forgive me....i couldn't save you
I am so sorry. I couldn't save you. I should have told you never to leave, to stay where it was warm, and where you knew the world and the world knew you. I couldn't stop you from giving up everything you had worked for to become and do nothing. I should have kept your wandering spirit from leaving, or at least gotten you to take up the farmer's offer so you could create a new life that was somewhat stable.All I wanted was for you to be happy. Safe and happy, and I failed. I should have warned you about the drinking, drugs, and men. I should have told you you'd go hungry and thirsty and every day the world would be a little more threatening. I should have made you realize that what you were leaving for was not worth your spirit, or your life.
But I couldnt, and i didn't.
Please, please forgive me.