The 2nd week of December the weather got colder. That's when cold and cough hit me. So, I stayed home a day, relax. By Tuesday I felt better, and I was happy. Then a week after I started feeling sick again. This time, I took medicine, slept a lot even though how bad I was feeling. I didn't skip work.Monday to Thursday I made it to work with the pain.
Friday Dec 23rd is when I felt a little better, then again Saturday, I felt a little sick. I drank few hot cup of hot tea, hot soup and felt okay. So, again Dec 26th, after coming home from outside, I felt extremely tired. I came home and slept before going to 'spinning class'. When I woke up, it was 6pm, and I had missed the class.
I then made some soup, ate and went to bed at 7pm or so. When I woke up it was Tuesday morning. And now I am writing this blog. I had planned few things to get done, nothing got done, but here I am sick again for the 3rd time, in the past 4 weeks.
I am done getting sick, I want to feel like me again.
As an optimist and writing, thinking and saying 'hopeless' feels sad.
I have always believed in eating right and working out. It has been my belief since I was young kid. The past few years, I have been struggling to shed off some weight. I regularly work out at least 3-5 times a week.
But this year 2011 has been one of the worst. Starting mid January, I started eating whole wheat roti for more than a month. It made very very thirsty and drinking a lot of water before bed, made me sleepless. So I switched back to whatever I used to eat. Sometimes cereal, soup, vegetables, but nothing heavy for the most part. Then back in May, I noticed 5 lba gain, which is unusual.
So, I started running in the gym, a whole month didn't seem to change anything. I joined LA Fitness and started working out in different classes. After 2008, I hadn't joined outside gym since I work out in the apt complex. I started taking at least 5 classes per week for 3 months. As my class started end of September, it wasn't regularly 5-6 classes week. It was more like 4 classes. But after 5 months, I didn't notice a single pound go down.
Last I talked to LA fitness trainer, he really really forced me and tried me to buy the trainer, a contract for a year. He tried to brainwash me 'the only way to lose weight it to do my getting a trainer'.
Since I was having all problems, sleepless, getting hungry all the time, not losing weight, I went to the doctor. I did all tests, glucose, cholesterol, some fat test, you name it. Everything came out normal, other than I have a little more LDL this point.
I look at what I eat, it seems fine, but I can still improve. So, the same week, I started on working on my 'Abs' during lunch time for half hour. After a month, here I am, same thing. Frustrated, disappointed and now hopeless. May be I am supposed to be fat, regardless how healthy I eat and how much I workout. Sadly I have to accept this now.
And, I have come to conclusion and have lost hope and I definitely may be eat like an elephant. That could be why, I don't seem to be able to stay fit, which I used to be. I hope no one else has to go through this pain. Salt to injury, for the past few weeks, I feel hungry a lot.
I was excited thinking about it. At that time, what I didn't know was, I was going to be sick again.The way I feel this week, is making me want to sleep, thats all. I can't wait to be home today, sleep more and get some rest. I don't want to do anything else. I hope to feel better soon, be 'me' again and workout. I can't wait to do so.
Seems like I might have to skip 'Body works and ab' tonight. This is the third week in a row now, I haven't been able to work out much. Too much pressure.
We are excited however, I am a little nervous. I am going to Sri Lanka finally, There is a lot of excitement and a little bit of nervousness. Is everything going to go fine? And we are traveling together to the other part of the world. which is closer to our home.
To be continued......
There I was in my hotmail, surfing through old emails. That's when I ended up reading the first email you sent me in my inbox. I read one, then my reply, your email and my reply. It kept going for few minutes, may be a dozen emails. Now that I read these email, every email had that indication that may be an interest to know each other.
Starting September, the emails started to get official. The stranger-ness kinda slowly disappeared from the email and every conversation you know. And after 2 and half years, here we are enjoying each other, happy together, arguing at times, discussing things at others,making plans other times. But I cherish every moment we have spent together.
When I sent that first message, I didn't know this is what was going to happen. I am glad I wrote to you, and I can't get enough of you.