Re-Entry & Adjustment
It's been a week since we returned, since I woke up in the United States. Part of me hasn't yet arrived from South Africa, and the part that has is being swept up in the whirlwind that is my last semester of college.
I dreamt about Cape Town and our cohort for 5 days straight and could barely wake up without feeling some wave of emotion about what happened when I was in South Africa. I don't cry as much, but I do ache to be back.
What I do notice is that, I've calmed down. I have relaxed, I am not rushing to be in 100 places doing 1000 things for the sake of some abstract definition of success or another. Why? Because of Educo, because of our Circles, because of Delft. I like to think it is because I have had the opportunity to sit in a place of witness and have no choice but to be grateful for life, to be responsible for keeping the things that are important, important.
It's still hard though--i'm not perfect and I find myself getting lost, or losing touch with the grounding that South Africa granted me on so many levels. But, I am reminded that it was not just me, I changed with a group of amazing people and I have the chance to be accountable for what I have learned. It's a ridiculously comforting thought.