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October 31, 2004
A View on Working Out
Check this out, i stole it from this website.
I thought it was cute.
Gay guys in the locker room. Now that’s just not fair. Why do they get to live out their fantasy and I can’t? Imagine if they let me get undressed in the girls’ locker room!! A room full of naked women! I’m salivating just thinking of those naked female bodies holding frying pans… cooking me up a steak… mmm… DAAAAMN!
So it’s not fair that homos have all the fun! Why should they get to see naked men when I can’t see naked women?
Okay, really though, it’s mostly a punishment for these gay nubs to have to use the men’s locker room. In fact, if I had a teenage kid who thought he might be gay – I’d FORCE him to use the men’s locker room.
Like, if you catch your kid smoking cigarettes you can A) forbid him (always backfires) or B) make him smoke cigarettes all day until he pukes. So if you think your kid might be queer, bring him to a men’s locker room and make him look at all these disgusting naked men all day. After he sees 347 gross, saggy, sweaty, back-acne-infested, hair-clump-having naked dudes, there is no way he will want to be gay. This is the only way to un-gay him.
You do realize you can’t really “ungay” someone. But looking at old naked people is a great way to make young people vomit. I’ve noticed a major difference between the young and old. Young people are very picky about who they are friends with. There are all sorts of requirements. They have to be as “cool” as you. They have to dress a certain way. They have to have similar interests. For an old person to be friends with another old person, there is one requirement: you need to be alive.
Posted by piep0058 at 10:46 AM | Comments (1)
Trash!
So I got sixteen hours of sleep last night. I was thinking of going out last night. I mean, for a while I really wanted to. but for some reason i felt so secure and cozy inside my little room. And I was also very sleep deprived. The sleep felt great!
Friday night was only somewhat fun. I went to Yummy with Brett and Cody and the food was very good. However, one thing severely bothered me: they were soooo slow about getting water out to the table. i swear, we didn't have any water for over 20 minutes. did they not have any glasses for water? I don't know! They seriously failed the whole experience just on that issue. otherwise everything esle was allright. the food at Yummy was all really really good...or yummy... ha ha ha i crack myself up.
Then we went to Southdale to look for a pink shirt. I couldn't find any that I liked. sad! i need a slim fitting shirt because i don't like the ones that make me look like a sailboat. So i gave in and went to Abercrombie and Fitch, only to find nothing. There were some allright things...I just don't feel like wearing XXXL. i don't know why they even make such sizes. seriously, they need more smalls and mediums.
After that Brett dropped Cody and me off at my place and we hung out before going to the saloon. When we finally did make it to the saloon we were stunned to see that the average age there was at least 44. Was it "take your nursing home patients to the saloon night" or something? I don't even know...but after an hour of hanging around there we decided to leave. i guess friday night is just not that night to go out. oh well. i love going out on friday night. i guess i'm just so used to working on saturday night and getting things accomplished on sunday. oh well.
then after the saloon we both went back home. and then i went out again because some guys called me to say they were leaving the 90s. it was fun. but then i was an idiot and locked myself out of my car. oops.
so saturday was spent trying to get back into my car and just lounging around. saturday night was so nice. sure, it would have been nice to have gone out. but i really could not handle another night without sleep. i'm glad i caught up.
Posted by piep0058 at 10:34 AM | Comments (3)
October 29, 2004
My one foray into sports
Ok, now, as most of you know...I don't give a damn about sports. I mean, they are fun sometimes. Fun to play. Some fast-paced games are fun to watch (i.e. hockey, soccer, volleyball, basketball). Some slower paced games have become american icons (baseball, football). it's not that i hate football and baseball. i just can't get into them. and it kinda deters me from further excitement because everyone else is so excited about them. my dad played in the majors and he always gets super excited and knows all the pitches that the pitcher is going to throw next (he was a pitcher). i just don't understand it sometimes. people get crazy excited about professional sports and i feel like i am missing a gene that causes me to get excited.
I'm sure if you have read my blog you have also read Greet Machine. After reading it, even I think a new stadium is a life or death situation.
