Since that day,its making me think again and again. Sometimes the things that were said, makes me emotional. I am not sure why things are the way they are but its the fact. Yet, I get up every day thinking something good will happen. I live everyday with the hope, some accomplishment will happen. And I stay hopeful.....
There are days,I find myself with lots of may bes. Today is the day of lots of I wish. I hate to be annoyed but whenever that question gets asked, I get irritated seems like. I don't know what I am going to do.Sometimes I just want to say,I am done with everything, I mean everything. But again, it comes down to that one thing 'I wish'.
Before my entry sounds any depressing, I will write about something that happened, a 10-15 minute delay that caused everything.
At 5pm, I noticed some new check-ins coming in. I sent a message to M. We only talked for few minutes, and it was 5.15pm. I rushed to the LL parking lot, started my car, didn't wait for it to heat up and drove away. With all the traffic lights, by the time I reached Hopkins LA, it was 5.35pm.
To my surprise, I made rounds and rounds to find the Parking. By that time I parked and got out of my car, I had 5 minutes to change and head to class. As I opened the classroom door, I noticed, its full. I came out and then again thought, I might be able to squeeze in.So, I did. I went for the weights, and there were no 5lbs but only 7.5 lbs and no mats left either. I started following the warm up routine.
7.5lbs seems like nothing, but when you start doing the repetitions, it gets hard to keep up. I had to stop in between because 7.5 were getting heavier and heavier. I however finished the class. After all this, I didn't even finish the ab work and left. I called it a day.