I still do not know what happened to my family, where they are, etc. The harassment continues with loud, rude people hovering around when I arrive somewhere, then leaving....thoices and conversations reapeat while laughing..."they died" "they told you". Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
I am trying to print something out at MCTC but nothing will print. This is just more harassment to try to make me kill myself....ten years at least of this, because I'm a "feckle". I am enrolled for the summer session and my i.d. works to log me in, etc. recent thoices "she needs it now" "don't do her there" "she doesn't have a record" "get her one" "you have to buy" "didn't run" "we read" "do that" "Indian" "tell her to leave" "hit her in the head" Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
In a window I saw a (dead?) montionless butterfly. I don't know about different butterflies but this one was very large and visible, with interesting colorings. It was "creepy". I had a disturbing dream that night. Thoice just now "it means they're going to kill her". Thank You , Penny Sue Scheff
Why am I not allowed to bring a wheeled cart into the Minneapolis and St. Paul public libraries? I need it and the items in it for a number of reasons and security guards have a fascist reaction when they see it. The rules at the libraries state that items must fit under a chair...no honest reason can be given for this restriction. I've seen others with large wheeled items in these locations. Penny Sue Scheff
I still do not know what happened to me and my family. I have not heard from them for years. Some of them were experiencing similar difficulties when I last spoke with them. People still think this is funny. I don't know why. Penny Sue Scheff
As my class at the U is ending and I cannot afford another now, I may be losing my blog so I've started a new one at http://pennysuescheff.blogstream.com/. I've enrolled for summer classes at another school. thoices "you're not there" and thoices/conversations almost without end "you know" "we know" Penny Sue Scheff
May 05, 2006 12:00 pm I just completed a quiz on which I made another strange mistake...I knew what to do and then didn't do it.....I did the same thing on a quiz yesterday. Because I knew the correct answer or process in both situations, and then didn't do it, I feel as if something is interrupting my thoughts; or perhaps the disorienting emf I've been subjected to has permanently messed up my brain. This didn't happen my whole life, because I used to get A's in most math and science courses. Over the past few years I've met many people who rattle off information as if they know everything...even when they are correct, often they can't explain the process used to obtain their information....my experiences somehow feel "opposite"....I figure out an answer or process and then do something else. The tremendous amount of stress for the past ten years could account for it, but it feels like something else is happening. Also, could whatever was done to me and my family perhaps be justified, in the minds of some very sick people, by proving that people are "incompetent" or insane? Why else would someone/thing have tried to make me kill myself for the last ten years, and sabotage my work and school efforts? thoices "they're playing it" "erase it" "they use people" "they use girls". Medicare did not pay any of my bill to the clinic for a painful ear infection and immunization tests. I still do not know what happened to my family. Penny Sue Scheff Do I have children?
I have had back pain the last week. Sometimes it starts suddenly, then stops suddenly...emf? Ibuprofen sometimes seems to help. Perhaps "they" want to prohibit me from working, for unknown reasons. Penny Sue Scheff
I have had back pain the last week. Sometimes it starts suddenly, then stops suddenly...emf? Ibuprofen sometimes seems to help. Perhaps "they" want to prohibit me from working, for unknown reasons. Penny Sue Scheff
I've been unable to blog...internet problems again. I still have no confirmation that I paid one credit card bill, so I don't want to pay another until I have some idea if my payments go to where they're intended (or if someone is taking the money). I am sitting outside in a bus kiosk, I don't know if this will soon be determined to be illegal. I called a number to make payments on my state taxes; who knows with whom I actually spoke or if the payments will go to where they're supposed to go.
This a.m. after I was listening to the Quran for a few minutes I started feeling strange, emf induced yucky (and other synchronicities started) so I listened to something else and felt better.
no thing runs like a deer this advertisement popped into my head when I saw someone in a wheelchair and I wondered if the person in the wheelchair used to run and I thought about how much I used to like to run until the dogs and stares and emf.
Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
Yesterday I went to the irs to make my monthly payment for 2002 taxes which were imposed because I was forced to withdraw from my retirement while being sabotaged out of work. I I was not on ssdi at the time.) I learned that the payment I made on March 31, 06 was not applied to April, so I had to make another payment for April as a late payment. The direct debit that I requested has not been activated yet. I still owe about $2600. I also owe the state about $800 for the same year, same reason---that I refused to kill myself or anyone else.
My SSDI (soc sec) direct deposit was stopped by the local Social Security office because they received return mail for me. This does not make sense to me...I was not notified that direct deposit was stopped.
I do not know what happened to me or my family.
People often leave the area when I blog or post email. Penny Sue Scheff
I hadn't felt the sharp jabs in my ears for a few days; during a class break at mctc I felt one needle like jab. Last week it was much worse. My ears have been infected for about a week to two weeks but are improving. I had not received my social security disability payment as of this pm...it is two days late. Penny Sue Scheff
I've been unable to print in the Mac lab...someone bumped my chair earlier and I feel emf on my left breast. After I blogged about ear pain at school, I felt intense ear pain at other locations....that's what happens to discredit my accounts--- of emf attacks or just about anything else. Penny Sue Scheff
I have had an earache for the past few days. The irritation around the entire ear is constant but sometimes I feel more sharp pain in the ear drum or canal. I am at school when I feel the sharp pains most. I spent $60 on antibioltics but I don't know if I should continue to use them. I wonder if there is something wrong with them... they are not clear but white...perhaps they are expired or something because drops I've used before were almost clear. Penny Sue Scheff
Sitting at an outside cafe table, I felt emf on the right side of my head and the other person at a table left soon after that.
What has happened to my family? I am not allowed to view my social security file; some of them were experiencing similar problems years ago, when I last was able to contact them. Am I being blamed for what happened to them? People still walk by, speaking in disturbingly loud voices, I don't know who they are talking to.
past voices- thoices "can't touch it" "you can't touch her" "she's supposed to die by 2011 (or 2013?) anyway" "she did it" "they're in her" "what's the matter with it"
I had a strange "dream" the other night...a body was placed in a car and someone then cut off the face and behind the face was empty space....whatever had been there had been removed. At the same time a thoice "said" ....."but you'restillmarried, aren'tyouMrs.Shapiro?" I don't know if the thoice was related to the visuals.
In the last few minutes activity and yelling on the street has increased.
I found a place I could think and study so of course someone has occupied it with laptop. Now I have to sit where emf is targeting my head. Thank you, Penny Sue Scheff
thoices today "make it stink" "can they do that?" "yes sir" "we bettter lock it up"
"he takes it" "it's the phone you a**hole"
This past weekend while at Chipotle's (sp?) a man asked me if I'd lost my bike helmet (referring to my metal bike basket that I wear on my head) and then he got angry and said "you make the rest of us look bad". An officer later took my picture while I was eating my burrito.
If anyone reading this blog knows what happened to me and my family please let me know.
thoices "so they don't have to tell them" "your'e busted" "don't tell anybody" "pray" "put her in jail" "lock it up" "they didn't want it" "the men don't want it, their wives are driving them crazy"
The rash behind my left ear remains. I haven't heard from the clinic that immunity shots are needed.
I've been bleeding heavily for a few days and experienced burning on my legs and lower abdomen while I was trying to study for a test; fortunately it seemed easier than the first test. I've lost so much blood all over the place, anybody could try to frame me by putting my blood at a crime scene.
Some people seem to think emf, pychological harassment and noise that make me sleepy, give me bad headaches and prohibit thought are funny. They need more help than I do ? Or are they just evil? Penny Sue Scheff
I arranged a payment plan with the irs for $3000 that I owe because I was forced to withdraw from retirement savings while being sabotaged and harassed out of work a few years ago. The first few months I must pay in person, so that is what I intend to do today. I was also told that 2 months around the "holidays" required payment in person; with automatic withdrawal from my bank account, this seems absurd.
