January 20, 2013

Life, its the same life sometime ago, I was happy, so happy that I had felt this is a good thing.

As time passed, things happened. I used to write about it with so much joy. Now I don't know where all that went, how everything changed. All those memories, the plans, talks, now I have come to realize they didn't mean anything. I guess it never meant anything to begin with. Thinking about that my hearts aches, reading all those things that I wrote also makes me want to sometimes go back. Sometimes I end up saying myself, I wish.......

Why have I ended here?I have forgotten to smile, laugh. Am I going ever going to be happy? Why is it always me, one after another? Why? New why keeps adding yet and I end up not getting any answer for any of the whys. Lately I have been little sad. I look right, I look left I find myself alone and sad.

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January 17, 2013

Today was just another day, didn't get a whole lot done at work.

I'm here now after having dinner, shortened my new pair of jeans. Right now watching Seinfeld, in few minutes, will have my sleep time tea, and then to bed. Hope to have some good sleep tonight.

Today chatting with Mel was fun and I enjoy it. I wanna smile again, be happy.

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January 16, 2013

At 9.26 am I received an email saying it is approved. I am not sure how I feel really.

However, hearing what Pattu said, I was happy. I've not talked to this fren mine from a long time. Seems like everyone's life is making progress, mine is going backwards. Nothing is going right in my life. Does this mean this is the end? Or a new beginning is needed? Perhaps the second one, might be more position, as an optimist.

@10am
Mind is not in a right place, not sure where its at, may be its in depressed, worried, whatever state it is at.

What I am having,is a focus issue? Why? Too many things going on around. Too much stress, extremely too much stress. Lack of good sleep, need some love and care and perhaps being alone. Life today has been a joke to me, at least that's what it feels like.

@9pm
After work and workout, I headed to Ridgedale with a mission to find Jeans. First stop, Gap and found 1. Then to Wet Seal, nice jeans but size quite not right. Then JCPenny, first thing I found was a workout capri. It was a little different as it was fitted, I liked it and decided to buy it.

Then found a very nice jeans but couldn't find anywhere except the one on Mannequin. For some reason, this ripped style, size 7,9 and 11 were all same weird. I loved the color oh well. I had decided to get out, and thats when I saw this pair, and tried it out. It was good. Then I saw this section with these nice jeans. I didn't have enough time, and they were long. So I checked out and came home with 2 pair of jeans and a workout fitted capri.

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January 7, 2013

January 7th, 2004 vs January 7th, 2013, whats the difference....

I just realized its been 9 years I moved here. Time went fast, looking back trying to remember what has happened in life, what changed etc etc. Definitely have face a lot of challenges in life, overcame obstacles alone one by one. And at this time, I've even more challenges, stress and everything else. Hopefully 2013 is the year, good things will happen. Although the year started out lot of worries, I am sure I will overcome it alone as always. Fingers crossed......

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January 6, 2013

The first weekend of the new year...

It was relaxing yet, tiring as I haven't had a good night sleep from few days. Yesterday was the first day in the gym, good workout. However, waking up, I had a backache, not sure what caused it.

After breakfast and shower, I went out for haircut. I was super duper upset after that because the person stood me up for the whole time, he was cutting my hair. On top of that, when I asked for a suggestion to give volume to hair. He picked my long hair and cut from from top. I was like what are you doing, he said this is to give volume. I was seriously really pissed.

After that made a stop to Express, returned my Pencil skirt and got 2 new dressy tops. Another stop was Ultra for the NailTek. Then I came home then had lunch and in the computer since then. Off and on listened to Adele's song in YouTube.

Cuffed Sleeve Printed Easy Tee
, mine is Navy Blue, beautiful, would have been much better it I got either this or the Turquoise color.
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Now, its time to do some reading.This song and movie made my evening feels like. I love this song, so makes me wanna dance and be romantic. :)

The Wedding Date - Save The Last Dance For Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDxGAtUY2bc

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January 2, 2013

I wanted to be anywhere but here....

With how things have been now, thats the last place I wanted to be. Everything I have done didn't meant anything anymore. Finally it was 5pm and I headed out. On my way to home, I saw this person having an emotional breakdown. She was going over all things that was said before, things those had happened, every memories....

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I wanted to be anywhere but here....

With how things have been now, thats the last place I wanted to be. Everything I have done didn't meant anything anymore. Finally it was 5pm and I headed out. On my way to home, I saw this person having an emotional breakdown. She was going over all things that was said before, things those had happened, every memories....

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January 1, 2013

The first day of year 2013, a gloomy and very cold day.

Stayed in bed till very late, didn't get up too fresh though. After breakfast, movie and again some TV. Finally at 6 pm, late lunch and dinner. It was tasty and very filling.

The new year started and now, to get those many days off in a row, have to wait a whole year. My favorite part of the year is the November, December time as we get many days off. Its nice.

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