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January 31, 2008

Out of Touch

This past Tuesday, a designer from Colle McVoy came to Portfolio class to present her graduating porfolio. While it is difficult for me to imagine what I will be doing after I graduate, I just know there is still a lot I need to learn. The only thing I am thinking about is how to find a JOB and start earning MONEY. Nothing is more enticing than the two put together. Of course, the more I think about it, the opposite the "truth" comes. What I mean is, I should be focusing on other things than money. I should find a job that I will be happy with, one that is fulfilling and enjoyable. I should find a job that is located in a nice place, a safe place with good weather, both physical and emotional.

Of course I want a good job, to come home happy, fulfilled. Of course I want to earn a nice wage, buy nice things, and be financially OK. Of course I want good weather, no snow, and sunny days year round. Of course, everyone wants a perfect job. Do you?

Anyway, if I think any more about this, I think I will go crazy. I think I'll just go back to the way I was and take things one day at a time.

Gasoline $20
Parking $3.75
Dinner $12

Total: $35.75

January 30, 2008

Unpaid Internships and Assumptions

Gasoline: $20

I've heard quite a few times that graphic design interns should be paid for their work. I work for a non-profit as a design intern and I am not paid for my work. It is logical that designers should be paid for their work because, ultimately, it is work and it is deign work. Simultaneously, I justify my unpaid status at my internship site because it is a non-profit. Is this a wrong assumption on my part? Should I ask to be paid even though I know that the internship site has a very small budget?

January 29, 2008

The Scene, The Show, and The Spectacle

In the context of a theatrical performance, I think the show American Gladiators is an effective performance. The opening sequence reminds me of the movie Transformers. The sound of metal clanking, fire erupting everywhere, waves of water crashing against the speakers. The entire introduction was very attention-grabbing because of the use of sensory attracting elements—colors, sounds, words, etc. The colors are of a patriotic sense, red and blue. The opposing contenders wear these colors, red and blue. Why red and blue? Aren't we missing white? Or is the "white" found in most of the contenders themselves?

The words spoken were also loaded with energy and competitive force. "Epic...mortals...bigger...better...prevail...$100,000...honor...American Galdiator!" All of these words signify a much deeper meaning and connotation. However, the contrasts also exist, especially with the contender vignettes.

The first contender introduction sharply contrasted the opening sequence and host presentations. The piano music, the motherly character, the words of love and perseverance for her children. This quality of a story sets this contender aside from, well, the entire theme of the show. This contender's introduction seemed to suck the sympathy out of those heartfelt audience members for their support and understanding. Very contrasting, and effective.

After the first round, the injured contender is surrounded, and even physically supported, by the other contender. The opposing Gladiators also surrounded the injured contender, which could be an attempt to portray a motherly quality to their somewhat masculine and strong character. It was sweet to see, women fighting in a ring (minus the mud, sexy!) and the moment of an injured partner, they create a circle that reunites the underlying feeling of care and concern for their fellow show-mates. But, in light of Barthes' Mythological discussions, is this just all a show? It is real? Or, is it just a theatrical portrayal of "support"? Support our Troops.

On the men's side, the contenders also give a story of their own. "Skater, Chad, Dad!" The contrast is comical instead of heartfelt and motherly. Why does fatherly affection take on a lighthearted and funny approach, whereas maternal love is assumed as the cheezy piano-music, sympathy-drawing spectacle? I think the introduction for both the women and men contenders are highly stereotyped. There are many assumptions the audience will make based on the vignettes created for both woman and man in the show.

My initial reaction to the first event is this: Dodgeball. Nothing like a good old American game of Dodgeball. Oh, but it's SO much more than just a game of Dodgeball. A ring of limited contenders, clad in American-color men armour and women padding, running from one side to the other to put Nerf® balls in an erected yet soft basket. But it get's better because there are anti-contenders in the already-contender's way, ready to block and grab, kick and punch, headbutt and butt their asses away from the soft baskets. This can only get better. How? Add mud. For the men, it would be a spectacular spectacle. Women in mud? Oh, it'd be hot!

All of these devices make the show. The underlying themes and connotations doesn't create the myth, it isn't THE myth. These devices REINFORCE the myth, prolongs it. And by prolonging the myth, it is the stereotype that is consistently enhanced and perpetuated. The result: prejudism. Hasty assumptions. Even I am making prejudice assumptions by writing this essay. However shall I manage myself and my thoughts?

