Bihibar tini naapa laagu, tara gulli data thhey ju, chu ju thho. Chhanta na thhathhey jula?
Well, this definitely explains that my classes started and I am getting busier, less time on my hand to write entries in here.
Anyhow, this whole week has been busy, got good sleep however not enough though. Getting back to the point, its Friday evening again, not of my favorite one when I get stuck at home. Or when I do not know what I am going to do. But, today I don't feel that way yet. Because I know what I want to do tonight, finish some school work, have to talk to my friend Deepak and my sister Nhasala.
The week however was busy, tiring, couldn't wait for weekend to come and but before that Thursday hehe...Now you would be saying, why Thursday? Good question but one of the reasons is I don't have class, after work, I can go home and relax. But this week however, I had something on my mind, which worked as I had planned. Do not want to share the details.Basically, "ooh e ta naapa laye khani dhaya khha leytagu". And another best part was, it was my brother's birthday yesterday. I wasn't with him to celebrate. But my brother and sister had good time, saga: biya, naya etc etc.
But, to my surprise when I got back home, trying to use my desktop, realized it had rebooted. I thought may be Windows update but it wasn't. After wards, Windows wouldn't start. I was getting a message "Primary Drive couldn't be found". I don't want to assume but the hard drive I think is crashed.
There is eight years worth of memories"pictures" saved in that computer including my undergraduate and graduate school works.There are a lot of my important files saved in there too. I am not particularly worried about songs and videos but the rest. Hopefully I will be able to recover those. What a way to end a week?
Thhaun yau di:n chai, nheypusey chhona.Tara cheyn way dhunka chai, gayau yaakacha juya, nuga: gathhey gathhey jula.Keyn naapa khha:n lhaana, aley bhacha nuga: yaunsay jula...
Weekend is over now, and here starts the new week...
I used to listen to this song a lot before. I just happy to come across to it. Its got a very good music, its got, only I could sing this song.
URL to the Lyrics
Almost had 10 hours of work day today. I felt good that I was working hard to fix the errors. Productive yet unproductive due to errors.
Well, I am just looking forward to a better day tomorrow, hopefully I will feel better, forget all my sadness.....
Instead of studying, I am just uploading some pictures in my blog in different entries, specially the image of cars. May be I should just upload more images of cars...
after 12 hours, no response for my text message which confirms it. Didn't accomplish anything today but spent $$$. Peep toe from Guess bought @ DSW was worth it.I will find out, how worthy it is when I get to wear them...
And I am already so tired. I went to attend class yesterday and today, I am extremely tired right now. The past few days has been so stressful, I can't explain. As I have mentioned in my previous entry, this is my last semester and not being able to decide or find an interesting class has been extremely stressful to me.
Oh lord, why this much stress? To be continued if I get time.........
I just wish, I was somewhere where I don't have to think and worry about anything but just stay relax.Do nothing, but nothing. I think mostly I am feeling this way is because my classes are not finalized which is putting myself in stress, on top of that, not being able to go to class myself is another stress.
Sometimes second thoughts come to my mind and I ask myself, should I do this? Then again I will get more questions, many more questions that I would ever want anyone to ask
I am just in a situation where I can't decide. At least if my classes were finalized, I would have felt less stressed than now.
School started today. I dropped today's class and now have to decide among the rest of the three courses. I am clueless on three courses however. Every single class looks so hard, I am worried.
Internet working Architecture
Advance Web Application and Development
All are advanced graduate courses and I am not sure about any of the courses. I want to take the Advance Web Application and Development but, when I looked at the Syllabus, I feel its going to be really tough. I am scared I won't be able to do work well to get good grades, however, without attending the first class its hard to judge.
I am really scared, this is my last semester and I just want to do well with interesting classes. Sometimes I feel like not taking class this semester but again its really not a good solution.
What do I do? Scared, messed up and in not good condition......