Trippin' With No Place To Unpack
What fuels our experimentation? What causes us to take that hit or drink that beer? I remember when I was three years old and I decided to write the word “butt” on a piece of paper. I then heard my mom coming up the stairs and quickly erased it with the guilty feeling that I was now a bad kid because of it. As I grew older I began to make excuses for the things I did and the new things I tried and slowly begin to “slow dance with the devil”. I was drawn to this documentation by Dimmock because it stirred a feeling inside of me that I believe many of my peers share. A false mindset that I am so much different than the addicts documented, and that I would never be able to slip as far as they had. Indulging in these horror stories helped me to realize what made them who they are and helped reflect tendencies in my life that related me with these subjects.
I have been to many school drug meetings and have been told countless times that marijuana is a gateway drug. I seldom listened to what these speakers had to say because they seemed old and far from street saavy. But then I watched as my friends began to smoke weed. The true potheads would smoke and smoke, letting the day softly slip through their fingers like sand through a clenched fist. I heard their complaints that they weren’t getting as high anymore and were looking for the new thing to do it for them. Jessie, one of the junkies documented in this report, said this about the subject of getting high:
Jessie: “And I remember leaning back. And I was on a cloud. And there was not a worry in this world. It just relaxes you. Takes away any of the concern. No fears. No worries. It doesn't do that forever. After awhile you're just doing it to stay straight, to stay normal. And you're not getting the same effects anymore. And then that's why they say you're chasing, the first hit. Cause then you're just doing it to try and get that same feeling that you got in the beginning. But you never really get that. You may get glimpses from time to time. But you never really get that. “
Jessica Dimmock did what many are afraid to do, she melded the thick line separating journalism from art. Art is a subject with an unlimited freedom of expression and often artists chose to dig into the darker side of our world. The general public decide to not indulge themselves in art because they believe it to be morbid or too sinful. But as stated in the article, the highest ratings of television watched is often in times where are country is experiencing a disaster. This raises the question, are people lying to themselves? Many people are afraid to look at something like this because they know that they may find a way in which they relate to these junkies and that is unnerving for them.
Listening to Jessie's stories among others was eye opening for me. Many Americans try to block these stories out as an attempt to try and act like they are not really happening. In order to gain a full understand of the world, we must also study the underworld and its inhabitants. Find out how they got to that point and what decisions were made that separated them from the general public. Studying these people will help us to change our ways before we slip to a spot right next to them.
One of the final questions asked to the reader in this articles was this:
Do you need to react with a form of action if you are to participate in "the looking"?
Not much can be done to help a junkie unless they first decide that they want or need help. This question addresses helping yourself. I looked at these people with hurt and sadness because I felt bad for them and their actions. But the biggest emotion I felt when looking was a feeling of fear. This text acted as a mirror into my life and mindset. Reading this taboo story was the first form of action, the next is to stop the free fall before it is too late.