I'm struggling through the last month+. The weather changes have made me sick - unable to breathe. The body changes have made it hard - unable to breathe or sleep.
Beautiful gifts keep arriving. It's wonderful because we don't have a baby shower scheduled. I don't know all the customs of "woman stuff" but my best girlfriend from childhood explained to me that someone else is supposed to throw you a shower (or even surprise you). I've never been given any surprise party in life.
Honey and I talked about throwing one here ourselves - Yah right. I'm too damn tired to get through the laundry, cooking dinner, planning lectures, and spending awake time with my daughter. Whatever comes via UPS is what comes.
I keep thinking about representation of pregnant bodies.
One of my students posted this image for a class assignment:
She believes that pregnant women's bodies are often beheaded. Hmmm. I'm looking for photos (not home flicks, but "pro" shots / model shots of pregnant ladies).
Another student posted this rather creepy (in my opinion) photo of Tori Amos nursing a calf:
Other thing I keep thinking about is breast feeding. Our culture celebrates breasts in many ways - as objects of visual pleasure, as objects of sexual pleasure, as objects for surgerical enhancements, as medical objects - but never as they were designed - as sustenance for a baby. Girls Gone Wild's creator Joe is on Tyra show right now, I can hear it in the bg - what a celebration: flash em!
MN protects a woman's right to nurse at any time and in any place. I'll invoke that right shortly.
Still, many find it necessary to hand out "Oops you caught me breastfeeding" cards like this:
Watching the news last night made me so sad and disgusted:
Yesterday - beaten for being pregnant and Black
Unfortunately, it's very common.
There's always more work to be done.