You deserved better.
To my daughter,
I'm sorry for abandoning you at the hospital after I gave birth to you. I want you to know that I love you very much and I think of you every day. There is no excuse for what I did, but I want you to know that I did it because I thought I wouldn’t be good enough for you. You deserved better than what I could offer and I was terrified that I would fail as your mother. I've never succeeded at anything in my life, so I thought this would be no different. I know it may seem like I took something away from you by giving you up, but in my mind I felt like I was giving you a chance. Some days I feel like I made the right decision, but I will never know for sure. I hope you had a mother while you grew up; one that was never a topless dancer, one that had a better job than waitressing at a bar, and one that could teach you how to find and keep a relationship.
I just want you to know that I didn’t leave you because I didn’t love you; I left you because I loved you so much that I wanted to give you a chance.
Please forgive me,