Throughout the day I've felt scanners or something on my body, in my body, on my skull. And it was a long day.
The title was a thoice provided for me a few years ago while waiting for a bus on Nicollet. If it was directed at me I don't know.
Other victims' testimonies about "coincidences" show that synchronicity, however it occurs, can be positive or negative.
Synchrocity or synchronicity
Synchronicity is a term used by Carl Jung to refer to “acausal connection”. Synchrocity is a popular term used in new-age books and articles, and refers to coincidence. Both are usually discussed in positive terms; a chance encounter resolves a particularly troubling issue, a perplexing question is answered by randomly opening a book…and life is then all joy and happiness.
I don’t know how such synchronicity “works” but logic would tell anyone that the effects could be reversed for bad little mice, social misfits, those guilty of non-happiness and scheduled for the microtome.
Negative synchronicity can induce hellish circumstances. This is what some might call a curse, to hide the fact that someone/thing is responsible.
A traditional interpretation of synchronicity is given at:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synchronicity
These papers summarize some of the concerns I have about the harassment. That is why I put them in my blogs. This a paper for the class in which I took an incomplete last semester.
PARAGRAPH ONE: What is the issue? Who seems to be knowledgeable about this issue? What is known about this issue? Who is affected by this issue? Who is not?
I intend to research some of the places at which I’ve worked, since I have been banned from two pre-schools at which I tried to get placed for this class. Relevant research would also include the only two other places at which I was offered employment after I completed a computer-programming certificate. I may also research places at which I attempted to volunteer if time and events permit. Business newspapers and journals may provide information on the three to five companies that I am considering for research.
PARAGRAPH TWO: Why is this a worthwhile issue to explore? What do you already know or sense about this issue? What do you need or hope to learn? What are your major questions at this point? Why is this an important issue? What is your stake for being interested in this issue?
I am exploring this issue as just one step toward understanding what happened and continues to happen in my life. Obviously being banned from work or volunteering is important as a human rights issue. Also, I am not the only person who lost money when my company stock went to zero. Now, an executive at that company has been found guilty and faces the rest of his life in prison. Is this because I worked there? This alone is reason enough to research what I can. YES, events have been strange enough to convince me that there is some relationship between all the things I have written about so far for this class. Research may or may not clarify that relationship.
My major questions right now are very general, such as company history, mergers, sales and executive appointments or firings since the times that I worked at the companies.
PARAGRAPH THREE: What is your projected research agenda? Where will you need to go to find materials about this topic? Will interviews be appropriate for this topic?
This will be done with as little use of the Internet as possible; I have explained before that information I get on the Internet is often distorted. I may use the public and university libraries and resources at the Carlson School of Management. Interviews could be useful
if I can find appropriate people to interview (with credentials and proof of who they are).
PARAGRAPH FOUR: Speculate on what work your writing could do. Who needs to hear what you have to say? Why? What do these people read?
This paper would be a record of some of the places I worked, some of my experiences at those places and events that occurred during and after I worked at those places. This could be useful to the man facing life-imprisonment, myself and former and current employees and the companies.
I have not usually spent much time defining my groups but the events of the last ten years have somewhat changed that. As a result of whatever happened I find myself "labeled" into some groups. This started me wondering if perhaps other groups to which I "belong", or supposedly belong, may explain somehow whatever happened.
The groups into which I was forced/diagnosed are:
1 retired (on Social Security disability)
2 mentally ill (because the appropriate DSM category does not exist)
3 homeless – temporarily
4 unemployed or underemployed
5 living at poverty level income
6 unable to locate family members
7 socially isolated.
The groups to which I've belonged all my life and that I've started thinking about are German, Native American with working class parents from the South. (I always referred to myself as American Indian - do I have the right to refer to myself as I wish?)
I became Muslim in 1997. A few years later an unidentified source (“thoice”) informed someone (me?) ..."Your father is Stokowski"! So perhaps I am also a Polish, Jewish Muslim.
I do not desire to cause any innocent people embarrassment or suffering. Since I have not been told reasons for whatever happened (and continues to happen), I must use any information I "find" to further my understanding.
Considering what I've experienced and continue to experience only some improbable combination of circumstances, such as those mentioned above, offers a scenario that could begin to explain whatever happened. In other words, the chaos, the harassment, the psychological and electromagnetic torture are not going to have an easy, obvious explanation. Just now, as I wrote this, the cashier shouted to someone "You can't prove anything". One coincidence is just that. Hundreds of coincidences over many years indicate something called synchronicity. Recognizing and naming synchronicity is considered insanity.