I must admit, every scene, every show, and the entire spectacle was very entertaining to watch. From beginning to end, I coudn't take my eyes off of it. It drew me in, kept me hooked, longing to see, "Who's gonna become the next American Gladiator?!" "Oh, that could SO be me..." Perhaps my reaction met yours and eventually, the episode has done its work. Success. What kind of success and is it a good one? Of course, if the myth exists, which I think it does, then I have, yet again, fallen into the deep crevice of American entertainment and prejudism.

Spendings/Consumerings: Parking was free today b/c the attendents at the box froze in place from the cold. I ate food: bread, milk, chocolate, yogurt, cereal, tofu, gailan, rice, banana. I also babysat and made Ghirardelli brownies with walnuts.

Printing: $1.40

January 28, 2008

Cravings

In the past, I've always associated cravings with food. I define a craving as a strong desire to taste something. And, you can taste anything. Why is revenge sweet? Why, when someone is so cute, you just wanna "gobble them up!"? What is the taste of Freedom?

Cravings extend far beyond the necessities of nutritional consumption. Far beyond food cravings. Granted, there are things I want to eat on specific days, with specific moods. But today, food doesn't matter to me. Just as long as I have it. If it really does storm tomorrow, I want to come home after school and work to find a cabinet stock-full of food. The ailment? Grocery shopping.

Grocery Shopping: $100
Gasoline: $14.50
Car Wash: $5

Total: $119.50

Spendy spendy is all I can say.
p.s. Obviously, I spent money on other stuff too, not just groceries. When I get home, I'll make you a detailed list.

January 27, 2008

Finding Ways

I really really really want to go to the San Franciso Art Institute (SFAI) for grad school. Actually, I just want to go to SF. Get away from the cold. Weather affects our decisions. Weather affects our consumption decisions. For example, the car wash is closed on super cold days. Waterslides and waterparks are also closed. Anything related to water + outdoors is pretty much closed.

But in the summertime, everything related to coldstuffs is successful. Ice cream, Icees, ice, iced tea.

The day of the week also affects our consumption decisions. It's a totally lazy Sunday today, even though it is above 30°F today. Sunday means pajamas and contact lenses, so I'm not going anywhere today.

I'm doing HW, surfing the internet (SFAI, NYtimes, etc.), eating, music, cleaning. Oh, and Sunday is also a good day to make primary and secondary lists. For example, in the primary category, there're Groceries. In the secondary category, there's Ciabatta Rolls. If a tertiary list is necessary, then SuperTarget would be in it.

Total: $0

Interesting read on the NYtimes about Luxury vs Customization

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San Francisco baby!

January 26, 2008

CASA Chinese New Year

Today is a special day. I sang at the

Chinese American Student Association (CASA)
Chinese New Year Celebration
Year of the Rat

Last year I was the Master of Ceremonies (MC) with my dear friend, Kristine. This year, she's the VP and I was one of the performers. The other performances were Chinese dancers, musicians, and the traditional Lion Dance. I sang two original Chinese songs. It was pretty cool, there were a ton of guests (2,000 lbs)!

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My friend Wei and me.
Mic sound check, 3:30pm

Since I was the Webmaster for CASA last year, I understood that it would be a long and hectic day. Set-up and sound-checks, food and performers to check-in...I arrived at the Great Hall, CMU at 2:20pm and spend the rest of the time there. Show began at 5pm and ended at 7:30pm. I sang at 6:30pm, just after intermission. After clean-up, a few of us went to the Uptown Diner for some much deserved grub and Tex Mex. I had a Belgian Waffle.

They were gonna pay me $20 to perform, and then $5.50 for parking. I didn't take any of the money because the entire event is a Charity Event. And I'm just a student, no need to pay me. I can't explain, it'd be so awkward to take the $20. For the parking reimbursement, I just used the $5.50 to "pay" for a membership to CASA. Anyway, I just didn't take the money.

Parking $5.50
Grub $10
Gas $27.75 (holy shit!)

Total: $43.25

As far as ET goes, I attended the CASA event, which was like, MAJOR ET consumption there, for everyone present. So, I guess this makes me a product for consumption as well as a consumer, simultaneously. Anyway, the day was total boss and I had a good time. It was fun, seeing people whom I haven't seen in one whole year. Time is such a thief.

I also relaxed and watched a french movie and drank strong tea.