My initial opinion: sure, a new stadium for the Twins would be nice, but... professional sports are sort of like a luxury. the twins do not directly help society (such as funding for education would or funding for transportation improvements). Our children's education is far more important than any professional baseball game, even the world series.
My opinion now: Shane pointed out that education will forever be underfunded (or at least in the near future, i like to have hope). And it's true, a new stadium could revitalize city life, encourage more urban development, which would make the urban schools better. Thus, what the government cannot do directly, they can use professional sports to create a better city. According to local Minnesotans, the Excel center in st. paul has actually created a better downtown atmosphere. However, the current location of the Metrodome leaves much to be desired--well i guess you can just ride the light rail to the more exciting spots, so that's nice. Maybe creating a more developed downtown would support expansion of a better mass transit system (as in expansion of the light rail?) i doubt it. but it's a nice thought. it has become commonplace to for people to hang out by their cars and drink before heading into the stadium.
so while it's not exactly absolutely important that a stadium bill gets passed NOW...one should definitely be passed either in the next term or the term after. I would never expect Minneapolis to go the way of St. Louis (as in bombed out, no development). But if they don't fund a stadium soon, it could very well be headed down that path. and if more conservatives gain power in this liberal stronghold, minnesota could very well turn into missouri faster than you think. first the legalization of concealed weapons. then a ban on gay marriage? there would be riots.
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October 28, 2004
not another all nighter
so i'm preparing myself to start the 4005 transport homework and i'm scared. i don't wanna be up all night doing it again. plus i only have 3 red bulls. i'd definitely need 4 to do it all.
so my plans this weekend went down the drain. i was kinda hoping to go to carleton for the change in scenery. but now that i can't...where am i gonna go? i really wanted to take a road trip somewhere. i just can't stay in the cities! I'm gonna go to Eau Claire. hahaha. There has to be some party to go to!!!
I really don't want to hang around here Saturday night because that would imply that i would need to go to the gay halloween party...which really isn't my thang. We all know that sometimes I can be a party pooper. I need to at least have a few drinks. I realize that I can't drink a ton like i did that one night. but i was hoping to be drunk for a long time. I don't want to just go out to the bars. no thank you.
Posted by piep0058 at 08:21 PM | Comments (0)
October 27, 2004
The Antidote
So yeah -- sometimes you just have to suck up the fact that you're a bitch. Just deal with it. And I have dealt plenty today. If you couldn't tell I was in a real shitty mood.
But I'm feeling a lot better now. How did I do it? It definitely wasn't by listening to Interpol and Sigur Ros. Somehow playing volleyball with the pasta bar crowd actually made me feel better. or it could have been induced by my freezing feet. man was that sand cold. maybe i was letting my stress out on the ball.
I hate being trite, but i'm going to do this anyways. it felt like i had a place in the world. i felt like i mattered to people. yay.
but what really did it for me was talking to my residents. they cheer me up. even the republican ones. just the fact that they'll stop by and talk to me. it makes me feel good somehow. or the fact that rob (while drunk, with a pizza, and running into a wall) offered to help me carve the pumpkin. classic moments. adam, mitch, john, rob, ryan, dylan, tony -- they all crack me up.
the chocolate I bought is also making me more cheery. i almost feel back to normal.
The nicest people are also the craziest ones. Watch out for those normal ones.
Posted by piep0058 at 11:31 PM | Comments (2)
My patience is wearing thin
Perhaps I am changing...but it's getting harder and harder to keep smiling. sometimes I just want to cry and cry and cry. but then i remind myself that it wouldn't accomplish anything (except getting a wet pillow).
i'm not depressed, i've been through that before. this is something different; something i haven't experienced for almost a year and a half. perhaps my emotions are just out of whack or something. or i am just prepetually being let down. i just want so much expression from people, and it's so hard when you get nothing.
but that is not to say i am always being let down. there are so many things to make myself feel good...they just get blocked by the bad things. le sigh. i'll be all right, i know it. i already feel better. deep down things are allright, it's just this inner shell that feels damaged.
