I'm putting it down
for you to see if our fragments match anywhere,
if our pieces,
together, make another larger piece of the truth
that can be part of
the map we are making together
to show us the way to get to the
longer-for world (Pratt, p. 31).
I am fascinated by
using personal stories to get at oppression and attempting to
understand and to change the world in which we live. So I was thrilled to read Pratt and Segrest telling their stories, especially as they recognize the difficulties of this, e.g,. how
Segrest choked on stories as she "struggled to find a voice to bring you back these stories"
(p. 1). I believe that stories are essential to our lives and to who we are,
and I think that perhaps they may be essential to attempting to make
trouble. Stories are a way in, touching our emotions and moving
us--out of sorrow, anger, fear, hope, wonder--a way in which our personal
struggles are embodied in our physical, emotional, and spiritual (in
the broadest sense) selves.
One of the
important mechanisms of stories is that our own stories can help
other people make sense of theirs (and vice versa). They also can be
a means of self-preservation. In Chapter Four, Segrest writes of a
day in which, after the story of herself was demonized, she spent an
afternoon "trying to decide whether to kill myself," culminating
in her being "resigned to a lonely and tragic life" (p. 38).
Being able to tell her stories and hearing those of others allowed her to accept herself--especially when her stories were
validated by other people. Pratt also writes of her pain and sorrow
over her inability to speak, in other words, to voice stories of
oppression, and how the scripts/stories into which we are socialized separate us from other human beings.
Additionally, Segrest
and Pratt both used their own stories and experiences of oppression
to lead them into a greater understanding of other forms of
oppression and their interconnectedness. Segrest writes about
"finding in his [a black man murdered by a distant relative]
angers, fears and resolves a deeper understanding of my own outcast
self" (p. 2). She came to realize that "there is no
separate safety" (p. 49).
Bailey writes that such moves
can result in a shift in our ways of seeing, understanding, and
moving through the world.
My sense is that these types of stories
are quite common and so sharing them allows us to be more fully human
with each other, to empathize, to share our struggles, to admit our
own failings and shortcomings, our pain, despair, and fear, to struggle with how we feel our stories may betray people we love or even our own stories and histories.
However, I also worry about this process
for several reasons. One that Segrest identifies is how the
conflicting stories of her life/oppression set up barriers between
her and her friend Carl that outlasted his death from AIDS. Another
is identified by Pratt, when she writes that knowing the racial
histories of her region can be paralyzing, leading her to a constant interior
dialogue about whether and how she is playing out racial scripts in
every interaction, from casually passing someone on the street to
attempting to develop deep relationships.
My biggest worry, though, is that falling back on our own stories can actually get in the way of learning how to live and changing unjust circumstances that keep us
from being able to speak to each other (Pratt). While we can, as
Bailey says, quoting Lugones, identify with people whose worlds we do
not share, this does not automatically mean that we understand other
people's worlds/stories. It can also lead us to draw facile comparisons that hide mechanisms and structures of oppression. For instance,
in the antiracism work that I do, I have seen over and over that
white women use an understanding of oppression we face as women as a
way of understanding racial oppression. But I have also seen innumerable examples
where white women use their own stories to stop them from hearing other people's stories and having to acknowledge their complicity in racial oppression. Often, I think this is about fear and discomfort, about
actually having, as white people, to acknowledge that we have been
and are, often unwittingly, participating in oppression. When hearing
the story of a "racial other," white women or gay men or poor
white men use their experiences of oppression to avoid
talking about race by going immediately to other explanations or
to their own story, e.g., what is really happening in this room, this
discomfort and inequity we are experiencing, is not an issue of race but actually about gender
or class or. . . . . I often stop people from drawing these comparisons because I have seen how these personal stories actually derail attempts to talk about race and white supremacy.
So, my
question is: how do we honor each other's stories and share our own,
while not using our own pain and struggle to avoid acknowledging how
we are complicit in other forms of pain and oppression? In other
words, (how) can we use our own experiences of oppression as an entry
point into understanding larger systems and working to change them,
rather than allowing our own experiences to put up barriers to
understanding and better, more authentic relationships? How do we
recognize when our own stories may get in the way of other people's
troublemaking? How do we do the work of antioppression--make
trouble--in places of mutuality, companionship, creativity,
sensuousness, curiosity, easiness of the body, places of hope,
safety, and love (Pratt, p. 41)? What is the role of relationship in
this? (Pratt's articulation of this: "we will only be able to act
effectively if we gather up, not just information, but the threads of
life that connect us to others [p. 65].) And how do we do this if it
is seen as traitorous by those with whom we already have deep and
intimate connections?
Other related
thoughts (since none of us seem to be able to ask just one question, myself included!):
Segrest
identifies what we might term several elements necessary for
troublemaking structures of oppression: analyses of power (both
people and institutions), specific skills and organizing tactics,
and psychological, inner work. Pratt also locates knowing the
histories of (local) struggles and oppressions as key. Where have
you seen these elements? Can these elements exist within the academy? In what
ways, for instance, does the academy encourage us to view people as
objects, rather than subjects, of research, and how does this prevent us from challenging oppression?
Segrest
writes that homophobia, classism, and racism were major mechanisms
that allowed (and continue to allow) the AIDS crisis to go
unaddressed: because some lives are considered expendable. This
explicitly ties to Butler's conception of "grievable lives." Can
stories help us to flesh this out more?
- How do we reconcile peoples' different truths--including sometimes having to toss out some stories as not true (e.g., how the Greensboro massacre was portrayed)?