To my dearest friends:
TT., Frankie, Cleo,
I can not tell you all enough how much I have missed you. When I look back on our last adventures together, I realize how stupid we were. How could we think that money would be the only way to be happy. I have all the money in the world right now, but I am miserable. I have lost the three best friends I have ever had. Loosing you all has been extremely hard on me.
I feel guilty for surviving. I know that the policeman saw me leave on the bus, or at least I thought. I feel guilty that I got away and am living a life with so many nice things. However, I am not happy. I am lonely without you, without Keith, and without the old me. I know that I can never go back to see Keith. IT will never work out unless I want to sacrifice myself. So, I have decided to hide away in paradise. However, the paradise feels too good to be mine, and I feel out of place. I miss you all so very much.
I will not give up girls. I eventually hope to meet friends again and feel happy the way we were. The rest of my life, I will live for all of us because this is the life we dreamed of. Even though we are not all here together, I will never forget the way it could have been and the way it should have been.
I miss you; i love you, forever.
Love, Stony