December 9, 2005

So much to do, so much procrastination


Why am I so lazy...Is it fear that I won't succeed? Is it feer that I will have to change?

No. I am just one lazy ass son of a bitch. I have so many auditions to think about now, and no time to do anything about them. Currently, I would like to send in a tape to Chanticleer, send in a tape to the Oregon Bach Festival, prepare an audition for the Stuttgart Festival, and Cantus. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

All the while I am trying to pay my bills, and singing for money. I fear that I will never become a rockstar.

Maybe this is why so many people commit suicide during the holidays. That is when all of the opera auditions are and theyare so everwhelmed by the fact that they can't get a job as an opera singer that they decide..If I can't be a classical singer, I'll never be a rockstar, and they jsut pull the trigger. Truly, I could never do anything like that. I guess it is time for me to do some retail therapy (instead of actually preparing for anything)