I am...Just Another One.
I am moody, quirky, and sometimes selfish. However, I am also independent, compassionate, an introvert, affectionate, and am willing to try anything at least once. I have been told that I am strong on the outside, but have weak spots inside. I battle my own inner demons, sometimes with swords and other times with tears. I am silly and serious; and sweet with a little sass.
I am NOT a morning person although breakfast is my favorite meal of the day.
Favorite movies include Garden State, Little Miss Sunshine, Kissing Jessica Stein, and I will admit: Mean Girls had me in hysterical laughter at times.
Favorite book is a children's book entitled Love You Forever by Robert N. Munsch.
Because of a little girl that entered my life almost exactly 5 years ago I am no longer a drug addict or a dancer. She gave me reason to continue living and break the bad habits that I was quickly falling into.
Meet Madeline.
Her smile, her laugh, her ability to do a "crazy-lady dance" like no other little girl is what makes me smile, laugh, and dance right along side her. She is a Princess and a Star Wars junkie. Her questions about the Muffin Man, the Moon, and what and where and when and why and how and who is the Muffin Man again? Never cease to amaze me.
Together, Madeline and I, have taken on the World. This past summer we drove all over the country stopping in random little towns (& some large cities too) meeting people from completely different places and backgrounds than our own. We heard and shared so much laughter and so many stories.
From the coasts of Florida...
To the mountain tops of Colorado...
To the windy deserts of Utah...
And on to Arizona...and Nevada...and California...and back home to Minnesota... (and all the states inbetween).
Having my daughter and experiencing all that we did this past summer has helped me to realize that this might just be the only life we have and that we have to make the most of everything.
"Do what you want, and f*ck the rest." -- I can't seem to remember where I've heard this quote, but it seems to fit well right here.
I will continue to follow my heart, no matter how crazy it may seem at the time...which is the BEST advice my mother ever gave me. My life hasn't been the greatest, but I am learning from the past instead of dwelling on it. I love my life.
Comments
Your post made me cry!! And your daughter is the most gorgeous little creature I have ever seen!
Posted by: Jen | January 18, 2007 12:22 PM
That quote: "Do you what you want and f*ck the rest" is from Little Miss Sunshine! I completely agree! I really enjoyed the pictures and your story!
Posted by: Kate | January 18, 2007 01:39 PM
Darn, Kate, you beat me to it!
Samantha, I really enjoyed reading about you and your daughter. I was inspired by your road trip around the country, meeting so many new faces. It sounds amazing!
Posted by: Mikaela | January 18, 2007 10:13 PM
Samantha,
Great post. It was so heartfelt and beautiful, not to mention the wonderful pictures you posted as wel. Madeline is adorable! I'd love to hear more about your trip--I love traveling.
Posted by: Karina | January 29, 2007 12:03 AM