Posted by piep0058 at 02:34 PM | Comments (0)
October 26, 2004
One Week Away!
so folks, we're one week away from the presidential election. i'm trying to contain my excitement. it's really hard. why does this election mean so much?
i don't know, i just see it as a chance to either affirm or reject a redneck agenda. that's honestly how i feel. george bush makes me ashamed to be an american. people like clinton...but at the same time, as educated as clinton was, he still reminded me of those people. i mean, he was from arkansas! and we all have those stereotypes about people from the south. at least clinton was intelligent. bush really does not have that going for him. i always thought we wanted our most brilliant minds in the government, especially at such a public level...i guess people are smart enough to know that they do not want to go up so high.
so if GWB gets elected again i will feel sad...mainly because i won't be proud to be an american. the world will view americans as gun-carrying country bumkins who feel it is their duty to police the world and spread the values of a warped sense of christianity. and i just don't want to be a part of that.
Posted by piep0058 at 09:58 PM | Comments (0)
October 25, 2004
campfire mochas!
so i decided to get a campfire mocha at caribou coffee today and it is absolutely delicious! you all should try one. the weather was beautiful today, walking around. i had shorts and sandals on...yup, i was one of those crazy people.
since the weather was so great today. and i was just in such a great mood, here are some haikus:
real world on tuesday
spoiled brats are annoying
get over it please!
i wanna watch it
stupid boys will watch baseball
i just watch reruns
overflowing work
piles up on my dirty floor
i start with laundry.
Posted by piep0058 at 07:34 PM | Comments (0)
Noooo, don't buy cigarettes
so some bot or something has infiltrated my blog, leaving comments to buy cigarettes and play bingo and other things...it's kinda funny. but at the same time, incredibly annoying. who would create such a thing?
and i gave up on internet explorer and i'm using mozilla now. i'm a lot happier. no more pop-ups! yay!
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October 22, 2004
Buckingham Pi Theorem can Lick My Nuts
oh man oh man. i did not sleep a wink last night! the closest i got was watchign music videos while drinking a Sobe Adrenaline Energy Drink. I downloaded George Michael's "Flawless (go to the city)" and it's really really lame. but at the same time, it's a fun song.
but at least i finished the assignment. did i really know what i was doing? no...but...ummm...i don't really care. i think i made educated decisions.
i'm remarkably alert considering i didn't get sleep last night. it must be because i'm still jacked up on those energy drinks. they seriously give me the runs. it's gross.
i'm thinking of doing a program called "assassins" where everyone on my floor tries to "kill" everyone else and the last one left wins the big prize. here's how it would work, i would arrange everyone on the floor to have name. Noel from Comstock last year did the idea with marshmallows. basically you use your marshmallow to hit someone else. that person is then "dead" and the successful assassin takes the name of whomever the victim was trying to kill before his death. eventually it would go down to two people. There would, of course, be the need for "safe spaces" such as one's room, the bathroom, and UDS, where people were immune to assassin attacks. everywhere else is fair game to be killed.
this way, people get to know one another by wanting to kill them for a big prize!
Posted by piep0058 at 03:44 PM | Comments (6)
October 21, 2004
Vote Kerry, 2004
W IS FOR WRONG! SHOW BUSH THE DOOR IN 2004!
Well, today i actually got politically active for once in my life. I went to go see John Kerry at the Metrodome. It was ok, i mean, why am i supposed to get excited? It's just someone talking up there about things they want to change.
Besides John Kerry, there was someone from the Timberwolves, Mayor Rybak, some woman from the Minnesota secretary of education, Walter Mondale, and Max Cleland. I gotta say, having Max Cleland on the campaign trail was a good move. It appeals to the veterans who might have doubted Kerry's service in Vietnam. At least Kerry was in Vietnam! Don't forget who somehow managed to do service in the Texas national guard!
Anyhow, how could you not vote for someone who is supported by someone that just has one limb? If there are any undecided voters out there that are reading this...just vote for Kerry, enough said.
I gotta do some transport homework! Fun!