During the past seven years, why did so many encourage me to work with the physically handicapped? Why did some people encourage me to work with children while others seemed repulsed at the idea? I’ve worked with pre-schoolers before and I found it very rewarding.
My experience has changed me. Now, everything I do is aimed at trying to understand what happened and is happening still. I have the right to continue my life with this focus.
I can find no blogs on-line about the kind of harassment that I'm experiencing. Websites indicate that many other victims exist, so I wonder why there are no blogs. Perhaps even my Internet access is restricted. Can anyone else find any blogs about harassment, or please give me some pointers on how to find them? Part of the harassment involves making people afraid to communicate about their experiences.
5/30/2005 5:12 PM
My property has been stolen, broken, contaminated or moved so much in the past years that I now try to keep with me those items I need and use the most, so that at least I’ll know where they are and they have less likelihood of being contaminated. These things happened not just where I live now, but in other places also. I do not even know if the people who live in the building are responsible, as security (if such a thing exists) is lacking. Yes, lugging them around and loading up my bike every time I want to leave the apt. is a chore, but all in all, it’s less stress than not having the items I want in working condition…the head swirlies just started... I leave my apt. less because of the effort/time it takes to load up all this stuff on my bike and I live on the third floor.
People have strange reactions to someone who carries this much around; some people seem to think it’s funny or that I do it for some secret reason. If they ask, and I tell them why, many act as if they didn’t hear me or as if they don’t believe me.
I feel that it's very unfortunate that I do not have a proper therapist to discuss so many of these things with...a therapist who would not require me to take drugs or submit to some destructive, invasive treatments.
If I did enter into such an arrangement, I would probably have to agree to take some kind of drugs while the therapist would deny everything I say. I know that this would actually end up being destructive for me. The therapists are required to deny the truth of the things I've researched...to not "encourage my delusions". I was actually told this by a therapist who would not agree to help me with other life problems if I did not agree with the diagnosis.
5/27/2005 2:10 PM
Why the date/time here? I do not have Internet at home, so I am recording blogs in Word to post later.
I just woke up from a nap; I had been working on the class readings but electromagnetic effects started swirling my brain around and I couldn’t think straight. I used the time more productively with sleep. When I awoke, the head swirlies were still happening but they stopped after a few minutes and I was able to think and read again.
More biological functions
Today I stayed home most of the day. In the a.m. I had to defecate at least three times within four hours. Why is someone or thing controlling such minute details of my life? The same thing has happened in other places, outside my apartment. It's obviously controlled by something outside of me; sometimes I can feel my stomach and intestines cramping up.
Someone replied to my post about being banished from preschools as a volunteer with the suggestion that I volunteer at something else.
For years I've been sabotaged and harassed out of work, rejected for employment and even forced from non-work places where I try to study, etc. Now that I've recorded these events, their frequency and intensity have been reduced, probably as a cover-up. I knew that I was doing nothing to deserve this but when applying for work, one can't extract much information from rejection letters. When I was banned from preschools (by the U? I'm not really certain who decided this) I confirmed my opinion that something beyond my behavior and credentials was affecting my experiences.
In other words, I’m being used, screwed over, and lied to. Whatever someone is doing to me, they won’t do around people who cannot be told to leave the area that I am in? Why won’t someone tell me what is happening? I am experiencing a form of imprisonment without walls, without a trial, without even being informed why my life is being manipulated down to the smallest detail. It is a clear violation of my rights. I am not allowed to look at my social security file; has someone put something damaging to my reputation in there?
So, as this was a community service-learning course, I am using it to try to learn why I am not allowed to service in the community of my choice.
Just as I wrote this, I heard a small explosion in the parking lot outside my window.
For most of the time that I've been at this cafe someone has been on the phone --- very loud, insipid coversation that I really can't help but hear because she's so loud. I have to admit, if the conversation were somehow informative I might pay even more attention to it. Same as the last 4,5 years only previously it was much more hectic. As for minding my own busines, if nobody is going to tell me ANYTHING about what is going on, the entire universe is my business as I try to survive and find out what happened to me and my family.
