To my son
When I look at you I see my failures as a father.
I am Anthony, I am Tick, I am Mitzi, I am also your father. I was afraid to tell anyone that I was a father when we left on our trip even though I knew you were waiting at our destination. I was afraid people would judge me to be a bad father. I know I am not a perfect dad. I haven’t been around for you as you were growing up. I am a show-biz performer and not the best role model. I was afraid my friends would tell me these things and tell me I wasn't worthy to be a father. Even though I think these things are true I didn’t want to hear them. However when I saw you again I was amazed that you are able to love me and do not see the bad things I have done. You admires me in a way I don’t even admire myself. Because of you I view my life differently. I am now most proud of the fact that I am a father. I will be a good father despite the miles between us. Come back and visit me in Sidney soon.