Journal #4: Sunshine in October
Despite the cold temperatures and it being the middle of the semester, I am feeling pretty good. Busy, but in control...
It does help to know that this is my last semester of coursework, except for this class. It helps to know that I am taking another step towards finishing this degree - that I can start exams next semester and move ahead!
I am giving lots of thought about what I am willing to sacrifice for the sake of getting my degree done. About this idea of time and how I am spending mine this semester. A lot of my time I am swimming in my own thoughts about various things I am writing and ideas for a dissertation topic. I am not in a forest sitting with my thoughts, but rather feel like I am in an ocean swimming with literature, methodologies, etc.. Everything is swirling around and within me, but not in a chaotic way. Rather in rhythmic, fluid, soothing and powerful ways. And I am swimming with it - I am swimming in tandem with "the everything." I LOVE SWIMMING! And the longer I am swimming, the clearer things are becoming for me, for my future directions. "What is it exactly that I want to get at" in my dissertation work?
I am feeling more peaceful, more in control, more powerful, and more knowledgeable as this semester goes on. I don't quite understand it, but I am enjoying these positive vibes. I am working hard, having fun, and learning extraordinary things - what could be better?
Comments
Hey Cassie--your strength, passion, and focus come out loud and clear in this message. The swimming metaphor is a good one, and it's wonderful to hear how good you're feeling, how much you're accomplishing, and how much you're learning. Well done! Now, if you could just bottle this and share it with the seminar group!
Posted by: Dee | November 4, 2006 1:31 PM