The brain swirlies just started a few minutes ago. I guess someone wants me back in my cage. Now my teeth are feeling something; it's not painful but a concern to me for the possible effects and implications. The phonie just left.
I can finally, for now, link to a site with much information on the type of things I've been blogging about. Unfortunately, I don't completely understand all the science but there are enough references in this link and the others that cite reputable sources.
www.raven1.net
ok, I used a new template and the overlapping columns were corrected. However, why do so few entries display on the screen? Is there a way to display more entries?
Why were May entries archived before June 1? Thanks, Penny Sue Scheff
Please excuse the persistent documentation of these problems. but sometimes the more I post and complain, the sooner the sabotage seems to be corrected...but not in all areas. Now I have to correct spelling errors that are in my posts and apply url links that previously didn't work. These
kinds of problems happened when I (attempted) work in offices and on computers. I am taking this class pass/fail to reduce the stress of dealing with these kinds of things.
I had been unemployed for years and without a legal residence when I signed the diagnosis of schizo-affective. I only signed after the therapist assured me that I could append to the diagnosis the information I had about the ability for someone to remotely induce the symptoms. Later, I was told I am not allowed to view my Social Security file, so I have no way of knowing if my comments were included. I also don't know what else may have been added that resulted in my being banned from preschools. I have never attacked anybody, nor have I been arrested (I did get a ticket from the U for riding my bike on the sidewalk).
I am searching for information on radiation detectors that I can afford. I believe that even at home someone may be targeting me. If you know of any resources, please let me know.
Before you decide someone is insane, please consider a list of symptoms experienced by other targets that appears at:
http://www.mindjustice.org/symptoms.htm
The research establishing the possibility of creating these symptoms is extensively referenced and the agencies that might have an interest in such technology are indicated.
I could not find a single blog in the mindjustice page....are people too afraid to blog about their experiences or is this page a hoax? Is that why it was the only page I could link to?
When I spoke with the therapist who diagnosed me, I discussed my sensitivity to electromagnetic effects. I told her of my desire to try living in an Amish environment, with no electricity. Since then, I've read a little more about the Amish and watched an interesting video. I noticed they even walk differently and I question if electromagnetic fields can alter how we walk by affecting bone and muscle development; perhaps it is because they perform demanding physical labor at an earlier age. There is an Amish info site at http://religiousmovements.lib.virginia.edu/nrms/amish.html
A minute ago I looked at one category on a web page but quickly clicked on another. Which web page category was displayed? The one I looked at. This is a very clear, simple example of the kinds of things that can destroy someone's life, when it happens in important settings, in different ways, over years and years, while other stressful events produce additional stress. About three years ago, I looked in a mirror a second after I removed a floss-pick. The reflection still showed the floss-pick in my teeth.
Something strange happens concerning my perception of events, both visual and auditory, sometimes in other areas too, such as sensations on my skin. Usually these events have been most disturbing during sleep.
My left eye felt something for about an hour, but it wasn't a very strong sensation. I am in the Profile Music Cafe; I was here years ago when it was something like the New Prague...I remember some things about that night. The life destroying harassment was just starting, I was out late on a cold, rainy night to stay away from my condo (which I later sold, without another place to live) where electromagnetic and other techniques were being used to drive me insane. I had sold my car and the busses had stopped running for the evening. I walked much of the way home in cold rain, then I got a taxi. The distress and fear I felt that night I will always remember.
call me at 612-870-0409 with suggestions thanks, Penny Sue Scheff
1. the sidebars are overlapping the blogs; I did nothing to cause this
2. links are not working for anything but my first link
Ongoing efforts to discredit me, make people question my credibility.
What does the word feckle mean to you?
I question if my blogs are actually being posted
this is the code I have for links...but only the first is displayed....any suggestions from the class? If I link the first one twice, it shows up twice, as I'd expect, but that link is the only one that will work.
thanks, Penny Sue Scheff
About a week ago I was in the rec center on a bike. The thoice said "OK, give her cancer". Then later a thoice said "I didn't mean it".
PLEASE, if anyone can RESPOND during the weekend, I'd greatly appreciate it.
My blog is displaying incorrectly again. I am at the public library; it is appearing the same way it appeared initially in class; the sub-heading
"Describing some of the experiences that resulted in a diagnosis of schizo-affective and presenting information that indicates these symptoms can be inflicted upon targeted individuals."
in the banner is covered by the first blog. Also, the first entries are not displayed. Does anyone in the class have any ideas on this?