Posted by piep0058 at 08:59 PM | Comments (0)
October 20, 2004
Get Crunked Up!
Oh man it's been a rough week...and it's only wednesday! Needless to say, after doing the thermodynamics homework, I need a little relaxation. So we're all going to applebee's for 2 for 1s! Yay! I'm gonna get crunked. haha, that's so not me.
But seriously! this assignment for thermodynamics was super long! I know i didn't really start until last night but you'd think i would have been done before 4 a.m. when i went to bed. (i was just having such a fun time that i couldn't let it go!) In fact, i was so excited this morning that right when i got up i started back up on it again! And I skipped lunch to do more homework too! woah, the sarcasm meter is off the hook!
music to listen to: Blue Skies, by Tori Amos (it's sorta re-mixed).
oh man, i can't wait until tonight! I don't have tennis tomorrow so i can sleep in! the weekend is basically here! (except for this pesky transport assignment due friday). I should probably go walk around a lake...if *cough cough* brent would ever call me back. someone's a lil too busy with his new job to care about me. I know i've been too busy with my work this week to really talk online! i've been neglecting people...and i am sorry. if you talk to me tonight i'll be more inclined to actually engage in conversation...unless i'm on the way out to get crunked up! (i'm overusing that term, shame on me)
anyhow, i just finished my crappy starbucks latte. now i'm off to tuscan night at UDS!
Posted by piep0058 at 05:16 PM | Comments (9)
October 18, 2004
Whatever happened to Nick?
Every now and then I think of Nick...remember him? Well he sticks out in my mind as quite a unique character. I was actually going to write a journal entry wondering what he was up to.
The last thing I had heard from him was that his mom was snooping around in his room and found pictures of well...sexy men. Then nothing. Nothing for about 4 months. I was kinda worried that his parents took away anything for him that could lead him to become gay, like, for instance, the internet or his cell phone.
I was really worried that his parents sent him to some anti-homosexual treatment facility, much like this one.
But I think the most likely situation was that he just got freaked out about being gay and that separating him from his family.
But I ran into him today as I was off to study for my biomolecular exam that did not go as well as I had hoped (I wanted 100%) but still, i didn't fail, just, I could have scored better. It was so great to see him. Not that I want to go out on a date, he's pissed me off a little too much (oh, but he's so cute!)...but just that nothing really bad happened to him. He said he and his mom don't really talk about the whole gay thing. It's like he's become Mary Cheney or something. I would like to hang out with him though and take him to the Saloon or something. I bet he would love that!
Posted by piep0058 at 06:11 PM | Comments (1)
October 17, 2004
Highs and Lows
so saturday was a lovely day. definitely the relaxation i needed after friday night.
so volleyball came in like a mouse and out like a lion. a dead lion. we won our first game. but then we lost to sanford and then to territorial. it was sad! i wanted to do so much more! and we could have too! we should have practiced or something...but...it's ok. after all, it's just homecoming.
but now i'm off to work! even though i feel soooo much pain in my legs. i have some thermo and biomolecular work to do. test tomorrow!
i wish i had some time to write down some thoughts...because a lot of things have bothered me lately...
Posted by piep0058 at 08:44 PM | Comments (0)
October 16, 2004
there's a hole in my pants
ok so i've been walking around all day with a freakin' hole in my crotch! and please, no jokes about me having a hole in my crotch area. my penis is huge and nothing like a vagina. anyhow, i need to stitch it up.
so thursday night was the night from hell with the homework from hell for the class that can sometimes be hell. i actually like the professor a lot. Tsapatsis does a good job. however, the material is not really that exciting. anyhow i spent a ton of time learning nothing really and just doing silly work that even Tsapatsis said was perhaps a little too hard.
thus, i felt like i was dead on friday. and my nap wasn't even that great. stupid insomnia. it's really hard to sleep sometimes. even when you have a hangover at 7 a.m.
like this morning.
