Boys on the Side
Nick, I didn't mean to hurt you.
I didn't mean to hurt you but you hurt me. I loved you and I thought you loved me, but I guess I was wrong. When you love someone, you don't physically hurt them, you treat them with respect and you never lay a hand on them. When I left you, you were alive but later I found out you were dead. I was hurt and scared for myself. Luckily, I had my girlfriends to help me along the way. They showed me how to get along without you, and I am a better person for it.
If it weren't for my friends I would not know what true love is. They made me keep going and eventually I was fortunate enough to meet a new man. He treated me with respect and never laid a hand on me. He loved me for all of my flaws and I am a better person for it.
It was wrong for you to not trust and believe me. Eventually you experienced the wrath of your evil. I am sorry you died but I am not sorry I left. I now know that I am worth more than you. I deserve better and I deserve not to be hit. I love you for the person you could sometimes be and I wish your demise hadn't developed the way it did. I promise to live my life knowing that I can do a be a better person than you. Thank you for that.