"put it on your head" a thoice-voice--- Not that I comply with every thoice, but I've been wearing a metal bike basket on my head for about week now. I sleep in it. I seldom take it off for long. Is this illegal? Why? Is it one of those unwritten laws? I've noticed light skin "burns" behind my left ear. Today I had blood drawn for immunity tests and I had a mole "frozen" off from the back of my neck. While I was waiting in the exam room I was able to read and think clearly. Not even the subtle emf (that somehow only makes me not want to think) was present. I felt only a little emf on the left side of my head and my face was very warm.
Early this a.m. the head swirlies were combined with something that made me not even want to stand up; it was impossible to study. This has happened many times before and in many different places, but it has happened less in the last few months. At the cafe, I suddenly was unable to read/study and my head felt strange; I turned around to see if someone was doing something behind me and that person turned around. Then I felt better for a while.Sometimes when I write or when people speak to me and then leave, or when I turn on my laptop, I feel something strange throughout my body...I don't know what it is and it's difficult to describe, but I get the same feeling sometimes when I'm trying to sleep. I still sometimes detect very distracting odors that start and stop quickly. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
recent thoices "she can't get sick" "it means they'd kill her" "you know" "she wants to kill you" "go" "bow"
I have received some blog responses on a different blog, supposedly from family members...but whoever they are they will have to prove it, and since apparently the whole world has been spying on my life and thoughts for most of my life, I don't know how they can prove it except in person, and that could be dangerous....the thoices a few years ago said "it's a plot to kill the whole family". Some of the "proof" so far is inaccurate.
recent voices-"thoices"...."illegal tampering with the body in the last....24?...hours" "the cracklin' means the reich made it" If anybody knows what these mean please tell me. Also please tell me what happened to me and my family?
I've made an appointment for immunizations, as I've been told they are required for school. Although I have been immunized I don't know where and can't PROVE it. I also went to the IRS and started a payment plan for more than $3000 I didn't know I owed in income tax. I guess they were probably waiting to tell me so they could throw me in jail again.
The other day when I ordered a cinnamon donut I felt the atmosphere, attitude, people etc. of the cafe instantly change, to be more...negative (emf?). The receipt I was given read "chocolate" donut. A few minutes later a woman offered to buy me a cinnamon cake.
I was told yesterday by a university official that I should leave any area that people in uniforms tell me to leave, without question, even if I am not doing anything wrong and I have the right to be there; that I should not demand some proof of why they are asking me to leave. This just confirms my experiences and conclusion that I have no rights at all and that anyone can do anything they want. I feel that someone could chop off my head and no one would say or feel anything; they would probably laugh.
thoices "pay her" "didn't work" "write" "don't write" "won't work"
If anyone reading this blog can tell me what happened to my family please respond.
Thank You Penny Sue Scheff
I decided to change my major for a number of reasons, one being that I found out that not all patients agree to video taping during sleep studies. I've experienced so many years of someone/thing trying to set me up that I would need to be video taped while working at this kind of job. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
thoices-voices within the last week
"don't let her work for a jew"
"you know" "you're here"
"they're going to kill somebody"
I called Bank of America to report a lost credit card and got " unable to answer your call" and then was disconnected.
If anyone reading this blog can tell me what happened to my family please respond.
Thank You Penny Sue Scheff
thoice "they want her to leave-they're doing her" "they won't tell her"
What does that mean, "they're doing her"?
recent thoices "they're hitting him" "he helped her" "we needed it" "Penny, they're framing you" "she won't stand up" "she won't go out" "now they're going to arrest her" "they were doing her" "do your hair" "get it out" Thank you, Penny Sue Scheff
If anyone reading this blog knows how I can find out what happened to me and my family, please let me know.
Although I should be studying I am spending much time on resarching past taxes, verifying early ira withdrawals, bills that get sent to collection agencies as soon as I pay them, credit card bills that I want to pay but now I don't have the bills and addresses, etc. I owed money tp Providian and Bank of America; I need the amounts and a current bill but haven't received any in the mail lately.
thoices "they brought her here" "the dispatcher"
thoice a few weeks ago "keep it busy"
Why do people leave after I send an email? Now my back starts hurting.