so i went out last night with a couple of CAs from comstock (Mandi and Kay) and Kay's friend Becky from Carleton who supposedly has a cute gay friend there that is a political science / computer science major. That's nice that he's so smart but i am not going on any blind date with this dude from Northfield. but hey, i guess it could be exciting and then it would give me someone to make fun of if he is really kinda wierd. or who knows, it could blossom into a huge fruitful relationship.
anyhow, we previously went out for gay coffee at vera's (that bitch) and then stopped at Hum's liquors. I got a blottle of hpnotiq and it was...ok i guess. i don't intend on getting anymore anytime soon. but that's cuz i don't have my own place with a bar. now, when i do have my own place with a bar. i will for sure buy a bottle.
then we headed off to chris's apartment and that was fun. i met some cool people and a lot of other people showed up. but then i met the people next door...and let's just say they were a little gayer than the ones at chris's party. so naturally i headed over to hang out there. AND I GOT SO DRUNK! note to self: do not play "fuck the dealer" when you are already drunk off your ass.
the end result: i got super drunk and puked and passed out in my room on my futon. i hate having to be helped. like, i think i woulda been ok, but yeah, i was nuts. and i have a psychological problem where i like to get attention.
well, almost time to close up shop at the front desk. volleyball tomorrow! we're gonna win!
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October 13, 2004
R&R
oh man it's been a rough time today.
thermodynamics midterm & really hard biomolecular homework.
not fun.
so i went out tonight to noodles by lake calhoun and then to jamba and then i walked by the cold lake. i love days like this. it's like 50 degrees, cloudy, slightly wet. gotta love it.
even though i have a japanese history exam tomorrow, i'm going to pretend it doesn't exist until after the debates tonight. no need to work myself up over nothing. i'm gonna play around on facebook. you should sign up, and then we can be friends.
Posted by piep0058 at 07:12 PM | Comments (2)
October 12, 2004
Sigur Ros time
well, i haven't been in the best of spirits today. i need sleep. it drives me nuts sometimes when i can't get any.
and i've been listening to a high quotient of sigur ros lately. i don't know what it is. some of it is motivating. i guess that's what i need right now.
songs playing: Luvstory, Ny Baterri, Staralfur, Hun Jord, Flugufrelsarinn, Viorar vel til Loftarasa, and so forth. Check 'em out if you are so bold. They might make you want to learn Icelandic. I know i want to go there.
Some haikus:
My heavy eyelids
hold the weight of the planet
Insomnia! Why!!!
My senses are slow
My body is deprived of
Energy to live
Must function though
Need to find motivation
Emerges from within.
Posted by piep0058 at 12:52 AM | Comments (1)
October 11, 2004
Something Political
So I was snooping around on Brad Froehle's website and I came across this:
“We found the weapons of mass destruction. We found biological laboratories.”(May 29, 2003)
“I recognize we didn’t find the stockpiles [of weapons] we all thought were there.” (Sept. 9, 2004)
President Bush
I totally agree with Brad. I'd rather have a President who isn't as steadfast with his opinions. Either Bush is being told what to say, or he isn't thinking on his own. Wait...nevermind, it must be both. I don't understand how someone can say such things. He's deliberately lying to the American public just to justify the attack (I just needed to say that, I know it's obvious). But some people don't see this!
I know Iraq wasn't the best place to live. Saddam was not a popular ruler in my mind. However, it's not the United States job to police the world. I really want to pull every single troop back into the country. Perhaps this is an isolationist movement. I know a lot of our troops are still needed and we can't necessarily bring them out at an instant. But, why do we have a military presence in areas anyways? I look at other countries, France, Germany, Sweden, etc. are not deploying their troops to fight battles in other countries. It's not their job to police the world. It shouldn't be ours either.
The instances of natural disasters is another thing. I fully support our efforts to help with those.
Posted by piep0058 at 06:06 PM | Comments (2)
Am I still Alive?
God I feel like I'm dying...
I have absolutely no energy. I have decided that I will not go out this weekend. I'm going to go sit by lake Calhoun and just walk around Uptown, come back, watch a movie, and go to bed.
