Preparing for Change
As I embark on this journey, I anticipate a deep change to take root in me. I don't really know what to expect, or that I should expect anything in particular. My heart tells me I'm doing the right thing... My mind tells me I'm ready... I just pray that I don't hold myself back.
Forgive me, I'm just eager to turn the thoughts in my head into words on a screen. My name is Mariana Morgan-Sawyer. I am a freshman at the University of Minnesota TC. I'm majoring in Youth Studies with a focus on the juvenile justice system and I have an undeclared minor. I've been passionate about social justice for just about as long as I can remember. I've been consciously active with it for about 5 years now. As a performer, I've found a way to channel my creative energy into social justice art, or art with intent, through Saint Paul's Penumbra Theater Company. I use theater, among other forms of performing arts, as an expression of purpose for myself. But I digress. I'm really excited for this trip, though that excitement hasn't solidified into much more than occasional outbursts of meaningless noise over the past month or so, I don't believe it's registered with me the magnitude of this whole situation. That explains the refusal of my excitement to surface for more than a couple minutes. I've been saying "I just don't get it yet. I don't get that I'm going to South Africa." I don't really know what it means yet, but something's calling me to go, so my bags are packed, my ticket is paid for, and my ride is ready to bring me to the airport tomorrow morning. I will be open and willing. I will be thoughtful and reflective. I will come back a changed person.
Pre-Departure: Cape Town, South Africa
The continent of the birth of someone who gave birth to me. The continent of home. Make believe and I shall receive as if I belong there. As if the father who bore me came from somewhere seen as opposed to the unknown reality that precedes us. A resident of the Twin Cities, I know not where I come from or where I shall be, but where I'll be this New Years Eve. I pray change will be welcomed and regret scarce as I embark on a journey of new possibility.