choices and criticism
While finishing my Desgin Fund project for the initial crit, I can't help but think about my TA's reaction.
When ever I have any kind of interaction with him, he seems to give the impression that I shouldn't be an architect and that I must be insane to be in this class. I hate doing graphical design... which is why I'm trying to go into a career involving spaces and three dimensional representation. But if I don't pass, and do well while impressing the professor (director of undergrad stuff), then I have no future as an architect here. This takes me to a place where I'd have to transfer in order to get into an architecture program anywhere... when the only reason that I even looked at Minnesota (Wisconsin snottiness kicking in, since the admissions here seem to be a lost easier than the ones for Madison) was that it was an architecture school that was cheap that wasn't a mile away from my house. (UW-Milwaukee, one of the best public programs in the country, is 8 blocks away.) If I don't do well, I'm going to have to transfer to somewhere that will take me... which scares me into thinking that I'm just not creative enough in general be an architect and I should give up now before I waste too much time and money on school.
My TA tries to nicely say that my projects are crap, but I know they are. They aren't graphically impressive in the light of day, but only when I'm half awake and the dim lighting of only my desk lamp is available. My ideas aren't amazing either, because I want to have academic integrity and not leach off of someone else's idea, since they should get credit for thir own brilliant thinking.
So I'm stuck with average to inane ideas that are poorly portrayed.
Maybe they won't look as bad during the day light.
Who am I kidding.