Welcome - 10/26/2007
Today was fun! I really looked forward to conducting today, which is a change from kind of dreading it. It felt like some things clicked and I was actually making music as opposed to "going through the motions" and trying to think too much about everything I was doing. I still feel like one of my biggest weaknesses is keeping my head out of the score and engaging the choir. I think Amy and Kate did a particularly good job of this. I kind of panic when I look away from the score. I don't know why, exactly. I know the piece, and as Matt said as long as you conduct in 4, you can conduct the piece.
Despite the panic, I felt much better about conducting when I was engaging with the choir. I could feel that connection when making eye contact. I caught myself a few times making the sour face and tried to change that. That is going to be a continual challenge for me. It seems like conducting is built for extroverts! Unfortunately, I'm an introvert.