The other day, as a result of a letter I received, I called the IRS to request info on 2002 taxes. This was a time during which the disabling emf was at its worst, so I am not surprised that taxes weren't filed. At other times I've sent in taxes and had them returned for no valid reason. I had very little work in 2002 but I did have to withdraw from my IRA at a penalty (I had Federal taxes withheld), so now I owe income taxes on that amount to the state.
A few nights ago the muscle-bone-joint pain-inducing brain-disturbing emf was disturbing my sleep. I do not know who/what causes it; for all I know it could be remotely controlled from a great distance. It has happened in other locations.
If anyone reading this blog knows how I can find out what happened to me and my family, please let me know.
thoices..."because she won't leave" "they won't tell her" "get her out of there" "because they won't tell her" "hit it here" "because she's good"
Thank you , Penny Sue Scheff
thoices "what did Penny do?" "we're sorry we made you retarded" "you can still do good deeds" "go home" If anyone is reading this blog please let me know what happened to me and my family. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
rent is going up about $50
Too often the head swirlies get MUCH WORSE when I am on a computer..they make it impossible to think clearly. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
Feb 23, 2006 10:55 pm
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond.
This am or last nite I had two fast "dreams" or transmissions...one of a (smoke?) path in the sky indicating that a plane had crashed only the sky was very dark and the trail was silver, white or bright.....the second "dream" was of a man with oily hair getting out of his car..When I "saw" him he had just turned around and was looking down, standing between the open car door and the car. His oily hair was curled (... into a ...flip?)...at the back of his neck...but not a flip, it was curled in towards his neck.
Yesterday at court I was told that the charges were dismissed and that in a couple of days I could obtain paperwork stating the dismissal.
thoices "don't let her go"
At Wiley Hall: I went to the bathroom and when I returned a young woman was making a cell phone call from the desk where I had been sitting. I sat down on the floor; she turned to look at me and left. Many times, at different places, when I return from the bathroom someone has taken my place and often while speaking on a phone.
Thank You - Penny Sue Scheff
As I started reading a biology assignment, I felt "nervous", as if I were doing something "wrong"....this seems to be a new way to keep me from learning....it is very different from previous experiences that prohibited or distracted me. Perhaps it is from association with all the other distractions and emf --- or is it a refined technique? Did people start squirming and making sounds at the same time? Penny Sue Scheff
February 22, 2006 12:55 pm If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You , Penny Sue Scheff
"she didn't wear a hat" "she won't pay it" "she's innocent" "let her go" "don't let her go" "she thinks its real"
"girls with guitars put bears behind bars" "you told"
At desks and areas where I sit, I often find a paper clip, pen or piece of foil.
I just took a test for which I felt I was very non-prepared, due to emf, distractions, the stress of being arrested, tomorrow's court date, false accusations from a different instructor and being threatened with going to jail again. I don't know if I could get an incomplete in biology for these reasons. I've already dropped other classes this semester due to the stress of the arrest and the time it takes up. This is part of a continuing process...I've been harassed and threatened out of work for years; now the same is happening in school.
no person is telling me the following...they are thoughts that pop into my head like "voices" without sound...thoices...that's the best description I can give.....
thoices "the company monitored their house continuously" "you're good" "she doesn't belong here" " they won't tell her" "they won't give it to her" "they won't let her take it" "pay" "you're not good" "f--k you Penny" "you're not a boy" "tell her" "they help it" "they cover it" "take her there" "we told her" "we told you" "don't pray" "write"
"you b--ch you knew they would hit her" "wear it" "eat it" "keep it busy" "go there" "don't go there" "die" "go"
"you're in trouble" "you gotta go" "you have to go back there" "they hit it" "he killed himself when he read that"
"you knew" "you know dear" "not a dear" "they want her there" "not here""dirty or dead"
Is it illegal to talk to oneself? To blog about random thoices? How many laws are unwritten here? Undisclosed?
February 21, 2006 10:20 am If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond.
thoice this am? "See threw pleas"
This morning I was thinking (out loud) about the man who killed the nurses in Chicago. I was living in Chicago at that time and I remember being very scared by the murders. I was perhaps thinking about this because of the difficulties I've been experiencing at the school where I am enrolled in a health sciences career program in the nursing department. Because the "thoices" have been telling me to change my name, I was also thinking about that man's name and what it means, so I looked in a dictionary. The thoices said "you did it". In 1966 I was nine years old
Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
February 17, 2006 1:30 pm If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond.
