Happy Holidays to everyone! Quite odd that I am up this early in the morning...I must either be extremely excited for Christmas or cannot wait to explore the rich history and culture of South Africa. Over break I have been able to reflect a lot about what this opportunity will be like for me. After spending most of my life engulfed in American culture and restricted by my own limits and expectations, I realize now this pattern of thinking was devloping me into a person who didn't dare step outside her comfort zone into an area of unknown.
The past year of my life was an opportunity for me to learn more about myself and what developed me into an indivual with extremely high standards and thought processes that lacked a grey area. I want to use this experience to my advantage and continue to explore who I am as an individual.
South Africa has their own interpretation and definition of a community, beleiving that what one does affects not solely themselves but also everyone else. In the past I was harming myself with my words and in return harming others around me. I want to learn what life is like in a community with such an emphasis on how ones actions can effect an entire community. I view this as an opportunity for me to reflect what they believe into my own life and my own past experiences.
Throughout our prior orientations, I have come to the realization that our group is going to be discussing certain topics that are extremely sensitive and uncomfortable. However, it is these moments that help us grow not only individually but also as a community. That is what I believe makes the country of South Africa so unique and appreciative of what they have. They listen to each others stories and by learning about one another, a strong, personal relationship is formed. I felt that way when our group shared our stories during an orientaion meeting. Sure you may feel vulnerable and exposed in the beginning yet the support and appreciation you receive after by far surpass the small moment of embarassment.
I cannot wait to spend three weeks with such a wonderful group of people. I anticipate challenges, growth and such unique experiences for all of us. I am blessed to have been given this opportunity to meet these people who I am venturing across the country with ready to take on all that South Africa has to offer! Only 2 days left. I am ready to step outside my comfort zone for I beleive this is an appropriate time, location and support group to do so with. whoooo hoo! :)
Emily