How do I get more blogs to display? I used 25 in my weblog config for number of days to display.
My head is getting swirly again, perhaps I shoud leave soon. Now I just felt something in my right breast just after the guy at the next computer left, giving me a nasty look.
Thanks, Penny Sue Scheff
I mentioned in a previous entry the difficulties I encounter when I try to study and I suggested study areas as a wiki topic. In the meantime, does anyone have safe, quiet study areas they can tell me about, with a reasonable amount of people and not too much noise?
If anyone is traveling out of the cities I have a request…try to log on, read some blogs and respond. I just want to see a comment from outside the area.
At the Dunn Bros. I had great difficulty getting onto the network but finally made it after turning the computer off and on, talking to someone nearby, enduring another unnecessarily loud conversation,a strange aroma and stares from conspicuous looking people.
Thanks, Penny Sue Scheff
I thought everyone has thoughts or phrases that pop into their heads, seemingly from nowhere. Do you?
Would you care to share any of them?
When I last saw my brother Mark, he was unemployed, staring into space, his teeth were rotting out and he was virtually incoherent. A few years prior to this, he was exercising, in good physical shape and driving a taxi. This was at the very beginning of my experiences but at the time I was beginning to see that something was attacking my entire family. I have another brother who was forced into economic debt, but I haven't heard from any of my family for years and I don't know what has happened.
You may not want to read this while you're eating....
For the past few years, when I sit down someplace to read or eat or study, just about everybody clears out and then either one of two things happen. Sometimes, no one or few people appear and at these times I detect frequencies that made it impossible to think clearly and something makes me have to use the restroom. I’m not certain the two effects are necessarily related to one stimulus. Other times, new people appear and exhibit shared behaviors and then leave suddenly.
Just the repetition of such events is enough to be disturbing, but even more disturbing is the question of why these things happen.
As I started composing these blogs, my face started getting warm and I felt a pressure in my right eye. I've experienced these things before, and sometimes if I cover my face and eye, or if I turn around or sit in a different position, the effects are lessened. I don't feel any mind-mushing electromagnetic fields right now, but my concentration is less than optimum, due to something going on in my forehead. I performed well in school before the harassment and so now I start thinking about what is happening to me and it raises questions about what happened to my family.
My brother, Mark, was born prematurely and was diagnosed with mild mental retardation due to lack of oxygen to the brain. My experiences have convinced me that there is much behind what happened to him and to my entire family. First, it is possible to cause premature delivery. Secondly, I know that at times I feel that my body and brain are not receiving oxygen in a normal manner. This is especially disturbing when I wake up and my head feels "heavy"
"make it move" - an often repeated "thoice"
Today water was standing in the bathtub. This has happened in various places I've lived in the Twin Cities, but it usually only occurs after I've been living in a place for a few months. I haven't even been using the tub, except to wash some clothes.
Since I moved to the Twin Cities, I've been harassed into moving from different apartments.
In one instance, somebody anonymously reported that a “meaty smell” was coming from my room, and this set the apartment management on my case. I had no meat at all in my apartment.
Later, a county social worker was set upon me by an anonymous caller.
As I've mentioned before, my phone, mail and email are sabotaged. As I was locking my door to leave my apartment, my phone rang. The message did not play, so I unlocked the door and took a look at the phone. The message had been erased so I recorded it again. This is not the first time this has happened.
A more physical assault on my phone occurred when I lived in Chicago. While moving from one apartment to another, I left my phone in my old apartment. On one return trip, the phone/answering machine had been smashed. This was before I had a digital machine, so I guess smashing it was the only way for the perps to eliminate my message. Now the message can be removed remotely.
"We do you"
This one occurs often. If anyone knows what it means please tell me.
A thoice is a thought that pops into my head; others may call it a random thought or a "voice", but since these sometimes convey new information to me, I think they're from "outside".
"WORK" "Pay her there" “Feel free to take the last trip you’ll ever make”
“Your father is Stokowski” “Kettering wants grey matter” “Fresh fresh pons”
“It lived” " HIT IT" “Keep hitting it ‘till it’s dead” “It was supposed to kill her” “We did it” ”You knew” "You did it” “Her name is Terecki. She won’t die; you’ll have to come get her.” “For you” “We know” "Why her?“ "We work dear" "Won’t work” “We read” “You ran” "I gave her one" "Don't work" "Move" "Don't"
Even before I recorded these, sometimes people would say them in my presence, it not specifically while speaking to me.
