
''Fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step."
-Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
I chose this quote for one particular reason or one particular line. "This storm is you. Something inside of you." Stepping inside the storm and surrendering then just is basically allowing me to be myself, understand myself, and understand how I coexist with society. I cannot and will never change who I am. I think this will inevitably lead to unhappiness.
Reflecting on this question then and pondering where I would be, I determined that I could only be one place. Here. As I was finishing my degree at Normandale Community College, I needed to take one more class, take one more credit, to fulfill all my requirements for the MNTC. I ended up taking a career exploration class. That class founded all the loose ends of my woven web... or my sandstorm. It took my skills, values, desires, and personality and applied each category to a career: each came out to architecture.
"You will know you have found the career you were supposed to have when all of your talents are used."
-My mother :-)
Looking back, I have also found a sustainable pattern that leads me up to time in my life. Half of course is the environment I grew up in and the other half, what I believe I was given when I came here.
First, my environment. Without disclosing what I've been through, I have been through a number of things, as I know most have, that for me uniquely have strengthened me in a number of ways. It has also helped me to look and re-look at situations I am placed in. It has helped to become more observant of myself and my surroundings. Most importantly though, it has helped me become more introspective. This has enabled me to find what talents and abilities I really possess, which I desire to possess, and which can be implemented when, in which situation, and to benefit which person/people. It has also helped me to know how I react in different situations. It has helped to look at my environment and apply what I see to myself so that I am continually becoming a better person...or so I hope. I know now for sure though that I can accomplish more than I have ever thought possible because of these abilities.
My environment not only included my trials, but it also included what I surrounded by. As I grew older, I moved around a lot. This was something I became accustomed to and I also learned a lot about construction because of it. My father worked in various jobs, but always in the construction/housing industry. He was what most would call a handy man. I did not see what he did with others houses, but I know ours were always under construction. I saw garages built, heating installed, sheetrock put up, wiring put in, bathrooms renovated, you name it. My mother often worked by his side, and I often worked by hers. If she wasn't involved in a project, I would still watch by the sidelines and see what was going on. My brother had little interest in the construction from what I remember, but he was well into the cars. Fortunately, he would satisfy my curiousity for what was going on by letting me help. Usually I was the tool girl (and now I'm absolutely in love with any tool section I walk across), but sometimes he would let me help with the maintenance also, and I would absolutely relish in that. Now I get to boast of times that I helped him overhaul his 89' T-bird super coupe, silver. It was a beautiful car. I can also boast about overhauling my cars engine, with help of course...I don't know that much yet! But I know that I am one of the only people that can say that I placed the rings on the pistons of my car. It's a beautiful thing. Because of these experiences, I have enhanced my mechanical abilities and have also just learned to dig into projects and not worry so much about social stigmas attached to women and mechanical projects. I know that if they have a problem with their vehicle, their more apt to ask.

What my brother's t-bird looked like...exactly like The only pic I didn't take of the bunch excluding the sandstorm.

One of our old houses in Minneapolis (it was all yellow when we had it)
We lived right across from Minnehaha Falls when we lived in Minneapolis. I was fortunate enough to go to see the falls almost every day because all I had to do was just walk across the street. This experience opened my eyes dramatically to the world of nature and the ability to observe my surroundings. To this day, I am still in love with the falls and the beauty surrounding it.

Minnehaha falls-Minneapolis, MN
Now because I know that very few want to hear about my talents and believe me I have no desire to boast, here are some of the pieces of artwork I have completed in the past along with some photography.
Photography:

Lily at the Como Zoo Conservatory

A path leading up to Minnehaha Falls

Nature's simple beauty. Found this gorgeous image on a hike one day...when it was warm out.

My dog because she's just that cute!
Artwork:

I would often, and still do, make sketches of buildings. On a trip with my dad, this is a motel we stayed in overnight.

Scratchboard

Tiger Picture, done in pencil with a colored pencil background and eye
Even though there's very few photographs and pictures that I displayed, I believe that these portray what I am intrinsically interested in. I like to view all things around me and encompass whatever beauty may be found. In addition to these, as the second and third image under photography may show, I am very interested in pattern and mathematics relates to this also. It's amazing how everything in this universe is formed by laws, but still seem so unpredicable. It's beautiful how imperfect perfection can be. I have interests in business, helping people, problem solving, organization, and leadership in addition. I know that there is much that I have to learn still, but I hope that this is a start.
In the end, I don't believe that I should be anywhere else but here. I believe that I have been and will continue to always use my talents to the best of my abilities to benefit those around me and fortunately I have the ability to benefit myself also by attaining an eduction and the prerequisites for a career. By understanding myself, I have found solace in the storm.