Denouement
Hello again! It’s been almost three weeks now since I left Germany, and only now am I starting to readjust to daily life here in the USA. I didn’t blog during the final week of our program simply because I was running around like a crazy person most of the time. To be honest, though, I think a part of me wanted to pretend like my time was not ending, that I would not have to leave Germany and all the wonderful people I had gotten to know during my stay. That, somehow, I could just cross my fingers and close my eyes, and I wouldn’t have to go “home� from a place that already felt like “home.� So, blogging about my “final days� would have been a little bit too concrete for my happy daydream.
That being said, I guess this is as good a time as any for me to face the facts:
The USA Goes to Berlin Program is over.
I am back in the United States of America and must begin to get into the groove of my life here no matter how strange and out of sync I may feel.
I miss Germany.
I miss my host family.
I miss my new friends and colleagues from Velten and Berlin.
I even miss soccer…a little bit. (See June 18 post if you need an explanation of that one.)
I don’t know when I will ever be able to go back again, and that thought makes me sad sometimes.
On the bright side, the pace of life here has already picked up sufficient speed that I don’t really have a lot of free time to mope about all this. I work full time in an office and have rehearsals and lessons most evenings. On the weekends, I have my church jobs and a few uncommitted hours to do all the domestic chores that get neglected during the work week. I spent this past weekend sorting through all of my souvenirs and paperwork from my 5-week stay and, while it was emotionally tough to be reminded of everything all over again, it was also a nice way to sort out my key thoughts for this final blog posting.
While I certainly can’t speak with authority for our entire group of 15 students, I think this program was a complete success! Nearly every aspect of my time in Germany was beneficial for me: – host family (music-friendly and all-around wonderful people!), elementary school placement (where I could work in both English and Music classes), lectures on the history of Berlin (I’m not a history major like some of our students, so these were very useful for me.), excursions and group visits (all were great and highly informative), and the research component (I was able to plan ahead and use this experience to make connections with new voice teachers and coaches, and to begin preparing a recital.). The only downside was being located outside of Berlin. This made travel times long, but I managed just fine. And, the longer I am away, the fuzzier my memory becomes about the negatives and dwells instead on all the positives of the program.
The length of this program was just long enough to allow me to get “settled� in my routine in Germany, and to make significant strides in my language abilities. But it was short enough that I didn’t begin to take anything for granted. It has also engendered in me the desire to return to Germany as soon as possible, and for a much longer period of time. To this end, I am signing up for more German language classes and looking into academic fellowship programs like Fulbright and DAAD to facilitate a return trip. Maybe in 2009. I hope so!
As the second half of this exchange program, the German host teachers will be visiting Minneapolis in October for two weeks. They will be housed by middle school and high school German teachers, and will help out in the classes taught by those teachers. In their free time, I expect that they will do many of the touristic things in the Twin Cities, like the Walker Art Museum and a shopping trip to the Mall of America. I know that their time will be limited, but I already have plans for my host mother! I am hoping to cook dinner for her – although I can’t promise it will be anywhere near the delicious meals she made for our family in Germany. I also want to take her to a musical or opera, or maybe she can even come to one of the rehearsals I will be doing for the University of Minnesota fall opera at that time. We’ll just have to see when she gets here. I can’t wait to see her again. For now, I am left with many beautiful memories…and lots of souvenirs!
Auf Wiedersehen!