Banned from volunteering at preschools
Family missing; when I last had contact with them, most were experiencing similar or worse things
When my mother died, no one called to tell me
Synchronicity
Frequencies that alter thinking and feeling; Computer and electronic malfunctions
Mail, phone, internet and email unreliable
Property moved, altered or damaged
Water faucet turned on when I was not in the room
Has anyone read this book? What did you think about it and do you know of any similar books?
The Body Electric: Electromagnetism and the Foundation of Life by Robert O. Becker, M.D. and Gary Selden New York: William Morrow and Company,1985
Reviews are available at:
http://www.sciencedaily.com/cgi-bin/apf4/amazon_products_feed.cgi?Operation=ItemLookup&ItemId=0688069711
http://www.baar.com/Merchant2/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Product_Code=512&Category_Code=EDU
It provided me with the knowledge that the things I’d experienced and reported to the psychological evaluator were possible.
please see www.mindjustice.org for more information about mind control
Please excuse lack of links, I can't seem to get them on my blogs yet.
What does the word "feckle" mean to you?
I removed my social security number from the title at the request of the instructor of the class. I displayed it because for years there have been suggestions and allegations that I never worked.
Last semester I took a service-learning class at the U but the service-learning coordinator recommended that I not volunteer at pre-schools. I took an incomplete in the class and I am trying to determine why this decision was made.
When I last contacted my family, most of them were experiencing similar or worse things. Now, I do not know what has happened to them or where they are. Their names appear in many places and I wonder if people are impersonating them to cover-up whatever happened to them.
Thoice means a thought that pops into my head; others may call it a “voice”.
They are unrelated to what I am thinking about at the time and sometimes convey information that I do not understand at the time.
Thoices can be distracting and threatening, depending on content and other factors at the time I experience them.
Is this microwave transmission or something else?
Face very hot at times
Electromagnetic frequencies that alter thinking and feeling that apparently can be “turned on and off”
Abdominal and rectal bleeding
Small jolts to my brain and/or body when I try to sleep; they stop if I sleep elsewhere, at least for a while
Strange odors that also apparently can be “turned on and off”
Many other electromagnetic sensations, any time, day or night
Eyes do not track as they used to
Penny Sue Scheff 323-58-9975
Places I’ve worked
Ernst and Young - sold
MCI – stock and scandals
State of Minnesota – no reason stated for termination just prior to six months
and getting into the union; my three month review stated my work was excellent
Musicland ?????
Savings
Depletion of company stock savings
I worked since I was seventeen; forced to use retirement funds at a penalty
Sabotaged and harassed out of work
·Noise; Crowds; Excessive heat on face or body; Talkative, abusive people; Excessive phone use; Bothersome or dangerous electromagnetic fields; Burning sensations in my eyes and various parts of my body; Electromagnetically or chemically induced nausea, colds, infections; Sabotage of electronics, possibly the cause of a car accident
Abdominal cramping and excessive abdominal and rectal bleeding; Electromagnetic and pressure changes that impair my ability to think and read; Chemicals and distracting aromas; Smoke; Slamming doors; Rattling carts; People or something stomping around on the floor
I am not allowed to view my own social security file.
I have experienced years of psychological harassment and electromagnetic harassment, sensitivity and torture. These have resulted in homelessness, multiple mild brain strokes and shocks, frequency induced rage/stress and leg pain/cramps, sleep deprivation, nightmares, loss of contact with my family (some of whom may have had similar or worse experiences), physical and verbal assaults in public places, dog attacks, sabotage of work efforts, lack of employment, depletion of MCI savings and many other atrocities - some of which are listed below.
I intend to describe some of the experiences that resulted in a diagnosis of schizo-affective and present information that indicates these symptoms can be inflicted on targeted individuals.
These include the following areas of abuse:
Psychological Physical Financial
I decided to take a blog class to post my experiences of the last eight years or so. I wrote them in a journal and now I think I should put them on the internet. The entries probably won't be entertaining, in the usual sense of that word. I am doing it for survival purposes, not for entertainment.
As I try to record and share what I've experienced and continue to experience, I realize that people demand FUN and ENTERTAINMENT: a professional, exciting colorfully illustrated journal please Miss.
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