Last night at the 90s was worth it though. I saw Ale for the first time in so long. And then I saw Anders...and he totally jumped on me. Which was fun! And then I saw Mike, and yeah, that was not so fun. And then I saw the other Mike, and that was a lot of fun (he jumped me as well). I also met up with Peter, Cody, Ian, Toby (the not good one) a boy named Miah (Jeremiah, how gay is that?!?!) Tom, Mike, Tony, Kent (the security monitor supervisor), and a scary asian man that would not let go of me.
I'm really happy Rob is on my floor. Too bad Derek was not around, I'm sure he would have loved to go. Ha ha. Poor Dubs.
It would have been better if I had not had the fight with Mike last night...but some things are just unavoidable. Sad.
Actually what is sad is the banquet dinner at the Loring Pasta Bar on Saturday night. It was a really boring shift to work, but at $15/hour I decided I couldn't pass it up. It was an event to honor Camp Courage. I know I shouldn't have cried during the video about them, but it was just hard not to when you see people experience things that they would never be able to without such facilities. It was more or less tears of joy. I don't know what came over me. Why was I so emotional? Am I getting depressed? Probably not. It's so silly--I'm usually never an emotional person. But I just decided to let myself go. Just before the video played this one guy left the building to go out and smoke. He left just as they were recognizing why they were there. Perhaps I felt like that if i didn't feel anything I would be just as bad as he was. But then again, I'm going to hell no matter what...haha.
Posted by piep0058 at 03:09 PM | Comments (10)
October 10, 2004
A Double Dipper
Woah, kinda late on getting reviews up here...but this is what I did Friday night:
Once class was over I went to the mall. There was a sale at express so I capitalized on that opportunity. Bought a nice sweater that I really didn't need but I liked it a lot and it was a good deal.
I really didn't feel like I needed any clothes. I have a lot of other pressing matters.
But after that I went out with Brent to the Vintage. My review: it was nice and cozy. Nothing really original. But I did find it to be a good experience. I had some kinda of chicken with a spicy red sauce and mussels. It was great and delicious. They did have a TV in the bar area which made me sort of...unsure about the intimacy of the place. But nonetheless...it has my seal of approval. It was certainly better for a more intimate experience with someone. At the Loring Pasta Bar it's hard to really talk to someone out in the open like that. It's really the luck of the draw if you get a good seat or one that's out in the middle of the floor. I did get to see a lot of other restaurants on Selby which looked like they were asking me to visit. I'm definitely going to stop by some of those in the near future. Next stop: Moscow on the Hill.
So I went home after that on Friday night hoping to stay in and do some homework and do some laundry. Maybe watch a movie by myself in my while doing the loads.
But, alas, I ran into Spencer and, since it was his 21st birthday, decided to go out with him to downtown because I still hadn't really experienced it yet. So we went first to Drink basically. "The Original Fun Bar" whatever! I was dancing with 40 year old women! Well...at least I didn't have to worry about getting them pregnant. But...I didn't really care for "the night at the roxbury" dancing on the other side of me as well.
Then we went out to other places, not really impressed with them that much...and then we stumbled upon Bar Fly. It's on Hennepin not too far from the Saloon. We all had free passes so we did not have to pay the cover. As I was paying the cover I saw this wierd person in a tight yellow suit run past me with a horn on his head, much like a telletubby. It was really scary at first...but then these little creepy aliens actually warmed up to me. Now the crazy space-anime girls were another thing...they were a little too wacky for my taste. But all in all, the Bicardi Limon promotion (I later found out that's what it was) was awesome. I think it kept out the conservative old people and attracted the new crazy youth. The style there was great as well. Very futuristic and Ikea-ish. The walls that changed colors...that was awesome.
I hate saying this...but...when i was at Drink I felt like I was in "the straight world" --meaning everyone around me was straight. And people there were either married or looking to dance with the opposite sex. And, if someone were to start dancing with the same sex, it would be the most stared at thing in the world. Bar Fly, on the other hand...actually had a decent mix of people. There were a few homos there...and it's not like people really cared that they were there/dancing with each other.