I've been feeling emf on my eyes the last few days; yesterday I felt very strong emf on the right side of my head while at a cafe. Today in lab there were many instances of offensive smells.
Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
A blog I posted is not showing now. It was about my brother when he was very young. He ran down the stairs upset and crying one day because the toilet bowl broke while he was on it. He wasn't that heavy. No one in my family thought this was funny. He was diagnosed at an early age as mildly retarded - aphasic? I do not know what has happened to my family, for years now. A few days ago I awoke from a ...'dream' about something terrible happening in that old house. My parents were working poor with seven children, two of them with disabilities. The house was remodeled and the neighbohood declared an historic site after we moved. Penny Sue Scheff
February 15, 2006 10:12 am please respond
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
If any readers of this blog know what happened to my family, how I could contact them or verify what has happened please respond. Thank You, Penny Sue Scheff
I am trying to study biology and emf is making my head "jumpy", my body nervous, trying to make me use the bathroom again, sleepy, etc. Who/what is doing this to me? Why? Penny Sue Scheff
I feel something bumping under my seat after someone sat down next to me. The person next to me is not bumping it.
I just realized that a pen that I normally carry in my jacket is missing. Is someone using it to frame me? Then they return it? It seems someone/thing wants me to go to jail for what other people do. Thoice just now--"f--- you then" Penny Sue Scheff
thoices-voices a few days or weeks ago..."they never told her" "it means they were going to kill her"
Sitting in Wilson Library outside the commons I feel something mild on my left breast...thoice "they're doin' it".
I had just spent almost an hour(?) in the bathroom cleaning up the blood that poured out of my body within a few minutes when these two? thoices - "sorry puppy" "learn latin".
Why have I been followed for years by women with almost blank faces (except for smirks that look like "mind-control" smiles) carrying car keys and/or lugging wheeled back-packs? Penny Sue Scheff
Thoice the other day while at a cafe "some things not write when a baby's that still"
I took a bus a few days ago. Someone drove in front of the bus almost causing a collision (just after the thoice said "talk") and everybody started talking. A few years ago a thoice repeated "put blood on your hands" a few days in a row. I didn't. While I was trying to rest on a floor in the house where I was renting a room, some teenagers shoved a couch into my body, cutting and bruising my arm and then I had blood on my hands. Then a thoice said "no more miracles".
Today I felt far too calm given my present circumstances, as if drugged. The most disconcerting aspect is that areas of perception, orientation, and cognition that are usually affected by being in a drugged state are not perceived as altered. I wrote down a very strange date as the current date on top of my lecture notes and now I am bleeding heavily. I felt emf during a class in at least two different areas of my body. Penny Sue Scheff
recent thoices "I told you to get rid of her" "sorry, your get out of jail card is going to jail" "sign it" "I need it" "she needs it" "they're sealing it" "don't help her" "they help her" "they want it down" and again "they're framing her" "buy it"
The night I was in jail I experienced headaches, bleeding and two different bad stinky-smells (one stench at night in the cell and another while being moved around for whatever happened before the judge, I don't know if it was an arraignment, or what).
I recently took a quiz in a class. A few minutes after completing the quiz I filled in the quiz number area then a thoice "said"..."you really are stupid". I have experienced some distracting thoices before while taking exams. Since I was finished and just filling in the quiz number, it makes me wonder if the "thoices" occur when I (and others?) do something after a delay (as if I might have been THINKING!!!!about something) or if pehaps some thoices occur when individuals do something independently, outside of group-think?
After my arrest, I received an advertisement for a lawyer. I went to one office indicated on the letter and I called another office where he was at the time, according to the receptionist. I am not using his services but I cannot access the website listed on the flyer. Penny Sue Scheff
The mild brain swirlies have started
For about an hour I was allowed to think with whatever is left of my brain .