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The Beat that My Heart Skipped (2005)
De battre mon coeur s'est arrêté (2005)

January 25, 2008

Fridays

This will take some getting used to. I only have classes two days/week. And so, today is the start to a long weekend. Four full days! Of course, there is work. The two put together makes them seem totally part-time. I feel like I don't have much to do. Full-time student and two, part-time jobs. Shouldn't I be busier than I claim to be?

I didn't spend any money today. But I did cook a lot at home for dinner. Ma-po tofu (minus the pork) seung-tong gai choy, and some fried rice for dinner. I used the stove for a long time and washed the dishes for a long time too. Set-up and clean-up took 3x the amount of time to eat the freaking food. But it was worth it. (If you read the book by Bunny Crumpacker titled "The Sex Life of Food" it will put this whole thing into perspective, honest).

Total: $0

Things to do:
• restaurant menus
• internship projects
• finalize Capstone

January 24, 2008

Wordy evening

OK, I can do this. I can write more.

But, to be quite honest, who's actually going to read this? If you're reading this, you're a big weirdo. QUICK, close this window before you get caught, WEIRDO! My blog is just a bunch a blah blah about what I do and spend on blah because I was feeling blah blah, at the time. The word 'blog' even sounds like 'blah'. Here's to my blahg.

Now, on a more serious note. I nutritionally consumed more than I monetarily consumed today (if these two actions can possibly be compared). In chronological order: two cups coffee, one small ciabatta roll with Promise® Butter, container of Boysenberry Yoplait® Yogurt, one cup fuity Cheerios®, one Vitasoy Milk box, one cup organic skim milk mixed with one pouch of french vanilla Swiss Miss®, 1/2 cup cooked Jasmine rice, one scambled egg, one rib (cow), one bunch choy sum (veg), one ciabatta roll with olive oil, salt, italian seasoning, five water crackers topped with homemade basil walnut cream cheese, one Gala apple, water. Yeah, and I ate ALL that? Really, I feel good about it, Weirdo.

Before I go on, I read a book by Bunny Crumpacker this winter break titled, "The Sex Life of Food." If you are reading my blog entry today, you really should be reading this book instead.

Next, in chronological order, I monetarily consumed the following: parking $3.75, copies $2, printing $1.60, giant container of basil $5.56

Total: $12.91

I thought today's discussion the recent political events was somewhat disconcerting. I think it's because it has been a long time since I've participated in a seminar. And this is my senior seminar, so it doubly important that I contribute constructively. In my past experiences with seminars, it has been frustrating (oh God, like fights and grudges afterwards for days), and exhilarating (learning about each other). Mind you, in these past seminars, we discussed critical social theories such as modernism, post-modernism, Marxism, Feminism, Socialism, etc. Ben Agger, Galeano, Walter Rodney, Norman F. Cantor, Bauldrillard, and, Roland Barthes. I'm restless about it because I'm struggling to make the connections. Mythologies? Semantics? Polls? Graphic Design, Wii, Guitar Hero, what?

Feeling: Bored, dull, cynical, impatient
Music: Frank Sinatra

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Olivia, my niece.

For the record, I consume the following each day. (Yes, I'm aware of these, so don't hold me accountable for being ignorant of these consumptions.) Although, I wish I knew how much these would actually cost me...

Electricity: stove/oven, light
Gas: heat
Water: dishes, laundry

January 23, 2008

Cold Day

It's still really cold today, and I passed an enticing Dunn Bros on my way to drop Mom off at work this morning. But I thought to myself, "I can make one at home." Indeed...I made three!

I didn't spend any money today, I just worked at my internship. But I did see a movie. A friend called and said, "Do you have a lot of homework tonight?" (Yes.) "No, not at all." "Let's go see Sweeney Todd." (Really, I need to read and finish a project, just say No.) "Sure, what time?"

My friend paid, the stub reads $6. The movie was gory and peculiar, I'd say 2.5 stars. Oh, and the characters Severus Snape, Bellatrix Lestrange, and Wormtail are all in the Sweeney Todd movie. The Director must have had some crush on the Harry Potter antagonistic characters!

January 22, 2008

Back to School

First day of the spring semester. After leaving home this morning, I realized I needed money for parking. I drove home to retrieve my wallet only to find that it was not there, so I went to the bank to cancel my cards. I borrowed money for parking. Then I went to school feeling all discombobulated. It's interesting to note, 'consumerism' is one of the main topics for the first class of the day. It's a bit ironic.

parking $3.75