Posted by piep0058 at 02:21 PM | Comments (3)
October 07, 2004
Why Blog?
I'm going to reassess my reasons for keeping this blog.
If you look back to my first entry, I stated my goal was to record my thoughts at a particular time in my life so that I could look back and see how stupid I was. I've tried to document key events that have affected me and how I have reacted to them.
I was surprised to know that this was actually a project created by Shane Nackerud. I never really thought of this being a test prject or something; it just seemed like something that has always been here--I felt I was a late-comer. And I got mentioned on the blogs that he wanted to thank for taking the idea and running with it. I have to say I have made a lot of entries dealing with my life and talking about the way that I see things (or how I would like to see things). And sometimes I just have the most random musings to talk about that it just makes me look crazy. I know I post like everyday (or nearly everyday) to talk about whatever happened or whatever is occupying my thought for the day--and a lot of time I am procrastinating (like now). But I think I'm really benefitting from this. I get to talk about my thoughts and hear other's opinions. It shows me where I've come from and might indicate where I'm going. It's like my own little history book in the making.
Right now I'm in a very relaxed mood (even though I have homework to do...and I really wanna go out to Grandma's for Ben's birthday!) So I better get a-crackin' at that. A lot of the stress has been eliminated in my life! Perhaps more comments on that later.
Posted by piep0058 at 08:19 PM | Comments (3)
October 06, 2004
The Sun Also Rises
Ok, this is for Brent: Joel's response to Brent's comment.
Go on, read it. But be sure to have something to release your anger out on, preferable an inanimate object.
I'm a fan of Hemingway. It's true. There are some things about his stories that strike a chord with my life. For Whom the Bell Tolls, "Big Two-Hearted River," "The Old Man by the Sea," and my favorite, The Sun Also Rises. Why did I like the book so much?
Well, one of the recurring themes in a lot of Hemingway's books is the concept of the inner circle and the outer circle. It is really blatant in The Sun Also Rises (remember the two groups of people seated in different rows, watching the bull fight). I guess you could say that this is why I will sometimes admit to being pretentious. People who can reason for themselves and aren't subject to the power of others (hence my blog's title) exist in the inner circle. They are able to see the effects that other people have on them. I like to think of myself as being in the inner circle.
So what about those in the outer circle. Well, I've given up on them. There are some people that will simply never be able to comprehend the values of existing in the inner circle. Should they be helped? Yes, if they are willing. The distinguished student, Joel, however is very unwilling to reason.
The solution? There is none. Realize that Joel will forever remain in the outer circle until something that is beyond human control changes him. It's not worth letting yourself trying to reason with him, you will only find frustration. It's rare that I turn to religion for help (I don't believe God has any influence on earth) but if he did, I would pray that he could help Joel. His words are very hurtful; they show his lack of understanding for people. I've accepted that I can't do anything.
Posted by piep0058 at 11:55 AM | Comments (7)
October 05, 2004
Some energy
Joel updatd his blog. care to comment? I mean, I know i shouldn't let people get to me so easily. But if I did happen to run into Joel, I'd really like to figure out why he thinks the way he does. It's really hard for me to believe that he's really actually studied homosexuals. But, I'll let it go. It's not worth me getting upset.
Posted by piep0058 at 11:26 PM | Comments (25)
i'm so weak
oh man i need some energy bad. this red bull is really not helping me. i guess it's giving me some energy. i need another. this biomolecular homework is not going to do itself.
so since i didn't go out last weekend really i'm going to do a review of the liquor depot. ok, the outside needs a face lift. but it was so awesome on the inside! i was so giddy to be in there. there were so many options for drinks. i can't wait to spend a ton of money on alcohol or something. but, i'll have to wait for when i actually have a bar. damnit! i left my bartending book back home. that thing is nice. i should put it to some good use. vox vodka. hpnotiq. butter schnapps. i should also get a martini shaker and a martini glass. I think i saw some at IKEA.