Last night at my local cafe as soon as everybody left I got unusually sleepy. Earlier today I had just sat down at the local cafe to read when, as often happens, the people that were already there left and new ones came in. At least one was talking on a cell phone. Something started making me nervous, too nervous to read or concentrate so I left. Thoice later--- 'they're trying to frame her".
I am trying to read while in a library and a subtle disturbance of my brain (feels like the forebrain area) makes retention very difficult. This is not always the case; there are times when the emf allows me to read and concentrate. I also hear a very high pitch sound but I don't know if they are related. It is a covert manipulation, a violation of an individual's rights, to prohibit learning this way. Penny Sue Scheff
While walking through City Center on my way to try to find a lawyer, a security guard told me I had to uncover my face. I told him I see people covering their faces all the time and that I am Muslim. He asked me if I had proof that I am Muslim. I had been asked this same question after I was arrested. Is this question required? Legal? What kind of proof does one need? I usually cover my face only because women stare at me or I feel emf on my face, but I've seen people covering for other reasons. After I became Muslim I "found out" I might be Jewish. Will someone need proof? What is going on? thoice "you have to say it" "you have to wear it" Penny Sue Scheff I was provided a link to view the state statute on concealing one's face but I couldn't link to it.
I have felt in the past few minutes something on the right side of my head. thoices "you know" "get out" "GOT IT"
People often ask me in an accusatory tone "do you got it?"
Last Tuesday I was arrested while making phone calls from a university building. I am a student at the university and I was not doing anything wrong. I was taken to jail for one night and was asked if I was guilty or not guilty before I had the opportunity to speak with a lawyer; I had asked for one. I was told my income disqualified me for a public defender. I was not read Miranda rights. I am having difficulty finding a lawyer. I plan to drop at least one class because my time, energy and efforts will now be consumed with fighting a criminal charge of disorderly conduct. I am enrolled in a health care career program at MCTC so if this goes on my record I will have to sue. I was given only a university trespass warning when I left the jail. I had asked for a trespass warning when I was asked to leave the building, prior to the arrest, and was refused one at that time.
This is how "they" force innocent victims to use all their funds and erase proof that they were once allowed to function normally. Speaking of victims, on the case history that I obtained, the Sanction includes "NO CONTACT WITH VICTIM". I did not assault or attack anyone; I was thrown on the floor and handcuffed while I was walking over to an information desk to ask why I was being asked to leave the building.
I have received one letter in the mail from an attorney offering services. I went to the address on the lettter and was told he wasn't in that office but that I could use the phone to call him. When I told the person on the other end of the phone that I might sue, he referred me to another lawyer. When I called the number he gave me, I was never able to speak to that lawyer but was transferred another lawyer(?) who told me I had to settle the criminal charges first.
The jail was terrifying. I felt I could have been killed and no one would know why or how; not even the person who could have been agitated by covert emf into attacking me.
The phone calls were pertaining to a Jan 2005 funds transfer that is not appearing in a bank statement. For years I have been forced to withdraw with penalty from my IRA in order to survive. I was trying to speak with a person from whom I had requested, about a week previously, a copy of this transaction information. I have been receiving two credit card bills that should have been paid with these transferred funds; during that time period I was experiencing much more mind and thought disrupting emf.
I called a number given to me by the arresting agency to discuss the charges; according to the trespass warning I am not allowed into the buildings where I have a class for this semester (Spring 06) and I am not allowed into the recreational center where I have paid for membership. I have not received an email reply as requested in that phone call. (I have not had my phone service reactivated because I do not get any "real" calls.)
I do not want to go to court but I cannot plead guilty to something I didn't do, especially since such a record would affect employment in a health career. I consider that official restrictions on my employment may be one reason this happened, as I was harassed and sabotaged out of work for years.
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When I was getting dressed upon release from jail I commented aloud that I did not even have a piece of paper stating why I was there. Then the window opened and I was handed for the first time the trespass warning. After I stated I didn't know why I was there, I heard a "thoice" or a conversation ---"bird watching".
recent and on-going thoices or voices or conversations "please leave" "go" "you t