Journal #4: Sunshine in October
Despite the cold temperatures and it being the middle of the semester, I am feeling pretty good. Busy, but in control...
It does help to know that this is my last semester of coursework, except for this class. It helps to know that I am taking another step towards finishing this degree - that I can start exams next semester and move ahead!
I am giving lots of thought about what I am willing to sacrifice for the sake of getting my degree done. About this idea of time and how I am spending mine this semester. A lot of my time I am swimming in my own thoughts about various things I am writing and ideas for a dissertation topic. I am not in a forest sitting with my thoughts, but rather feel like I am in an ocean swimming with literature, methodologies, etc.. Everything is swirling around and within me, but not in a chaotic way. Rather in rhythmic, fluid, soothing and powerful ways. And I am swimming with it - I am swimming in tandem with "the everything." I LOVE SWIMMING! And the longer I am swimming, the clearer things are becoming for me, for my future directions. "What is it exactly that I want to get at" in my dissertation work?
I am feeling more peaceful, more in control, more powerful, and more knowledgeable as this semester goes on. I don't quite understand it, but I am enjoying these positive vibes. I am working hard, having fun, and learning extraordinary things - what could be better?