every day is getting more and more beautiful. i'm sorry for being that one weirdo from american beauty. but i just keep looking around and smiling. maybe it was the candy i ate last night. those chocolates were delicious by the way. i hope all my residents enjoyed them. what am i going to do this friday...so many choices: Fhima's, Fuji-Ya, Moscow on the Hill, the Vintage, Red, Azia, Vics, Tuggs, Keegan's, Tiburon, Origami, Ichiban's, Tonic, Chino Latino's, La Bodega, the Melting Pot? Oh hell, who am i kidding, I will probably just stay in like a dork. But that's ok, I got a lot done last weekend. *sigh* at least i will be able to enjoy sitting by a lake or something. maybe i will go shopping. i kinda do need to pick up my caribou paycheck.
Posted by piep0058 at 08:58 PM | Comments (1)
Feeling Better
In case you have wondered about me lately, I hadn't been in the best mood. I mean, I just had a test where I didn't do so hot. Homework for all of my classes is always difficult. I'm scrounging to the last minute to complete things. But things are getting done, somehow. I just finished some bulletin boards that have been bare for about a week now. I'm gonna finish my biomolecular homework tomorrow. Transport homework will be finished on time. I will get the root beer keg for the alcohol event. My residents are actually social. Everyone is getting along great...except for that one guy that always wears the vikings sweater...i should talk to him i guess, make sure he's doing ok...but he doesn't say hi. maybe he feels like he doesn't fit in...he shouldn't be a republican then...i think he doesn't like me because i'm a homo (he probably doesn't even know).
Anyhow, I'm feeling like I have things under control a lot more now. and that's a good thing. I certainly don't need someone disrupting that. And thank god it's not happening anymore. The barrier is gone!
Posted by piep0058 at 12:29 AM | Comments (2)
October 04, 2004
So that was fun...
I just had my mass transport midterm. not fun. i really should do better. i mean, i knew the material, and i think i got an average score. but i hate getting the average score. i think i can do better though. I'm kinda worried that I'll get a B though.
well, we'll see when things actually boil down. cleaning up puke really isn't that bad. it just smells.
but i gotta go work on my thermodynamics homework. and it ain't cool. the work never ends does it. there are a lot of tasks to be completed today.
Posted by piep0058 at 11:18 AM | Comments (0)
October 03, 2004
Martin Luther King Time
ok so i had a dream while i was taking a nap. it was so pleasant i decided i'd share it.
i've been stuck in here for the entire weekend so far. it's really not the most pleasant thing to be here for so long. but oh well. here goes.
i imagined myself living on some farm (well, at least a country house), riding horses and looking at mountains or fjords. the air was so still and quiet. the only noise around was from the wind blowing in the grassy fields. it was slightly cool, like today's weather. clear skies, very blue. the horse i was riding was like gandalf's white horse in Lord of the Rings (as if there is another gandalf). i could see for miles in every direction. life could be so simple living here...but there was one thing very unsettling about it all. it was just me. but i guess that was ok for me.
but it's not ok. i know that.
oh well, it was definitely the vacation i needed after being here for so long. i want to sleep again. but i can't because i have to do 1 a.m. rounds.
Posted by piep0058 at 12:46 AM | Comments (9)
October 02, 2004
A Weekend of Duty
ok so it's my last saturday night that i'll have to be on duty until december 11th. yay. i'm getting so excited!
last night was terrible. i am so angry right now i want to make someone cry. don't question it!
so what happened:
all was calm in comstock hall until 1 a.m. I was doing the rounds with Iceman Dave and the Security Monitor and it was going very well until we landed on my floor. and this is what i saw. needless to say, it took a while to clean up. in the mean time, we had to deal with a smoker on the 5th floor west, an open emergency door, drunks wandering around comstock unescorted, and just staying awake.
but i saw Saved! last night and thought it was such a good movie. It was very cute and has a good message: if God created all of us so different, then why would he want us all to be the same?
anyhow, it's 11 oclock and time to do rounds. Don't forget about my vengeance. we smoke while we shoot the bird.
and oh, you all should hear the MC Pee Pants song, "I need Candy."
Posted by piep0058 at 10:58 PM | Comments (0)